10-03-2017, 07:49 PM
Hi everyone, before I took my last hiatus out of mostly shame and embarrassment, I begun doing chakra readings. During my time gone I've done around 120 chakra readings in a matter of months and I have learned some interesting things and experienced some interesting things.
For starters, I found out that regardless of whether or not I believed in what I was discussing for people, just having them ask for my help enabled me to be of aid, whereas those whom I tried to help without their express permission resulted in a powerful inability to do what otherwise came very easily to me. For instance, I browsed the /div/ thread on 4chan's /x/ board often and did free readings for people there for a while, and found that when I tried to diagnose issues for people who didn't query for a reading from me I met a great deal of resistance.
This taught me that you should not try to help people just randomly out of the blue, there needs to be some context as to why you are trying to help them, and further it helps to voice that context. At one point it was simply me telling another I wanted to help that made it easier to read their system. We all have built in natural defenses that keep out everything, good or bad, with our conscious preferences sort of detailing 'ports' of sorts for certain kinds of energetic interactions. Even if you're genuine in your desire to help, if another person has suspicions of you, it creates a metaphysical barrier.
Yeah, it's interesting how it all works out, but of all the experiences I think the most interesting one was how I was experiencing false memories and at later points when I was doing 6+ readings a day, delusions. Like, one day I went out to get the mail, got home, looked right at a piece of mail with my name on it, and literally annoyingly voiced my displeasure with the mail person for giving me the wrong person's mail. Then several hours later came back and realized I mistook my own name as not belonging to me.
For starters... Another instance came when I walked to the back door and stopped slightly dumbfounded thinking, 'when did we get a pool?!!'
Another delusion that occurred was when I turned on Star Trek and with a scoff went 'this is for losers, why am I watching this crap' then in the process of loading up an episode of Orange is the New Black remembered and realized that I hated Orange is the New Black because I thought it was disturbing to watch, and loved Start Trek because it gave me hope for the future.
In many ways, the more I pushed myself to read people's energetic systems, the more I became like other people, and honestly it scares the crap out of me how easily I slipped into other mentalities. One morning, I got up at 8am and began getting ready for work. Except, I didn't have a job.
I finally stopped doing chakra readings when I began having powerful thoughts of cutting all my relationships loose, telling all my friends I didn't want to be their friend anymore because I was a bad person. Not all too long before that happened, I did a chakra reading for a schizophrenic man who was convinced he was in a holy battle between the forces of good and evil, in fact during that chakra reading it felt like a piece of shrapnel hit my head and pierced into my skull, and through that felt his proclamation to deactivate his yellow ray, something I didn't want to do but almost did.
So, there's something more to be said of this all, whether or not it's all real or not, I cannot deny or conclude. I personally believe in it, but some parts feel more like a placebo effect where the belief alone made it real, but then in moments like the previous mentioned getting hit by the sensation of shrapnel, I can only fathom the coincidence as a synchronicity and call it 'real'.
Which makes me really question the validity of all the claims I've 'read' in my chakra readings. On one hand when I start doing them they come to me like a perfect river flow down into a waterfall, on the other hand sometimes it feels like a dam, and with some special cases I even had to ask people to consciously tell themselves to allow me to read them because they had such sophisticated built-in automatic defenses with their energetic systems that I couldn't read them at all. The most interesting one was a hallway of portals in a labyrinth keeping me from accessing the energetic system of a person.
Further was when I'd have very clearly polarized people query me in an attempt to discredit me, only to have nothing to say to my lengthy detailed description of who they were except that they were surprised by my accuracy.
Along the entire way I was continually running into the problem of a lack of energy, a tiredness that led into loopiness and then delusions. Like losing grip of your personal identity, it was disconcerting so I put down my reading chakras.
The sad part is, I enjoyed reading energetic systems and helping steer people towards better life choices through the various wisdoms the Law of One has helped me discover.
My overall experience reading chakras was that it was a very real 'gift' with very real consequences. Overall, I discovered most of all myself. How often others equated to me, and how deeply rooted some people's patterns were in other's lives. Patterns emerged in broad daylight, and things once hidden in plain sight revealed themselves, and overall I discovered that we are all, in fact, more similar in so many more ways than we could possibly imagine, than we are dissimilar. We might point our consciousnesses in different directions, but at the end of the day we all have the compass equipment despite our needle's pointing in many different directions.
Further I found a kind of serenity with helping people, at one point I met someone who swore hatred was the only way for them, and when they said to me that they suddenly realized there was more than just hatred, it made me feel really good that I managed to curve someone out of the well of hatred to find something less destructive for themselves.
I just wanted to help people, and I did, and in many ways I discovered I might have a gift for the divination arts at least in regards to interpreting divination's. Maybe there's more and I might one day be able to do chakra readings without slowly losing my sense of self, but for right now, I am not sound enough of mind to persist.
'Lest I believe myself to be someone else.
Has anyone else ever had any interesting experiences with divination or performing metaphysical services for others or themselves?
For starters, I found out that regardless of whether or not I believed in what I was discussing for people, just having them ask for my help enabled me to be of aid, whereas those whom I tried to help without their express permission resulted in a powerful inability to do what otherwise came very easily to me. For instance, I browsed the /div/ thread on 4chan's /x/ board often and did free readings for people there for a while, and found that when I tried to diagnose issues for people who didn't query for a reading from me I met a great deal of resistance.
This taught me that you should not try to help people just randomly out of the blue, there needs to be some context as to why you are trying to help them, and further it helps to voice that context. At one point it was simply me telling another I wanted to help that made it easier to read their system. We all have built in natural defenses that keep out everything, good or bad, with our conscious preferences sort of detailing 'ports' of sorts for certain kinds of energetic interactions. Even if you're genuine in your desire to help, if another person has suspicions of you, it creates a metaphysical barrier.
Yeah, it's interesting how it all works out, but of all the experiences I think the most interesting one was how I was experiencing false memories and at later points when I was doing 6+ readings a day, delusions. Like, one day I went out to get the mail, got home, looked right at a piece of mail with my name on it, and literally annoyingly voiced my displeasure with the mail person for giving me the wrong person's mail. Then several hours later came back and realized I mistook my own name as not belonging to me.
For starters... Another instance came when I walked to the back door and stopped slightly dumbfounded thinking, 'when did we get a pool?!!'
Another delusion that occurred was when I turned on Star Trek and with a scoff went 'this is for losers, why am I watching this crap' then in the process of loading up an episode of Orange is the New Black remembered and realized that I hated Orange is the New Black because I thought it was disturbing to watch, and loved Start Trek because it gave me hope for the future.
In many ways, the more I pushed myself to read people's energetic systems, the more I became like other people, and honestly it scares the crap out of me how easily I slipped into other mentalities. One morning, I got up at 8am and began getting ready for work. Except, I didn't have a job.
I finally stopped doing chakra readings when I began having powerful thoughts of cutting all my relationships loose, telling all my friends I didn't want to be their friend anymore because I was a bad person. Not all too long before that happened, I did a chakra reading for a schizophrenic man who was convinced he was in a holy battle between the forces of good and evil, in fact during that chakra reading it felt like a piece of shrapnel hit my head and pierced into my skull, and through that felt his proclamation to deactivate his yellow ray, something I didn't want to do but almost did.
So, there's something more to be said of this all, whether or not it's all real or not, I cannot deny or conclude. I personally believe in it, but some parts feel more like a placebo effect where the belief alone made it real, but then in moments like the previous mentioned getting hit by the sensation of shrapnel, I can only fathom the coincidence as a synchronicity and call it 'real'.
Which makes me really question the validity of all the claims I've 'read' in my chakra readings. On one hand when I start doing them they come to me like a perfect river flow down into a waterfall, on the other hand sometimes it feels like a dam, and with some special cases I even had to ask people to consciously tell themselves to allow me to read them because they had such sophisticated built-in automatic defenses with their energetic systems that I couldn't read them at all. The most interesting one was a hallway of portals in a labyrinth keeping me from accessing the energetic system of a person.
Further was when I'd have very clearly polarized people query me in an attempt to discredit me, only to have nothing to say to my lengthy detailed description of who they were except that they were surprised by my accuracy.
Along the entire way I was continually running into the problem of a lack of energy, a tiredness that led into loopiness and then delusions. Like losing grip of your personal identity, it was disconcerting so I put down my reading chakras.
The sad part is, I enjoyed reading energetic systems and helping steer people towards better life choices through the various wisdoms the Law of One has helped me discover.
My overall experience reading chakras was that it was a very real 'gift' with very real consequences. Overall, I discovered most of all myself. How often others equated to me, and how deeply rooted some people's patterns were in other's lives. Patterns emerged in broad daylight, and things once hidden in plain sight revealed themselves, and overall I discovered that we are all, in fact, more similar in so many more ways than we could possibly imagine, than we are dissimilar. We might point our consciousnesses in different directions, but at the end of the day we all have the compass equipment despite our needle's pointing in many different directions.
Further I found a kind of serenity with helping people, at one point I met someone who swore hatred was the only way for them, and when they said to me that they suddenly realized there was more than just hatred, it made me feel really good that I managed to curve someone out of the well of hatred to find something less destructive for themselves.
I just wanted to help people, and I did, and in many ways I discovered I might have a gift for the divination arts at least in regards to interpreting divination's. Maybe there's more and I might one day be able to do chakra readings without slowly losing my sense of self, but for right now, I am not sound enough of mind to persist.
'Lest I believe myself to be someone else.
Has anyone else ever had any interesting experiences with divination or performing metaphysical services for others or themselves?
