(03-02-2011, 09:16 PM)Ocean Wrote: [ -> ]interesting thread, Blatz, thank you.
i've realized my red orange and yellow chakras are blocked, i always knew i had issues with the yellow chakra. i have OCD and control issues, anger issues and insecurity issues that are so deep i dunno how exactly i'm supposed to fix it, i feel like my OCD is the core of this, and sensitivity. but i can't figure out which came first. the sensitivity or the OCD imbalance.
do you have any thoughts on how one can figure out what is blocking the chakra? and am i supposed to work on the problem mentally or work on my chakras in meditation?
we are mind body spirit complexes.. as Ra likes to state
the mind is the light, the knowledge, the worry
the body is the physical or the 3rd division of light
the spirit is the love, the feeling, the intuition.
so to be fully direct yes you work on your problems mentally. as soon as you do, you will notice an instant clearing of your chakras.
each chakra is directly linked to an emotional issue.
insecurity and anger, have you looked into abuser victim roles? It takes time to realize.
this book helped me a lot, through my own trials of insecurity and anger.
Why Does He Do That?: Inside the Minds of Angry and Controlling Men by Lundy Bancroft
http://www.amazon.com/Why-Does-He-That-C...920&sr=8-1
buy it used for 7 bucks! prolly 10 bucks with shipping or u can find this in barnes and nobles or any bookstore.
read the reviews and see if u like it..
if not that book i also read this one
Breaking the Cycle of Abuse: How to Move Beyond Your Past to Create an Abuse-Free Future by Beverly Engel
http://www.amazon.com/Breaking-Cycle-Abu...012&sr=1-2
The first book was a huge help to me, the 2nd book sealed the deal.
When dealing with insecurity u have to have a huge will to be able to step back into the now and realize... u know what all I'm doing is thinking about myself.. They did this to me, or that to me, or my boss sucks, or this guy is so mean... and when u find yourself saying "to me" it is a victim mentality and then we end up lashing out because of our sensitivity.
The key is to take responsibility in knowing that if someone criticizes you, it doesn't change you as long as you believe you are awesome. No one else should be able to say otherwise about u.
"Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me" is a powerful sentence.
Similarly if u are angry at someone, think about how each and everyone is a reflection of a highly exaggerated version of yourself. We are all one are we not? If we are getting pissed at someone, it is will to step back and think about why we are letting ourselves get pissed at ourselves.
When someone pisses u off, it is an aspect of yourself u are getting pissed about. Say someone is annoying, have u ever been called annoying and how did u feel about it when u were called annoying? hurt?
These things do hurt, but know it only takes away your power to believe the negativity someone spews at you.
You are trying to confront and face your emotions, that is a very brave and commendable thing to do! Most men don't, and this is why we have so many divorces.
This is also the art of transmutation of s*** into gold. If someone is giving u s***, stand back and think about wanting to hold your light, your love.. Is anger what you want to be bringing to the table? Or is love what you want to bring to the table? So then don't address someone's anger, and don't address your own. Instead understand why u are angry and realize it's as simple as changing the channel. And then that's when we find love in the moment, when we are able to pay attention to the NOW. not yesterday and not tomorrow.
When we live in yesterday we live in regret, when we live in tomorrow we live anxiously. That is why when we live in the NOW we are perfectly calm and able to deal with any situation with clarity and focus. Took me 9 years and I'm still overcoming it bro..
It's going to take a long time, but know there are many on your side willing to help! Myself included.
Learning to feel and identify when u feel shame, anger, insecurity, sadness, notice how your body reacts when u feel these emotions. My hands get sweaty my energy starts building up in the gut...
I will include an essay I wrote about victim abuser relationships and it might help you.
***I apologize and take full responsibility if this is not the scope of the thread or the Life On Planet Earth subject***
The quality of life Charles Bukowski portrays in the book Post Office for many people shows that the workplace scenario is something that promotes the denigration of spirit; that somehow this is all the result of American life, or European influence. However, it’s not just the workplace that plays a factor in affecting the way we conduct ourselves but a combination of several factors that promote the cultural values we live with on a day to day basis which all ultimately lead one to the personal responsibility of oneself in order to elevate the greater whole. We can attack this from several different viewpoints from classism, to psychiatry, and historically to find we end up in the same place where we started. Even from a quantum physics viewpoint we can end up at the same conclusion. Personal responsibility and its relationship with the world around us form an unseen but interconnected web of influence.
For example, the face of poverty in America is black and yet most of the 36 million poor in America are white, this perspective has lead to the division and separation of humanity as one united global community. Bell Hooks writes, “more than thirty-eight million citizens who live in poverty here and the working masses who labor long and hard but still have difficulty making ends meet,” (Hooks 1) are a living testament to the divide between those that have and those who do not furthering the chances of greed as a driving force. The ignorance of a population is further amplified by assumption and simple minded thinking as Hooks writes, “Folks who do not have economic privilege and have never had it often assume that they can measure someone’s economic worth by material objects” (Hooks 149). As if the lack of knowledge attributes to materialism and the furthering of social stereotypes which is only reinforced by the media itself in a consumer culture. We can also look at it from a historical prospective and yet we deny ourselves the broader view. Everything is interconnected in a complex web of systems which are part of a greater whole. As a whole, history shows us similarly that we are only limited by the boundaries we set in the first place. A scientific and historical mistake to look at things in a compartmentalized or separatist and scattered view is misleading of the bigger picture.
The Chinese believed that China was the center of the earth, a very egotistic view, while the Europeans believed the earth was flat. As we expanded our horizons and Christopher Columbus sailed to the American Continent, the world was in fact round, and so we believed that the Earth itself was the center of the universe. Humanity, striving to understand the world around it projected a very egotistic theme, that we had to be important and to feel important in anyway shape or form. Later it was the sun that had to be the center of the galaxy, while each time scientifically expanding our horizons onward. After this yet again we came to see those stars in the sky, more no different than our own sun and once again our viewpoint shifted to a wider perspective. Each time scientists brought a new idea that broke down the rules to shift our perceptions completely of the nature of reality. People fought the change, clinging to the old paradigms of what was and wasn’t reality based on what barriers we weren’t able to part with. Now it is common knowledge, instead of a singular solar system, there are star clusters or nebulas and eventually the idea of a galactic center where by a giant spinning top, trillions of individual stars in a spiral formation. Obviously the next step is to see other entire universes as if the exploration of life is a never expanding journey outward into infinity.
The same can be said about the journey inward into the microcosm within the macrocosm which doesn’t just refer to the atomic level but rather the interconnectedness of our lives socially as a microcosm within the macrocosm of the greater whole or the universe itself. People, when faced with a difficulty in New York City, tend to say, “That’s New York,” or “Welcome to New York.” As if New York is apart from them, like the world’s problems are a result of the world. Who lives in that world? We live in that world or rather we are that world. We are the parts that make up the whole, so wouldn’t it be that every time someone is rude to you, it is not New York that is rude but it is simply they who are rude? The spread an act of kindness does not make New York kind, but that makes the individual in question kind and that individual is a part of New York. If everyone were to take that kind of responsibility would it indeed change the very definition of what we consider New York. Then why don’t more people see it that way and why are so many people, a victim to the causality of the way things are as opposed to that personal responsibility? Perhaps it is ignorance, the greed perpetuated by the monetary system, the values we teach our children, or even the kind of lessons we learn through the media. All of these factors only serve to reinforce selfishness. Perhaps it is none of those things at all and it ultimately lies within the character of our hearts by the very fundamental choice we decide to make regardless of external stimuli, background, social class, and upbringing.
Let’s shift the focus to a psychiatric perspective on victim mentality, and abuser relationships. The traditional style approach to marriage counseling is to shift the blame, as if it is a result of external stimuli that make us the way we are. The following myths about abusers are as follows:
Quote:He was abused as a child. His previous partner hurt him. He abuses those he loves the most. He holds in his feelings too much. He has an aggressive personality. He loses control. He is too angry. He is mentally ill. He hates women. He is afraid of intimacy and abandonment. He has low self esteem. His boss mistreats him. He has poor skills in communication and conflict resolution. There are as many abusive women as abusive men. His abusiveness is as bad for him as for his partner. He is a victim of racism. He abuses alcohol or drugs. (Bancroft 23)
Almost all of these factors sound identical to the life of Charles Bukowski and are parallels found in his book Post Office. Most of these external factors in the book Post Office are what lead people to believe that Henry Chinaski is someone to feel sorry for, as if the world revolves around him and that he is the hero of his story. This sounds familiar to the history of humanity’s egotism. Unfortunately it is not enough to state that it is humanity’s egotism but the egotism and self-centeredness apparent in each abusive individual as is the general case study example by Lundy Bancroft who has studied 17 years in domestic abuse and the behavior of abusive men:
Quote:First, he is gazing longingly at the image he holds of the future, where the woman meets all of his needs, is beautiful and sexy at all times of the day and night, has no needs of her own, and is in awe of his brilliance and charm. He desires a woman who will cater to him and never complain about anything he does or darken his day with frustrations or unhappiness about her own life. The abusive man doesn’t expose these self-focused fantasies to his new partner. In fact, he is largely unaware of them himself. So she has no way of knowing that he is looking more for a personal caretaker than for a partner (Bancroft 111).
The following quote is easily matches Joyce in Post Office to the caretaker profile more than that of a lover or a partner. Evidence of this factor is extremely clear as Chinaski elaborates on the daily ritual or dynamic of Joyce and Chinaski:
Quote:
Each night as I got ready to go on in, Joyce had my clothing laid out on the bed. Everything was the most expensive money could buy. I never wore the same pair of pants, the same shirt, the same shoes two nights in a row. There were dozens of different outfits. I put on whatever she laid out for me. Just like mama used to do (Bukowski 74).
The comparison of a wife to the word “mama”, screams caretaker, such is the obvious sign that Chinaski is not aiming to serve his wife but to have his wife serve him. Henry may not admit to it in words, but his actions speak more loudly as a testament to his personality. It also happens to be the longest and most comfortable relationship Chinaski is in. Since Post Office is a roman à clef, the life of Bukowski parallels his own life so much that, one can wonder if all Bukowski did was change the names adding a bit of a twist so the reader can more readily empathize with Chinaski.
Now everyone who’s ever had an abusive past does not necessarily become abusive themselves. It’s when abusers get into one of the many traps asking themselves, why is he/she doing this to me, or why are my bosses and co workers so horrible to me, or why is he so mean to me. The centralization of attention in part of each phrase, to me, should be a clue enough. No one is released from the personal responsibility of coping measures. Again this is the shift of personal responsibility to that of the external, as if one does not take responsibility for his own actions. The abuser or in this case Charles Bukowski views himself as untouchable and that his own worth can never be jeopardized because of one simple truth all abusive men fail to recognize. Bukowski as Chinaski writes, “I walked off. That does it, I thought, only an idiot would go through what I am going through” (Bukowski 25). Repeatedly throughout the book Henry Chinaski complains about annoying customers, about an overbearing boss, about all of the various factors that seem to victimize Chinaski.
Abusers fail to see their actions have an effect on others, because they are too busy focusing on how others affect on themselves. In other words this is a choice between the selfless or the selfish in every respect of the two sides. The mindset of Charles Bukowski and Henry Chinaski is the focus on other’s effect on him, and him only. It is a self serving world only to be met with frustration, anger, and in many cases lead to physical and or mental abuse of their partner and themselves. The theme here is personal responsibility and interconnectedness in a world of individuality. Normal routes of science and academia support compartmentalization of everything from the sciences, to genres, to labels, even down to the education system itself to disregard a holistic approach to the study of knowledge itself! However for the purposes of this essay I will take seemingly unrelated parallels of society and show how they can tie together.
There is a very famous quantum physics experiment called the Double Slit Experiment. You start with 1 slit, shooting marbles through to the other side and you get a pattern of 1 slit on the back wall, because of the slit constraining the path of the marbles. Then you move up to 2 slits, and the result is as you would expect, 2 bands of marbles adhering to the sticky plate behind the 2 slits. Now if you conduct the same experiment with water, using only 1 slit, the tops of the waves that would hit with the hardest intensity would indeed create 1 slit or area of where there is the most force exerted. When you move to two slits, you get an interference pattern. When the top of one wave meets the bottom of another, they cancel each other out and it creates several bands instead of two bands like with the marbles. Now here is where it gets complicated. The trouble is when you go quantum, and you reduce the size of the balls being fired into that of an electron, the smallest unit of matter. When you fire electrons through 1 slit, you get one band. When you fire electrons through two slits, you get an interference pattern! Physicists at first believed that perhaps all those little electrons were bouncing off of each other to create this interference pattern. The next step was to fire each electron individually one by one. However, with 2 slits there was still an interference pattern!
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The conclusion is that a single electron will go through one slit and the other, and through both, as if it splits apart, becomes a wave of probability and in effect, interferes with itself! Scientists were stumped, so they found it necessary to observe the situation and set up a camera to detect exactly how each individual electron was behaving. The result reduced the wave function and instead of an interference pattern, there were 2 bands just like the marbles. The act of observing reduced the wave function! This single experiment rocked the scientific world, and created what’s known today as Quantum Physics.
Currently it’s being debated as to whether or not if it is consciousness itself that destroys the wave function or if it controls it altogether. Dr. Masaru Emoto wrote a book called Hidden Messages from Water focusing on the effects of consciousness on water. Emoto has stated that water crystals can be “beautiful” or “ugly” before they are frozen, dependent on the quality of thoughts and words directed at the water whether it is by prayer, music, or writing words attached to the water. Thoughtful states such as thank you or I love you would produce beautiful water crystals that would resemble snowflakes. Negative states such as I hate you would create water crystals that started to resemble polluted water. Emoto writes, “Pollution originated within our own consciousness. We started to think that we wanted a bountiful and convenient lifestyle at any cost, and this selfishness led to the pollution of the environment that no affects every corner of the globe” (Emoto 67). Which isn’t to say it wasn’t merely the act of being selfish that pollutes the water but also the fruits of selfish labors, pollution, neglect, and trash which are only propagated by consumer culture. It can be inferred that this doesn’t apply simply to water that you freeze in an experiment. The body is composed of two thirds water, simply choosing to focus on positive thoughts will result in positive changes to your body, and to the world around you. Similarly, choosing to focus on the negative will result in negative changes to the body, and the world around you.
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To prove my point, a 2 year study was conducted in 1989 involving transcendental meditation where a rotating group of 10,000 people meditated in Washington, D.C. The crime rate was lowered by 11.8% during the 2 year period, while the analysis led to conclude that the decrease in crime could not have been attributed to changes in population, Neighborhood watch programs, time of the year, changing weather or changes in police policies and procedures. A more recent study in Washington, D.C. was conducted from June 7th to July 30th, 1993. A test group involving 800 people slowly increased to 4,000 over a 2 month period. The notable aspect of the more recent experiment was, “A 27-member Project Review Board comprising independent scientists and leading citizens approved the research protocol and monitored the research process. Weekly crime data was derived from database records provided by the District of Columbia Metropolitan Police Department (DCMPD), which are used in the FBI Uniform Crime Reports” (Hagelin 154).Violent crime which was increasing, had begun to decrease and continued to drop until the end of the experiment measured by the FBI Uniform Crime Statistics. The rise in crime began as the experiment concluded and again the effects of the group could not have been attributed to any other factors such as temperature, weekends, neighborhood watch or changes in police activity.
There are many examples of studies involving this Unified Field Theory, or as they are called in China “Bioelectric fields”, or in Russia “Torsion fields.” Mostly the publication of these findings are censored largely in the American Public and strictly regarded as pseudo-science despite over 350 peer reviewed published studies involving the experimentation of a consciousness field and its effects on the world at large. Furthermore, on the subject of transcendental meditation, “During TM, when mental activity is at a minimum the brain achieves a state of superconductivity, so to speak, allowing the inner springs of creativity and truth to surge up through it” (Holden 1178). One can infer however that focusing on base human emotions such as “anger” or “hatred” or rather fear based expectations can and will affect the behavior of nature around us and within our very bodies. In contrast, focusing on the positive can result in faster healing, and possibly even reducing the overall crime rate, simply because of the effects of this consciousness field. Although science is merely starting to grasp these fundamental ideas, it quickly is looking to religion and spirituality for answers. Clues to such outrageous claims can be found historically with key symbols that are still used today in modern society.
The symbols α (Alpha) and Ω (Omega) are very widely used symbols in our modern society. Alpha which is a modernization of the Oroboros symbol while Omega is a modernization of the Caduceus symbol can be used to prove my case.
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Alpha or Oroboros, is to signify the snake that bites its own tail, the selfish quality, or the inward quality, which can be seen as the “I am the center of the universe” or “Service to Self” archetype. Omega or Caduceus, is to signify two snakes working together, the selfless quality, or outward expanding model, which can be seen as the “I am not the center of the universe” or “Service to Others” archetype. Furthermore, the caduceus being used in medical logos suggests that the selfless quality of the medical industry is implied through the logo. Additionaly, this idea has been carried over since Pre-written history as these images have been passed down for several thousand years. Charles Bukowski according to this model supports the Oroboros or selfish quality of man, the devil aspect or the personification of fear. It’s easy to see how the parallels between Henry Chinaski in the book Post Office and Charles Bukowski in What Fame Is: Bukowski’s Exploration of Self, “Bukowski’s lives of rancourous desperation often condone – perhaps glorify – drug abuse, alcoholism, misanthropy, and anti-materialism, and thus inevitably deflect mainstream critcal acclaim” (Madigan 449). It is a slow transition, where the approval of selfish actions are condoned if not honored by acts of altruism, it is as if there is a justification in feeding the ego of victimization. In Post Office, Henry Chinaski see’s himself repeatedly victimized by the factors of his life, eventually leading to an unknown medical condition that forces him to leave his place of work. Since the work of Post Office is indeed a roman à clef, and as Charles Bukowski stated himself that he did indeed find himself coughing up blood in a personal account of his life as a postal worker. We see a direct relationship of Bukowski’s overall attitude make a direct impact on his health; Charles Bukowski had never learned the discipline necessary to overcome personal hardship, which could have been very well amplified by the actions of his abusive father.
Bell Hooks writes, “Individuals who have declared their faith, who walk on a spiritual path, choose identification with the poor. In that same book of the Bible we were taught to give to those less fortunate discreetly with no thought of personal glory or gain” (Hooks 39). This does not by any means say to become a Christian but to fundamentally understand the message contained not just within the Bible but within all religions which is to serve others. The biggest mistake in history is humanity trying to impose the law of god, at the cost of labeling all else heretical, including Muslim, Buddhist, Sufi, Hindu, Jewish, and Daoist and the plethora of many other religions that have consistently been misinterpreted over centuries. It was never about whose label was right but rather how well each individual was able to see past the names and various deities down to basic personal choice. To conclude, the basic personal choice is whether we care to see ourselves as part of a greater scheme whether it be socially, religiously or economically or as separate disconnected individuals. It is the choice between simply focusing on unity/love or separation/fear. Which do you choose in the light of staggering evidence? I choose to focus on love where as Charles Bukowski focused on fear. Selflessness (Omega/Love) heals and creates, Selfishness (Alpha/Fear) destroys and manipulates, the proof is in everything.
Works Cited
Bancroft, Lundy. Why Does He Do That? Inside The Minds of Angry and Controlling Men. New
York: The Berkley Publishing Group, 2002, Print
This book explores the relationship between abuser and victim mentalities or archetypes in each abuser or victim. According to the author, the abuser must take responsibility for his or her actions and emotions as they have an effect not only on themselves but on others.
Bukowski, Charles. Post Office. New York: HarperCollins, 2002. Print.
This book is a roman à clef of Bukowski’s life that fictionalizes the true events of Charles Bukowski through the character Henry Chinaski.
Emoto, Masaru, David A. Thayne. The Hidden Messages in Water. Korea: Beyond Words
Publishing, 2004. Print.
This book explores the relationship and effects of consciousness on water. According to the author, the varying emotional states of fear or love changes the way water crystallizes upon freezing.
Hagelin, John S., Maxwell V. Rainforth, David W. Orme-Johnson, Kenneth L. Cavanaugh,
Charles N. Alexander, Susan F. Shatkin, John L. Davies, Anne O. Hughes and Emanuel
Ross. “Effects of Group Practice of the "Transcendental Meditation" Program on
Preventing Violent Crime in Washington, D.C.: Results of the National Demonstration
Project, June-July 1993” Social Indicators Research. Vol. 47, No. 2 Jun., 1999: 153-201
JSTOR. WEB. 8 Feb. 2011
This science journal explores the effects of consciousness through Transcendental Meditation and its effects on the crime rate. According to scientists, CIA crime watch lists, and a various amount of other environmental and social factors, Transcendental Meditation lowers the effect of the overall crime rate provided at least 1% of the population.
Holden, Constance “Maharishi International University: "Science of Creative Intelligence".”
American Association for the Advancement of Science. Vol. 187, No. 4182. Mar. 28,
1975: 1176-1180. JSTOR. Web. 8 Feb. 2011
This science journal explores the effects of Transcendental Meditation on the mind and the increase in brain capacity and cognition as a result of TM. Transcendental Meditation allows for the increased flow of creativity and inspiration, as well as peace of mind.
Hooks, Bell. Where we stand: Class Matters. New York: Routledge 2000. Print.
This book attempts to realize social, political and race issues as a factor in determining class in today’s society. The author speaks of her own life growing up in an impoverished neighborhood as well as her transition into the academic world.
Madigan, Andrew J. “What Fame Is: Bukowski’s Exploration of Self.” Journal of American
Studies. Vol. 30, No. 3, Part 3. Dec., 1996: 449. JSTOR. Web. 8 Feb. 2011
This article discusses the life and habits of Charles Bukowski. The author discusses the crass, rude, and violent tendencies of one of the most prolific American writers in the 21st Century.
1 more thing Ocean. I highly respect you and commend you for a very brave thing you are about to do for yourself. Taking responsibility for your actions and emotions is NOT something many do.. Know that I love you, Ra loves u, the forum loves you, and you are divinely and ultimately a spark of the one infinite creator.
It's fucking beautiful what you are doing and I'm so grateful that I could be of service to you. Really. Ahh I'm gonna tear up if I think about it anymore lol.
Love and Light, In loving service,
Felix
(03-02-2011, 07:39 PM)Gemini Wolf Wrote: [ -> ]I feel my strongest energy in my teeth. Is that from the throat chakra? It's a very strong magnetic feel in the teeth that gets stronger when I read or focus on spiritual matters.
Anyone else feel the pressures in their teeth? It could be blue-ray since Ra mentions how that ray is glaring.
maybe it's all the munchies u nom'd on.. rofl j/k
where ever you focus your attention with knowing, is where your energy accumulates. Just means ur focus on your lips. so i'm guessing a mix of your third eye and a mix of your throat.
I think Law of One has placement descriptions of where each chakra is, but it's best to feel out where they are through meditation. My focus is constantly on my third eye. The more you open up your chakras by dealing with emotional blocks, the more you will be able to feel your chakras pulsing and resonating.
