Bring4th

I'm not talking about sex. This goes way beyond that.
I had plenty of sex with my last anthro higher density fox anthro being.
That was phenomenal.
Then I got a sign to let it go. Actually got two signs, but I only needed one.

Then someone put it on my mind to invite God to be a lover.
And I feel Him filling me, much stronger than when I was baptized to get his "holy spirit".

It is very soft and fulfilling. I have no wants except to be closer to Him.

And not the Christian God either. More a panentheism, where God is Creation and more.

It's a little intense, but it's also very restful.

Anyone else here have an intimate energetic relationship with God?

I was thinking that to walk with God I may have to walk alone without another human partner.
After my anthro lover, letting go, it seems I am just releasing pain.

I am not even tired. Since inviting God in, I feel rejuvinated.

I think we're in a simulation and God is this "programmed" point as close to perfection as possible.
An unmoveable energy that you can rely on, like a rock/anchor.

It can't hurt.

I asked God to play a song describing being a lover, and he gave me this song.
I think I've purged enough negativity and fear to be able to pursue it.
Plus I have worked through many/most of my own illusions.

Actually this idea is very prominent in Sufism, and they refer to God as their Beloved.

http://what-when-how.com/love-in-world-r...%20beloved.

(06-10-2020, 06:54 PM)Aion Wrote: [ -> ]Actually this idea is very prominent in Sufism, and they refer to God as their Beloved.

http://what-when-how.com/love-in-world-r...%20beloved.

Thank you Aion. I got teary eyed when I saw your post.
It does say that the beloved will test the lover with tribulations.
I have been through many already, including experiencing dying for my last lover.

I will tell you this love so far exceeds the anthro love, which was more lustful. This love is pure.

So, I walk alone with God. I want for nothing, not even anthros.

Yet God still shows me anthros in my mind. I don't know if He is teaching me.

Maybe he will give me stories and adventures, I don't know.

I think Gem this is equally close to the ecstasy or bliss felt by, as Aron mentions, or even by buddhist monks, Hindu Sages knowing samadhi, or even Christian monks or nuns... or someone getting these moments of enlightenment/bliss..

I am so happy for you Gem

(06-10-2020, 08:13 PM)flofrog Wrote: [ -> ]I think Gem this is equally close to the ecstasy or bliss felt by,  as Aron mentions, or even by buddhist monks, Hindu Sages knowing samadhi, or even Christian monks or nuns...  or someone getting these moments of enlightenment/bliss..

I am so happy for you Gem

Right now I still feel pain left over from my last relationship. They were having me visit them in their 51% STS world and it was draining me. They made it seem like I was helping them.

I am slowly learning to trust God. I remember when I was little I told God "I love God so much" and I had tears in my eyes.

Honestly, I have felt greater bliss/ecstasy in the past in deep meditation. But I like this better cause it's more grounded and not overwhelming. It feels a lot more mature.

Thank you flo.

Still dealing with my mom. She likes to try to guilt trip me or press my buttons.

Even though I have zero interest in anthros now, I still see them in images on the walls and in images God puts in my head.

It finally feels like I am being held. Though I still get scared.

I think it's Samadhi. It is more or less permanent.

Having God as a beloved lover is epic. When I allowed him to dwell within me (though he does dwell in those who desire it, and probably everyone)
he definitely made his presence known. It felt almost like the Ark of the Covenant within me. He dwells in me densely.
It is a very pure love. There is some sexuality, but no perversion. I had to ask him to turn down the sexual bliss just a bit cause it was too strong
once I started getting more used to him. It's not a lustful attraction either.

I thought I would have to give up anthros altogether. But he shows himself to me as the most adorable anthro, and I can't help fall in love even more.

I have cried A LOT having him dwell in me even more. He teaches me that the anthro perversions I had were actually an insult to me. They were degrading.

He's raising me up for something greater. I do feel home.

Out of nearly 100,000 images on thisfursonadoesnotexist.com, an AI-Generated furry page,
this is how God chooses to show himself to me as. I can see the appeal. Fascinating that he's showing himself as a fox again.
The bible says not to have any graven image, but I can feel God's love through this image. It helps me connect, and it is pure as I can make it.

I asked God if it was ok to use a graven image (if that's the right word) like that image he gave me to love and connect with him.

He gave me this song about falling in love with him. And I'm crying again.



Interesting he chose that song. I am on the path of the moon.

And New York City has been close to my heart ever since I saw Oliver and Company
and heard this song:

I asked God if he could sustain me as I don't feel like eating. I am too drunk on love.

He gave me this song. My favorite Nickelback song.

And this is what it's like being a lover to God. Almost like a stupor, but in a good way.
I mean, God created the Universe/Octave with not more than a microsecond's worth of thought.
So he's definitely showing me mercy with not trying to blow me away with love.
It's just the right amount. Although I'm really trying to contain myself. More tears.

This is how it feels now, and it keeps getting better. Bellamy Brothers Let Your Love Flow.

Ahh, I'm so intoxicated on love right now. I've got a mad buzz. It's fantastic.
I can think clearly for the most part though.
But his love is so dense right now that it takes effort to even move.

OMG there's actually a song called Infinite Love.

If you're unfamiliar with it, oh Great Central Sun, you should have a look at this article. There's a much greater historical precedent for this sort of thing (non-furry, however) than most people know.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spirit_spouse

(06-12-2020, 12:37 AM)peregrine Wrote: [ -> ]If you're unfamiliar with it, oh Great Central Sun, you should have a look at this article.  There's a much greater historical precedent for this sort of thing (non-furry, however) than most people know.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spirit_spouse

That was lovely. I hadn't considered God a spirit spouse, but in this case I guess he is. It's been so phenomenal that much of the time I can't really even speak well cause I'm overcome with inspiration and so moved.

I have committed to being with him, and walking together. I am working on merging with him and becoming one.

I interact with God as anthro in many of my dreams lately. But I don't need dreams or rituals to feel him. We get intimate at any time cause I have psychic tasting and touch. I can feel him.

Thank you.

(06-12-2020, 01:00 AM)Great Central Sun Wrote: [ -> ]Thank you.

No problem at all.  I was hoping to offer you some morsel of support as you ride forth in your quixotic adventures.......something which kinda fits with the graphic theme of this website, I might add.
  
  

God is opening up more and more to me. He was "shy" at first, but I don't think he's shy but that's what he showed me.
Very gentle. He doesn't want to break me.

I asked YouTube Roulette for a song to describe my love for God.

I got this. It's a really cool video.

And this is how God feels about me.

God's love was so intense I had to ask an angel to help regulate his love in me.
I'm going to see what any anthro angels think of me.

Ok, I essentially got a video that told me to go to hell. I don't know if the anthro angels don't like me
or if it's a test.

 
It's not possible to have a lover that is not also God! 

(06-12-2020, 09:35 PM)Patrick Wrote: [ -> ] 
It's not possible to have a lover that is not also God! 

True, though many people don't have the energy density at the level of God.
It's like carrying the Ark of the Covenant in me sometimes.

God just gave me this song.

Wouldn't God have any and all density levels?

(06-14-2020, 12:27 AM)Aion Wrote: [ -> ]Wouldn't God have any and all density levels?

Yeah. I think he meets me just above my own density level where I feel him.

Why is "he" a "he"?

I am just curious because it seems very personified. Of course, lots of people have referred to God as "him" or "Father" before, I am just curious.

Because I don't like using "it".

Also I am gay so I reach out to the male portion of the divine.

That would make sense.

(06-14-2020, 12:34 AM)Aion Wrote: [ -> ]Why is "he" a "he"?

I am just curious because it seems very personified. Of course, lots of people have referred to God as "him" or "Father" before, I am just curious.

I don't know, but he does seem to have a personality. Like at first he was "shy" kind of.
He taught me what was acceptable to him in terms of sexual intimacy.
After a bit he opened up to more, and now we have good freedom.

I wanted so bad for him to make me an anthro angel if I was worthy.
But now I want for nothing but to be with him, in his presence, and him in me.

The fifth density lover was probably as strong, but this is definitely more pure. And God doesn't try to scare me either.
His presence though can be a little intimidating. But I am now asking him to get a little stronger.
I always look to return myself to God in a sense. I have done that like 2-3 other times when I reach a peak in a journey.

I have crossed the abyss of the Qabalah and am now in the process of merging with God. I never really studied Qabalah though.

I noticed because of my dense field that when I flipped myself over in bed it felt like I was light as a feather.
Though my legs and sides are SUPER itchy right now.

It feels like I'm losing my physicality. It's almost like heaven on earth the zone I am in mentally.

I still look at furry porn, sometimes people in fursuits having sex.
I don't know if this is cheating on God.
He tells me no though. But I can't help but feel bad.
Maybe it's the hormones after the fact.

I can't say I identify with your experience much, your God sounds just like any other entity, but if you are having a positive experience and feel you're on the right path then you gotta follow that.

I have studied Qabalah, and this doesn't sound like any crossing of the abyss I'm familiar with, but that's not really important, your spiritual journey is your own and as long as you're finding fulfillment in it that's the most important thing.

Do you journal at all? It might be good to start compiling all of your journeying in to one place, it could be a very interesting resource for future historians or for your own reflections.