02-02-2016, 02:34 AM
This is an absolutely amazing session. Q'uo explains how illness is a complex manifestation of the mind's inability to make use of catalyst, and this section on how to make the best use of catalyst is rather detailed:
I have been asking for guidance on how to deal with triggers like this, so this is really right up my alley. This also gives me more concrete guidance on the emotional balancing-through-intensification method of dealing with pain.
Quote:There is an activity that we would recommend highly as you work to clarify your understanding of yourself and that is attention paid to the present moment. Watch yourself throughout your day. When you see that something has triggered an impulse in you, pay attention to that trigger. The triggers are a sign of unexpressed pain.* tape flip, cleaned it up to flow right
Somewhere towards the end of the day, find yourself a little time and a little space so that you may think over the day and ponder each trigger that moved you. Say you had a reaction of irritation and impatience. This kind of reaction occurs when you strike something that is buried within you that has caused you pain. To each observing soul within incarnation, the rest of the world is as a hall of mirrors. It helps you see yourself. When you react to someone else’s behavior, you are reacting to that because you have not found it within yourself. You have not forgiven it. You have not asked it to work with you for the good, for the light, for the love of the infinite Creator. And so it remains in your shadow, unintegrated and unrecognized.
Therefore, those who irritate you, make you impatient, or make you angry or jealous or any of those seemingly difficult emotions are doing you the favor of bringing to your attention a part of yourself that you have neglected. And why would you not wish to neglect the murderer within you, the adulterer within you and so forth? But we are not suggesting that you act out all of these roles. We are suggesting that you gaze at the type of energy that is expended when you are working with certain emotions.
In many cases, you may see the activity of that emotion as a marker for buried pain. Perhaps the incident that originally caused you to bury this pain was so far back in your childhood that you cannot remember it. Yet it is holding attention within you that is toxic. So the more that you can ponder those triggers, feel them, respect them and pay attention to them, the more you will be able to come into balance within your chakra body, within your inner electrical bodies.
You do not do this by simply paying attention to the irritation and impatience. You move further than that. After you have focused on these feelings and really paid attention to your own pain, you then ask to experience the opposite of that emotion. Just as negative emotions are based in fear, so positive emotions are based in love. You’re asking yourself to allow the dynamic opposite of patience and irritation to be felt by you with the same intensity that you felt the irritation.
You do not cause it to happen, but rather you allow it to happen by setting your intention to feel that and then allowing it to develop naturally. It may take some time at first but soon you will find that you have a knack for this and are able to hold in your mind the feeling of the fear-based emotion of impatience and irritation and the positive, love-based emotions of compassion and serenity. And when you can see both things and know that you are both things, a healing takes place concerning that particular emotion* and you are able to release the pain and feel the self as being larger than that pain and therefore free of being imprisoned or limited by the experience of that catalyst.
We would say to the questioner that it is well to come into a relationship with the self in which there is no fear, no tension, no judgment, and no tendency towards discouragement. The days of an incarnation are very limited and it is well to win freedom from the judgment towards the self that compromises that relationship of self to self. This instrument has often described the desired result of such work as falling in love with the self. When you are in love with someone, they can do no wrong. They might make an error, but it is a small thing. The essence of that person is so appreciated and seen in such a strong and clear light that there are simply ways to love that entity based on their imperfections as well as their perfections.
It is easier for the thoughtful and sensitive seeker to love another with that kind of romantic glow than it is to love the self with that same aura of deep appreciation and respect and yet, dear one, you deserve it. You have earned it over and over. You are worthy.
When the orange ray is compromised by unworthiness, it reflects upon the indigo ray as well, for the indigo ray is the higher chakra in which the self is steeped in the devotion to the Creator that allows for work in consciousness and for the passage of passive radiation of light.
I have been asking for guidance on how to deal with triggers like this, so this is really right up my alley. This also gives me more concrete guidance on the emotional balancing-through-intensification method of dealing with pain.