10-22-2016, 02:29 AM
I smoked a half-bowl of Salvia 20x, in one large lungful. I held it in for 30 seconds. I was sitting cross-legged outside in a comfortable chair.
I became aware that I was very close to a living, vibrating, organism-door. This door was slightly ajar, and behind it was a bright, mysterious light. I hadn't smoked enough, however, which the entities that were attached to the door made known to me. They were annoyingly chanting, "you didn't smoked enoughh, didn't reach the door!" and suddenly I simply tapped a deep source of laughter, deeep within myself, and I burst out, "SO?!? So fuckin' what, I didn't reach the door! I want to see you guys behind the door first!"
And then, oh man. With my eyes closed, I saw a new color of the environment around me, the fourth density vibration! I saw it, guys, I saw a glimpse of fourth density! Whatever I remember now is obviously the third density version of the real thing, but holy s***, it's there, all of the time!!
And it is hilarious. Seriously. It felt like a constant play, a performance in which each actor knows exactly what to do to make it the funniest, most energizing sensation. It is LOADED with energy. It was so hilarious that I actually could not laugh, I could only participate in it. Like it was a hilarity that transcended physical laughter, like how - HOLY s***, it's exactly like how on stage, the BEST stand-up comedians never laugh, they just exude hilarity. Louis CK! He's a fourth density comedian.
Anyway. I can't really communicate how awesome it was. And this is going on constantly underneath the veil, from what the entities told me. They communicated that they are constantly there, providing little commentary in my head, they contribute to that "inner voice" that guides us to make decisions. They can only tell you what you seek, or what you've already found, or what you're trying to find. These entities were also cleaning the environment around me, I think. Like there was one who was scrubbing the ground, it was already pristine, I think because I had meditated there for 15 minutes beforehand.
They told me that there is a deep weight in my heart. They were a bit disappointed that I didn't go through the door at the beginning, because going through the door would mean confronting and ridding myself of this weight (I think).
As the experience started to wane in intensity, I felt/saw myself moving back through each layer of the veil. There were like 15-20 layers, each with presumably infinite sublayers. I didn't even feel sad, though, because their exit was hilarious (they did this routine where they sloowwly canoed out of my view, while it was clear that they really still were there, but because of the veil I couldn't see them anymore). I felt them move from visible, to simply available in my little inner voice-thoughts.
I realize I've been conversing with them almost constantly for the past few months, a little conversation for all the things I do throughout my day.
They said this, the most important thing to me (I wrote it down as they said it): "as you move about your day, you move, to various degrees, in and out of this 'veil,' so-called. this veil is like weights. its purpose is to strengthen the weaker aspects of your being."
and this: "your meditation has allowed us to move much closer to you [consciously] on a daily basis."
So, umm... that's immensely reassuring. And also frustrating. Because you know what? I would fucking love to exist on that level of reality ALL THE TIME. that is heaven, what I experienced last night.
It was like, you know how every once in a while, you get a "PERFECT MOMENT." Well, this level, which I'm almost certain was the beginning of fourth density, is a CONSTANT PERFECT MOMENT.
oh yeah, I forgot about this strange sort of part: I was staring (eyes closed), gaping at these entities, when it suddenly hit me, I exclaimed, "are you guys - is this fourth density?!" and then I saw their eyes for the only time during the whole trip. Every one of them, and some surrounding peripheral eyes as well, looked at me, with what seemed to be a small fraction of their beings, like I only juuust saw a glimpse of their eyes, and it was identical to that perfectly content, laughing, buddha smile. The smile that says "dude. you have no idea. absolutely no idea. and it's always going to get better."
so now im back behind the veil, and im still carrying this heavy heart weight. dont know how to get rid of it any more than i did yesterday. i dont have any more answers than i did yesterday. but the difference is that now i have a slight reassurance, that for the faith muscle to be exercised, i HAVE to not remember, otherwise there would be no strengthening. Let us observe how long this motivation lasts.
I became aware that I was very close to a living, vibrating, organism-door. This door was slightly ajar, and behind it was a bright, mysterious light. I hadn't smoked enough, however, which the entities that were attached to the door made known to me. They were annoyingly chanting, "you didn't smoked enoughh, didn't reach the door!" and suddenly I simply tapped a deep source of laughter, deeep within myself, and I burst out, "SO?!? So fuckin' what, I didn't reach the door! I want to see you guys behind the door first!"
And then, oh man. With my eyes closed, I saw a new color of the environment around me, the fourth density vibration! I saw it, guys, I saw a glimpse of fourth density! Whatever I remember now is obviously the third density version of the real thing, but holy s***, it's there, all of the time!!
And it is hilarious. Seriously. It felt like a constant play, a performance in which each actor knows exactly what to do to make it the funniest, most energizing sensation. It is LOADED with energy. It was so hilarious that I actually could not laugh, I could only participate in it. Like it was a hilarity that transcended physical laughter, like how - HOLY s***, it's exactly like how on stage, the BEST stand-up comedians never laugh, they just exude hilarity. Louis CK! He's a fourth density comedian.
Anyway. I can't really communicate how awesome it was. And this is going on constantly underneath the veil, from what the entities told me. They communicated that they are constantly there, providing little commentary in my head, they contribute to that "inner voice" that guides us to make decisions. They can only tell you what you seek, or what you've already found, or what you're trying to find. These entities were also cleaning the environment around me, I think. Like there was one who was scrubbing the ground, it was already pristine, I think because I had meditated there for 15 minutes beforehand.
They told me that there is a deep weight in my heart. They were a bit disappointed that I didn't go through the door at the beginning, because going through the door would mean confronting and ridding myself of this weight (I think).
As the experience started to wane in intensity, I felt/saw myself moving back through each layer of the veil. There were like 15-20 layers, each with presumably infinite sublayers. I didn't even feel sad, though, because their exit was hilarious (they did this routine where they sloowwly canoed out of my view, while it was clear that they really still were there, but because of the veil I couldn't see them anymore). I felt them move from visible, to simply available in my little inner voice-thoughts.
I realize I've been conversing with them almost constantly for the past few months, a little conversation for all the things I do throughout my day.
They said this, the most important thing to me (I wrote it down as they said it): "as you move about your day, you move, to various degrees, in and out of this 'veil,' so-called. this veil is like weights. its purpose is to strengthen the weaker aspects of your being."
and this: "your meditation has allowed us to move much closer to you [consciously] on a daily basis."
So, umm... that's immensely reassuring. And also frustrating. Because you know what? I would fucking love to exist on that level of reality ALL THE TIME. that is heaven, what I experienced last night.
It was like, you know how every once in a while, you get a "PERFECT MOMENT." Well, this level, which I'm almost certain was the beginning of fourth density, is a CONSTANT PERFECT MOMENT.
oh yeah, I forgot about this strange sort of part: I was staring (eyes closed), gaping at these entities, when it suddenly hit me, I exclaimed, "are you guys - is this fourth density?!" and then I saw their eyes for the only time during the whole trip. Every one of them, and some surrounding peripheral eyes as well, looked at me, with what seemed to be a small fraction of their beings, like I only juuust saw a glimpse of their eyes, and it was identical to that perfectly content, laughing, buddha smile. The smile that says "dude. you have no idea. absolutely no idea. and it's always going to get better."
so now im back behind the veil, and im still carrying this heavy heart weight. dont know how to get rid of it any more than i did yesterday. i dont have any more answers than i did yesterday. but the difference is that now i have a slight reassurance, that for the faith muscle to be exercised, i HAVE to not remember, otherwise there would be no strengthening. Let us observe how long this motivation lasts.