I feel compelled to post this for some reason; perhaps it may spur others into looking for alternate insight. I have for the past couple months began engaging in deeper 'inner work', particularly with regards to certain repressed aspects of the psyche, as well as looking towards my dreams as an alternate avenue for diagnostics. I have not been let down, that's for sure.
For example, a couple nights ago I got into a somewhat heated argument with my father over something (in retrospect) fairly trivial. Instigated by an attack of sorts on his part through dialogue, which is a fairly common occurrence. The 'ideal' reaction would have been brushing it off as humour, however it pretty much resulted in a heated honest exchange of words releasing pent up emotion (It honestly felt good and a relief, which threw me for a while). Looking back there was much said on my part which ordinarily I wouldn't do, somewhat akin to being 'possessed' and on 'autopilot' through the exchange, which was indicative of various subconscious beliefs expressing themselves. Normally we do not associate ourselves with such beliefs (Whatever may have been stated in an Argument which looking back confuses you wondering where it came from, which we can all relate to), and so they seem alien when expressing themselves, however I found it could be leveraged as an avenue through which I could directly work on addressing those beliefs, so it was positive catalyst.
Anyway, I worked on it that night, and was half expecting something relating to it to come up in my dream, which it did that night. There's quite a bit I didn't recall, though I find the important details are always remembered (I lay awake for a few moments just after waking recalling the dream, allowing the memory to 'solidify', so I can record later that day).
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Dream: Right, so I see a middle aged Asian Indian man, who seems generally angry/depressed. I do not recognise him, however I am in his presence and he offers me something to eat. I can 'tell' he is simply doing so out of courtesy, bowing to culture and tradition, rather than being something he 'wanted' to do. I smile and say "No, thank you" and he takes this as a major insult, and storms off to get me something to eat anyway.
The scene then moves to Adonai and Vervex funnily enough. I see them hopping and jumping around free as anything, doing whatever the heck they liked without any regards to 'rules'. It was somewhat chaotic.
The scene then moves to me being in the water. There is a 'sea battle' going on with ancient Chinese ships on either side. I recall attacking the other side at various intervals, though it was a stalemate for the most part.
Analysis: Clearly the Indian Man represented the aspect (And therefore symbolic) of bowing to tradition, culture, authority; this is one end of the spectrum. I could see my father parallel here, where the sadness was a result from misunderstanding and not knowing 'anything else' other than to follow social constructs imposed upon him. I rejected this, which also blends in with the argument that day.
Now on the other side of the spectrum there's complete flamboyant freedom, without any regards to rules, organisation, hierarchy etc. The unconscious mind felt fit to utilize two members from the forums here as symbols (Which btw I'm hoping I didn't offend with this - It's simply what was 'served up' on my screen). This scene was somewhat chaotic, which deterred me as well.
I am in the water, a powerful symbol, which to me represented emotions/beliefs/unconscious. The 'battle' and 'stalemate' was indicative of the clash in my emotions and beliefs between the culture (And complete bending towards authority) and flamboyant freedom (Not being grounded, listening to others). The 'stalemate' was the importance of maintaining balance between the two and that I was achieving this (I felt powerful in the water), though still something I needed to note and address.
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Dream: The next dream I had last night. Again alot I do not recall however what I do I found enough for analysis. Anyway, I find myself in a classroom. I and 8 others had been absent for a week and we were returning (I think we were seniors, not sure), but I remember seeing Pickle/BrownEye there as one of them. The teacher was new, the headmaster who had taken over a week before. He gave us each a compass and were told to 'recalibrate it'. Mine was sufficiently done already, but there were a few adjustments to be made. The teacher asks what figure we had to set the compass to to in order to recalibrate, and the answer was 7.83 (I remember this clearly). He then asks what was the important thing about this number, to which I knew the answer but did not say the answer, which was the the '3' was a recurring decimal point (Yeah, don't ask Lol). Anyway, it was a good class, and I remember walking out and I see an old school friend I hadn't seen in years. I was feeling great and confident, and see a beautiful girl on the way which almost seems to court me, which I then ignore and walk down to find he barely notices me. I said Hi and struck a general conversation, though he didn't particularly seem pleased to see me, more 'disinterest', not wanting to engage and on a different wavelength. I wasn't sad at this, more the opposite, akin to being who I am and being confident in that. He was wearing sunglasses and pretty much trying to look 'cool'.
Analysis: The compass represents direction. Requiring a recalibration means that I was seeking a new direction, however the fact it was sufficiently calibrated already meant I was pretty much on the right path anyway, only requiring slight adjustments at this point. Seeing BrownEye in the classroom environment to me meant this was relating to a spiritual lesson. Having a new more qualified teacher perhaps indicated I was 'moving up' in what I knew.
I was struggling to figure out what on earth 7.83 meant, and why I remembered this figure so clearly in my mind. So I googled on a whim and found it was the Alpha brainwave frequency state! This meant to me that in order to achieve clearer direction it was important I meditate more. The infinitely recurring figure 3 that I 'knew' but didn't say meant that I knew this was the gateway to Intelligent Infinity (through the Higher Self), and was something I should particularly take note of.
Outside the class seeing the beautiful female could potentially refer to embracing the feminine principles more (and seeing the beauty in it), in particular those faculties associated with 'feeling' and 'imagination', whereas It was currently biased towards analytical and logic. Seeing the old friend at the end represents old materialistic values and ideals in society that I had once harboured. Through seeking and going through a new direction I now find myself distant to this bandwidth of thought, and being content with that.
Well that turned out longer than I expected
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