11-28-2019, 02:52 AM
As time goes on it becomes more and more apparent to me that a great deal of humanity is quite happy to come to a metaphysical understanding of things and in tandem with their perception of gnosis there becomes a complete view of things which is substantially comfortable.
I don't know if I maintain this perspective because of demonic activity occurring within my conscious experience, but it seems to become increasingly obvious to me.
For about the past month, I have rode a bus on a loop around my city. There is a free bus which people can ride around in circles for as long as I like. I've done this most days just to keep my mind occupied. There's something about the constant sense of movement which makes it a little more bearable. Today, I met someone who was doing the exact same thing, and he seemed severely distressed about exactly what bothers me.
"It's just like the bus. The same thing, every day, on a loop. But the bus has to run out of petrol eventually. So this has to eventually come to a stop as well."
"It has gone too far. It has just gone too far." He kept saying. "It's like being in a forest, and you can see tracks, footprints from animals and people, things left behind - you can tell who's been there and get an idea of what they were doing. It's the same thing here. Where does the money come from?"
It's not a coincidence that this happened today. He was even talking to himself, things that directly related to my experience. Most people would call this a symptom of psychosis, and that's becoming a very common theme in my life. Everything is psychosis. The way that the average citizens walk around from thought to thought - it's all directed and pre-calculated.
How does this not bother those who have woken up? It was a big wake-up call for me today, as to how blase I have been treating it. The last thing I said to him was "It's been going on for a long time, hasn't it? Just think - Egypt, Babylon, Sumeria, Rome, Caesar?" - He got straight up and said "Take it easy, man." And got off the bus and walked over to the bus stop across the road to catch a bus going in a different direction.
It really makes me think, what if it is a sort of solipsism? That is, we're all solipsists.
Where does it all end up? Not in that some choose Service-to-Self and those who potentially choose that might experience a profound manner of death or struggle or difficulty or despair at some point, but that the conscious experience of life and this Universe itself, because it contains the "tracks and footprints" so to speak, of these hidden oppressors who exist irrespective of our willingness to acknowledge them, could drag this Universe into a dark hole.
One of the first things I asked when I joined this forum was if it was possible for an evil being to experience eternal darkness, or being "alone in the dark".
I don't know what your conscious experience is like. I've never experienced myself 'as' you, but I can say with a degree of certainty that from where I'm sitting now, I experience myself as conscious, and with great and legitimate concern for where this is going. Maybe you have chosen Service-to-Others, and even if there are oppressors in your reality, they will not overpower you and thus even if you escape by the hairs on your neck, you will not experience the full extent of that captivity and failure in terms of finding balance. I do not have such certainty, in that I agree with the guy on the bus. I should not have been so blase about the horrific history and extent of enslavement humanity has faced. When he left I felt like I had just cemented myself in a separate position even further than I already felt.
I shared in his despair that he did not want to be alive to experience whatever it is that's coming. I asked him if he anticipated anything and he didn't have anything to say for what he anticipated. He was just overwhelmed by the degree to how far it's already gone. Sometimes I treat it with a naivety, like a plot narrative in a video game. "It's just like Star Wars in real life! If the galactic Empire were real!" - And not that I actually say this, but you can sort of get the naivety behind the premise. What you think about and talk about in terms of a narrative is not the same thing as the horror and trauma of it actually occurring, when it is occurring, and it does not acknowledge the severity of it being everything you ever knew, loved and experienced contained within it.
The truth is, I don't know what's going to happen to me. Logically I can say my body will die, but does anyone experience death? Ra talks about the body dying, the "entity" undergoing healing in the astral planes. But can I really expect to undergo an experience where my body dies and takes its last breath, as rigor mortis sets in? What is the possibility for the experience to end up as? And if there's anyone here who has a legitimate and great concern for the future, I should like to hear from you, because from what I can gather it seems very likely that this concerns you just as much as it concerns me. That whatever it is in our reality that's doing whatever it's doing does not have plans to stop or slow down, and there's something very significant waiting on the other end.
I don't know if I maintain this perspective because of demonic activity occurring within my conscious experience, but it seems to become increasingly obvious to me.
For about the past month, I have rode a bus on a loop around my city. There is a free bus which people can ride around in circles for as long as I like. I've done this most days just to keep my mind occupied. There's something about the constant sense of movement which makes it a little more bearable. Today, I met someone who was doing the exact same thing, and he seemed severely distressed about exactly what bothers me.
"It's just like the bus. The same thing, every day, on a loop. But the bus has to run out of petrol eventually. So this has to eventually come to a stop as well."
"It has gone too far. It has just gone too far." He kept saying. "It's like being in a forest, and you can see tracks, footprints from animals and people, things left behind - you can tell who's been there and get an idea of what they were doing. It's the same thing here. Where does the money come from?"
It's not a coincidence that this happened today. He was even talking to himself, things that directly related to my experience. Most people would call this a symptom of psychosis, and that's becoming a very common theme in my life. Everything is psychosis. The way that the average citizens walk around from thought to thought - it's all directed and pre-calculated.
How does this not bother those who have woken up? It was a big wake-up call for me today, as to how blase I have been treating it. The last thing I said to him was "It's been going on for a long time, hasn't it? Just think - Egypt, Babylon, Sumeria, Rome, Caesar?" - He got straight up and said "Take it easy, man." And got off the bus and walked over to the bus stop across the road to catch a bus going in a different direction.
It really makes me think, what if it is a sort of solipsism? That is, we're all solipsists.
Quote:19.17 ▶ Questioner: Can you tell me what bias creates their momentum toward the chosen path of service to self?
Ra: I am Ra. We can speak only in metaphor. Some love the light. Some love the darkness. It is a matter of the unique and infinitely various Creator choosing and playing among its experiences as a child upon a picnic. Some enjoy the picnic and find the sun beautiful, the food delicious, the games refreshing, and glow with the joy of creation. Some find the night delicious, their picnic being pain, difficulty, sufferings of others, and the examination of the perversities of nature. These enjoy a different picnic.
All these experiences are available. It is free will of each entity which chooses the form of play, the form of pleasure.
Where does it all end up? Not in that some choose Service-to-Self and those who potentially choose that might experience a profound manner of death or struggle or difficulty or despair at some point, but that the conscious experience of life and this Universe itself, because it contains the "tracks and footprints" so to speak, of these hidden oppressors who exist irrespective of our willingness to acknowledge them, could drag this Universe into a dark hole.
One of the first things I asked when I joined this forum was if it was possible for an evil being to experience eternal darkness, or being "alone in the dark".
I don't know what your conscious experience is like. I've never experienced myself 'as' you, but I can say with a degree of certainty that from where I'm sitting now, I experience myself as conscious, and with great and legitimate concern for where this is going. Maybe you have chosen Service-to-Others, and even if there are oppressors in your reality, they will not overpower you and thus even if you escape by the hairs on your neck, you will not experience the full extent of that captivity and failure in terms of finding balance. I do not have such certainty, in that I agree with the guy on the bus. I should not have been so blase about the horrific history and extent of enslavement humanity has faced. When he left I felt like I had just cemented myself in a separate position even further than I already felt.
I shared in his despair that he did not want to be alive to experience whatever it is that's coming. I asked him if he anticipated anything and he didn't have anything to say for what he anticipated. He was just overwhelmed by the degree to how far it's already gone. Sometimes I treat it with a naivety, like a plot narrative in a video game. "It's just like Star Wars in real life! If the galactic Empire were real!" - And not that I actually say this, but you can sort of get the naivety behind the premise. What you think about and talk about in terms of a narrative is not the same thing as the horror and trauma of it actually occurring, when it is occurring, and it does not acknowledge the severity of it being everything you ever knew, loved and experienced contained within it.
The truth is, I don't know what's going to happen to me. Logically I can say my body will die, but does anyone experience death? Ra talks about the body dying, the "entity" undergoing healing in the astral planes. But can I really expect to undergo an experience where my body dies and takes its last breath, as rigor mortis sets in? What is the possibility for the experience to end up as? And if there's anyone here who has a legitimate and great concern for the future, I should like to hear from you, because from what I can gather it seems very likely that this concerns you just as much as it concerns me. That whatever it is in our reality that's doing whatever it's doing does not have plans to stop or slow down, and there's something very significant waiting on the other end.