Hey guys sorry for taking a while to post. I didnt think anyone more post woulc come frome this but I am happy to reply!!
@Infinite & Kristina I will explain the story... Since a kid I guess I learned to meditate on accident... I would climb the highest tree and just sit and enjoy the breeze. I had a bush I like to go to aswell were I would sit amongst the branches and just relax.... I think that made me concious of my dreams and etc. Before I knew what I was doing I would astral project... I would expeirence some past lives....
I had a issue with a ghost or something in that apartment... and it would try to scare me or something... one day I came home and there was a doll in the middle of the room.... it was my sisters doll and it was the kind that if you sit it up the eye lids open... anyways.. my mom droped me off from elementary school and went to get my sister... I was home alone and I went into my room and that doll was there facing the opposite direction... It then turned its head slowly around towards me and blinked... I ran at the doll and took it to the back and burned it... Story to illustrate my lack of fear...
anyways I would have nightmares and etc and I create a vehicle... it was like a werewolf type thing with wings...
Since I could remember I would go on these missions... there were many kinds but the ones that I remember most vividly were kids in cages... kids in houses...kids in warehouses all locked up and they were really afraid... I would be rescuing them... every night it was something like this and the visions were extremely vivid...
anyways fast forward 10 years or so and im 16 or something... It was easy to astral project... I just had to lie on my back and that was enough for me to separate.... as I grew older I tried practicing flying faster... jumping higher... teleporting... punching fast... teleporting... at this time it seemed like my astral travels stuff was blending into the real world... btw.... I usually did mission type stuff where I would appear somewhere and I just had to mess things up... and attack people etc... I had a sword too... Long story short... I started to be able to see in pitch black in the real world.... everything would kinda be flashing white and the outline of everything would be visible to me.... There was a couple times I disappeared... (I lived in a abusive house hold and my Dad would sometimes come looking for me...) I could see ghost with the same way I see at night... I started having full visions.... similar to the way that so raven is like.... Also the form I was using would change... black wings to white wings.. but there was one time I went to transform and I bursted into a being of light... it felt like my body was on fire or something but I could feel every flick of flame and it was a burning sensation that felt great.... kinda like a hot bath mixed with a orgasm but not sexual... It just felt amazing... From that I had a extremely high heat tolerance... normal water that would burn me... just felt great... lol that lasted only a couple of months though...
anyways... im living in a whole different state and stuff and that house had ghost and what ever else in it... long story short... it would pray on my sister through my dad and when it got enough energy it would try on me... but the thing was I had multiple ghost and energies living in that house... so I am not sure who I teleported....
so basically I was practicing new tactical moves on the astral realm and one of those new things was teleporting things into a void... it was just practice and at the time it seemed like a good idea... because I was starting to notice that I was attacking everything lol i have ptsd from astral traveling on these missions... anyways I was taking a nap one day in my room and I was in a false awakening and this shadow being was staring right at me........ I instantly teleported the being away to that void..... but when I did... I heard my guardians voices for the first time..... they were like.... Terrance Nooooo!!! Then thats when I knew that I shouldn't have done that...
It was not to long after that... maybe a couple weeks or so when I was asleep... and I woke up in the middle of the night.... it seeemed very reall so I am not sure if it was a astral projection or what.... but I was asleep and I woke up to the sense of danger and it was completely silent.... Just then a bunch of men in clothes that look like swat but didnt have any writing on them, entered my room.... I was surprised and teleported outside... (at this point I figure I am astral projecting).... I normally dont see humans when Im out and about... so when I saw a group of men I was startled but not afraid...... I was now in my back yard.... if your wondering why I didnt teleport somewhere far... its because I had to think quick and out of their reach was the easiest option... anyways when I did... those guys just ran through the wall like it was not there... and there were guys coming from the front yard and further back in the yard...
Right there I felt threatened and I transformed into that wolf being.... I never really compared myself to another person but when I transformed id say that I was maybe 6 or 7 feet tall because as a human I was 5'10 and I was basically eye level with the guy before hand and after I was noticeably taller than him..... I use to be very angry as a kid but I would use my anger constructively..... so as I transformed I could see the fear in this guys face.... through his visor... it was definitely strange to see emotion like this and I was about to pick him up but after seeing his fear... I stopped... and decided to just jump into the air...
I had practice jumping plenty of times before and I practice jumping high and jumping high fast... so I understood how to control the jump.... So when I did jump... i noticed that at some point in the jump it felt like I was being pulled up... kinda like being on a roller coaster... as I was being pulled up I could see the neighborhood disappear and clouds going by me but I was still facing towards the ground.... I couldn't move and the higher I went I noticed that I became detached mentally and everything started to fade to black....
I dont remember what happened after that but I do remember floating in the middle of my room close to the ceiling towards my bed with my blanket draped over me... I woke up (real life) laying the opposite direction that I always sleep and I had a dry blood stain on my right shin...... I also noticed the next day that my dad had a dry blood stain on his shin too.....
thats basically it... It seemed like I was banned from the astral realm for a while... If I astral projected... I would be picked up by something unseen and put back in my body... I am assuming that I expel alot of energy when I do things... Years later I learned that it was because I was drawing the wrong kind of attention to myself... and it seemed like I was involved with the military in some way... I dont know yet...I just remember talking to a military person all in green like the old style military uniforms in America... and the guy was asking me what I did in my civilian life....
anyways lol you get the point... I can elaborate some more but as you can see it would probally be another book...
@Ixchel
this is my 3rd time living with someone of this type of nature... that doesn't mind the thought of suicide or self harm.... from what I can tell this person and the other person share common things...
Doesn't clean up after them selves and space is messy...
2 of the 3 had anger issues.
Attempted suicide in the past all ready...
I think that's about it... any ways I see their choice and etc as flowing with the least resistance... The thing that I became aware of after reading the Law of One was being telepathic... especially when you know if your not a negative person yet a negative thought comes up... I wont say all instances but for me... I watched my thoughts and I average 85-90% positive thoughts and attitude... but around others who have entity attachments I noticed a trend of negative thoughts as well as feelings towards them.... being annoyed or etc... there was even a time when I "thought of a word" in a different language and repeated it to that person and it was something that hurt their feelings... lol never even heard it before then and I dont remember it...
So path of least resistance... is what the negative polarized being uses... and I guess since the being is directly connected to you... its merges with you... so its kinda like having a split personality but your personality is in charge 98% of the time and it can only make suggestions... I remember astral projecting... I have been learning how to do it consciously.... and I saw a couple of my attachments... one sat on top of my head... where im loosing hair... and the other was was holding on to me on my back with one of its hands going into my heart area..... tsk tsk.. So I guess if a person doesn't know they are being manipulated and usually act on how they feel and have some kind of past trauma... influenced by negative polarized beings... "MEDIA...Entertainment" So when they do something against the grain... or habitat of the negative polarized... it triggers that psychological barrier.... like cleaning makes these people frustrated... Thinking positive or optimistic is the same way...
its definitely a paradox... I feel bad because I dont love myself... but I cant love myself...
@Minyatur
Yeah I see what you mean... I kinda had bits and pieces of the Law of One and the understanding of what is not liked and liked by negative polarized beings... like... instead of teleporting beings to a void... if I felt they were negative.. I would trap them into a energetic box and send them to "heaven" lol did it twice.... I caught this being... and sent him into heaven (or what my mind things is heaven).. he looked more like a negative ghost but human.... the box went into the sky into the clouds and immediately came right back down like it was rejected.... haha I was scared.. I was like crapp.. that didnt work.. what do I do now.. but that guy came out surprisingly like healed and happy..... like a zombie turning into Jim carrey....
I tried this another time and this one kinda seemed like it waas rejected... lol but the being didnt want anything to do with me aftewards.. lol it left quickly....
Another thing I have noticed is that negative polerzied beings and negative beings all know not to be seen by me... and it was causing me trouble... because I could feel them but I couldnt do anything about it... but now that I know that love is infinite... haha and how to send these beings love thanks to the Law of One... no one can escape my passion...
I also read a book for learning astral projection and one of the chapters was about attachments... they had an example of a lady who wanted to server her husbands attachment but when she went to go do it... the being spoke to her and told her why it was there... and that he still had to learn this lesson.... so I dont really mess with peoples attachments... but if they have a negative polarized being... they often try their luck with me...
I have actually taught the mother of her 2 kids and grandaughter the principles of the Law of One and how to send love to these negative polarized beings... haha wow... and she is enthusiastic about it.. that being lost tons of polarity... and it tried to attach me a 2nd time and it was nothing like before... they use to live in fear but now they dont see the dark as a monster anymore... but a child to be taught....
my guardians want me to write a book but and to teach others... I will get to it eventually...
Welp.. i have spoken enough... Good night.... if you guys have anymore questions... just lmk.