Again I lay restless at night. And I think I found the source of why.
I'm 22 years old and I've been studying the metaphysical lessons of Ra for nearly 2 years now. It's literally changed my life, as I'm sure all of you can understand. I don't regret learning about it; it has given me purpose in life, but I'm in need of guidance. I've become detached, desensitized, alienated from the way society wants me to be that I'm having a bit of an identity crisis.
I'm in college and I feel, logically, if I want to survive, I need to make money, so I should study something that plays to my strengths. Ok, writing. Theatricality, people. But I've never felt like I wanted to specialize in one area. I just kind of want to do it all, because I don't feel particularly drawn to one area. Think actor/writer/director. Ever since learning about Ra I've been walking the way of the adept, I can "read" people almost so accurately without really getting to know them that some people have felt uncomfortable just being around me. I myself feel uncomfortable being me sometimes.
I'm really feeling the burden of being stuck between this third density society and the changes 4th density light is bringing. A lot of people invest their identity into their jobs, their professions, but I mean, look at Japan, the economy here, we all know big changes are coming. My body needs to survive, so I need to conform to society, but feel like I'm here for something bigger. The only dream that I can think of that would make my soul feel at peace is to build my own city. A peaceful town that works with nature, everyone knows each other, helps each other ... it's a 4th density dream. So it's impossible for me to dedicate my life to that dream right now, so all I can do is hope I can write some LOO-friendly drama/comedy that uplifts and hopefully awakens those wanting to learn more about our place in the universe.
I want to be creative, but I just feel I'm being forced down this path because its the only thing that can somewhat grasp my expression of what being human really means. I don't even know what that is yet, but I wish I could demonstrate it by getting a 4th density commune going.
Sidenote: Think we build stuff in the 4th density+ Earth using telekinesis or do we manifest objects/structures with our thoughts, similar to how the great pyramid was created?
Much love, brothers and sisters.
i don't think you need to conform. you can make some money, buy a house and grow your own food. get solar panels. get independent. work on things that make you happy. i dunno anything about farming but it's my dream to one day be independent financially, grow food and be outside the money system. it's easy if you have a small house, a means to keep warm, your own well and hopefully a free energy source. that's all it takes. although i would want to get internet.
we're all dependent on a failing system. that's why it's failing, we're dependent on the government when we're supposed to be finding our sovereignity.
there are people starting communes, so they don't have to be alone. you could try finding one of those.
i think we manifest stuff in 4D/5D but that's prolly gradual.
Hello brother. The following advice is from my personal beliefs and experience, I offer it in the hope it resonates with you helps you find some direction.
You're not alone. I went through that exact phase a few years ago, it was especially hard regarding my long-term relationship. Such drastic changes are hard for others to accept in you, they expect you to be the person they want you to be.
Rather than repeat teachings, I would strongly recommend both Abraham (Law of Attraction - taking control of your thoughts to manifest the reality you choose) and Bashar (the same, except with more detail). Both were (are) invaluable to me, and they will be to you :¬)
Following their words, I'm now running my own business, which I use as an opportunity to share love with people, rather than earn money. The money finds its way to you when you follow your bliss - the Universe supports you. It takes time to develop this trust, one must be patient and start with smaller examples. Feel free to ask any questions.
You are here for a greater purpose. That purpose is to follow your bliss (instinct and impulses come from your higher self, they tell you were to look). This means you'll be in a positive place, offering an STO vibration to planetary consciousness and helping to uplift others. That's the meaning of being a Wanderer.
Ram Dass tells a story in which a successful vice president (large company) became disillusioned with his work, and wanted to find more. He went to Ram for advice, to find himself. He spent time in ashrams, and years travelling. He found himself.
When he returned to his old city, his former boss mentioned he was the best vice president the company had, and offered him his job back. He took it, and enjoyed it. He got in touch with Ram and said:
"It's funny how you change. I hated this job before, as I was earning money for corporations. That was how I perceived my role. Now I'm in the same role, yet I love it, because instead I see it as an opportunity to spend time with people ('God'), helping them intellectually and spiritually. It's incredibly rewarding."
Q'uo mentions this also. You can offer a great service in any position, role, time and place. You find love in the moment.
I mention this as you may need to find some part time work to support you while you follow your bliss. If you do, the above advice can be invaluable, if you choose it so :¬)
Good luck brother.
(03-14-2011, 02:25 AM)Gribbons Wrote: [ -> ]I've become detached, desensitized, alienated from the way society wants me to be that I'm having a bit of an identity crisis.
that is inevitable, and good. your identity versus what society wants you to.
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you should follow your spirit to wherever you are going to. road may or may not be tough.
Ocean, I would LOVE to do what you described. Being self-sufficient, though the solar panels are what's killer on the wallet.
Namaste, thank you for the story on Ram. I really need to practice finding love in the moment. That will be my goal today (I am running off of ~2 hours of sleep, and am prone to being cranky under such circumstances). I've actually been listening to a seminar on the law of attraction. I've never heard of bashar before so maybe i'll give him a go. Idk, I guess its all about perception. I just feel time-constrained worrying about all these earth changes and wondering if I even have enough time to manifest my dreams (being young and poor) but if the universe supports my bliss, I got to find a way to share love with people through my writing, or making a short film rather, like you do your business. That's great to hear you started that, btw, using the law of attraction. Well done!
Love in the moment: My Objective Today.
You're welcome brother. 2 hours, blimey. I need a lot of sleep, so I'm with you on that one :¬)
Definitely listen to Bashar, he's a 4th density entity moving to fifth, as we move to forth. Incredible information about changing negative belief patterns (that unconsciously shape your reality).
Thank you! I used to visualise my goals 2-3 times a week (gratitude as if it's happening right now), and then let go and get on with whatever was holding my attention with the most positive intention I could muster. We're human (at the moment!), so we're prone to dips. The trick is to not batter yourself for doing so. Rather, laugh and appreciate your humanness, and move on.
lol you can just have a fireplace. but the solar panels would help the internet.
I've wanted to build my own city in the past as well, such a thing is possible on a smaller scale. There are these planned village things, I forgot their official name, possibly eco village, where its one big monastery type house where you have a private room and washroom but a communal kitchen, dining room, living room, play room for kids. There's places like this everywhere. There are also mini-communes were 4 - 10 people of similar beliefs (artists, zeitgeist movement, etc.) live in the same house even though they're unrelated. In Israel there are communities called Kibbutz where everyone shares everything. And there's something called The Venus Project, a possible utopia where most work is done by robots and there's no need for money.
I used to be very anxious about how I'd make a living, I'm more at peace about it now, but I'm still kind of anxious because I dislike the program I'm in now (computer programming) so much that I'm skipping all my computer classes and just waiting until I get accepted into journalism. I think its a good lesson for me in patience and trusting the creator, and in overcoming boredom. Even as I type this I feel kind of anxious about not meeting societies expectations, even though I know they're wrong. My dependence on daily forced social interaction in school is being challenged and now I'm learning how to socialize on my own.
Gribbons, by the orange ray blockages, do you mean regression to orange ray level dealing with yellow ray issues? I think that many of us have experienced that. When the world is perceived as a cold and dark place, some of us tend to that regression. I've been there too. I entered some kind of metaphysical healing state and stayed there for about 9 months, just healing, and dealing with minimal amount with both the outside world/society and people outside my family. I dreamt of moving out in some remote area where I would not have to deal with the society anymore. When I entered the world again I felt only pain, and didn't want to be here. I didn't want to work either in a usual sense. But after a while, when I healed, I sent a desire to be of service, whatever it might be. The Universe listened and answered. I am not sure that if I could be of service in every single work place upon this Earth right now, but I am at the place where, hopefully, it is so.
Before that happened I actually had thoughts if continuing working would be necessary as Earth enters into 4D light? That maybe, I thought, it won't be necessary to engage in the activities of yellow ray anymore? I am trying to make you feel better. What do you have to loose if you proceed as you planned before? Try it! You might like it!
No, it's not a paradise here yet, because these thoughts we gave up moving further away from central suns.
But as Don used to say - "well, we have to be somewhere doing something, we might as well be here doing this".
About your dream regarding 4D society - keep dreaming, brother! It will happen! Maybe what we all feel right now is like those few last steps before coming home? When we've been on the road for so long that this last walk feels like an eternity and you think that you'll never cross the line. But we will! Just don't forget that it's not over yet and it might be some entities around you that need your help to come to this place too, and that might be that something bigger that you are talking about. I know - it's not a big mission as compared to what Superman does.
But maybe, just maybe, when this life is over and the veil is off you see how many entities you could help to reach those Gates of Love we are sensing right now, and then you realize that this was much, much more, enormously more than you could ever imagine?
Quote:Gribbons, by the orange ray blockages, do you mean regression to orange ray level dealing with yellow ray issues?
I suppose they are really yellow ray issues that make me feel like I have trouble relating with the self, because even though we are all one, we all have different personalities of the OIC.
Quote:Questioner: Thank you. Is it possible for you to give a short description of the conditions in the fourth density?
Ra: I am Ra. We ask you to consider as we speak that there are not words for positively describing fourth density. We can only explain what is not and approximate what is. Beyond fourth density our ability grows more limited until we become without words.
That which fourth density is not: it is not of words, unless chosen. It is not of heavy chemical vehicles for body complex activities. It is not of disharmony within self. It is not of disharmony within peoples. It is not within limits of possibility to cause disharmony in any way.
Approximations of positive statements: it is a plane of type of bipedal vehicle which is much denser and more full of life; it is a plane wherein one is aware of the thought of other-selves; it is a plane wherein one is aware of vibrations of other-selves; it is a plane of compassion and understanding of the sorrows of third density; it is a plane striving towards wisdom or light; it is a plane wherein individual differences are pronounced although automatically harmonized by group consensus.
I'm assuming that identity is the egotistical reflection of the personality (individual differences). Ego being the 3rd chakra, 3rd density consciousness. (?)
Re-reading this quote right now just made me realize something. How I want to be STO is writing stories/films/plays that show 4th density values and how we can change the 3rd density misery/suffering by understanding them, but if there are no words that describe 4th density positively, then is it possible to do so without it collecting STS karma? I'm just trying to live life playing off my strengths, as I need to money to buy an engagement/wedding ring/have a family. Those are all good things, and the only thing that really sparks my interest creatively is exploring this new idea of God that no religious text has really explored. The co-creating, the love in every moment, the new light where our thoughts are without fear and can create tangible expressions of what love is to us personally.
Such a radical idea in writing, I think, can inspire, like how the Ra texts have lifted our spirits, or they can scare those who are not awake to what's going on (outside the physical realm.) I don't want to spread fear, I just want to tell the truth, but since the truth can be scary given all the programs society has installed in our minds (religion [the uncertainty of the state of the soul after death]/ politics [mainstream media/party system/ democracy v socialism/ captialism v socialism]/ accepting violence as a fact of life [movies/video games/war [[war being the result of the separation politics and religion brings]]]), would I be doing a disservice by acknowledging them and presenting a solution?
I would literally be shattering people's perception of the world around them, the civilized world anyway. I'm ok because I've eased myself into meditating and interpreting the knowledge (the light) of Ra in a way that still supports my desire to be of STO, that is, balancing the physical with the spiritual. Nearly went mental like Syd Barrett in the process (Pink Floyd) without all the LSD.
Anyways, would doing this actually be a bigger act of STS? I just want the world to know how amazing we really are. How blessed we are to be living. With all the tragedy human kind has gone through... there are a lot of people that don't know of our true origins, what we are and what the world is, and how that can save us from further suffering. (Physically anyway, I remember reading about 4th/5th dimensional catalyst being emotional and spiritual pain.)
Trying to save a brother here from another 20,000 years of 3D with all this, I suppose. hahaha
But maybe not. Maybe this is the only way I can make enough money to go build an organic house out in the middle of the nowhere and live with my (future) wife in harmony with nature. Solar panels for internet and all.
(03-15-2011, 02:07 PM)Gribbons Wrote: [ -> ]Quote:Gribbons, by the orange ray blockages, do you mean regression to orange ray level dealing with yellow ray issues?
I suppose they are really yellow ray issues that make me feel like I have trouble relating with the self, because even though we are all one, we all have different personalities of the OIC.
Quote:Questioner: Thank you. Is it possible for you to give a short description of the conditions in the fourth density?
Ra: I am Ra. We ask you to consider as we speak that there are not words for positively describing fourth density. We can only explain what is not and approximate what is. Beyond fourth density our ability grows more limited until we become without words.
That which fourth density is not: it is not of words, unless chosen. It is not of heavy chemical vehicles for body complex activities. It is not of disharmony within self. It is not of disharmony within peoples. It is not within limits of possibility to cause disharmony in any way.
Approximations of positive statements: it is a plane of type of bipedal vehicle which is much denser and more full of life; it is a plane wherein one is aware of the thought of other-selves; it is a plane wherein one is aware of vibrations of other-selves; it is a plane of compassion and understanding of the sorrows of third density; it is a plane striving towards wisdom or light; it is a plane wherein individual differences are pronounced although automatically harmonized by group consensus.
I'm assuming that identity is the egotistical reflection of the personality (individual differences). Ego being the 3rd chakra, 3rd density consciousness. (?)
Re-reading this quote right now just made me realize something. How I want to be STO is writing stories/films/plays that show 4th density values and how we can change the 3rd density misery/suffering by understanding them, but if there are no words that describe 4th density positively, then is it possible to do so without it collecting STS karma? I'm just trying to live life playing off my strengths, as I need to money to buy an engagement/wedding ring/have a family. Those are all good things, and the only thing that really sparks my interest creatively is exploring this new idea of God that no religious text has really explored. The co-creating, the love in every moment, the new light where our thoughts are without fear and can create tangible expressions of what love is to us personally.
Such a radical idea in writing, I think, can inspire, like how the Ra texts have lifted our spirits, or they can scare those who are not awake to what's going on (outside the physical realm.) I don't want to spread fear, I just want to tell the truth, but since the truth can be scary given all the programs society has installed in our minds (religion [the uncertainty of the state of the soul after death]/ politics [mainstream media/party system/ democracy v socialism/ captialism v socialism]/ accepting violence as a fact of life [movies/video games/war [[war being the result of the separation politics and religion brings]]]), would I be doing a disservice by acknowledging them and presenting a solution?
I would literally be shattering people's perception of the world around them, the civilized world anyway. I'm ok because I've eased myself into meditating and interpreting the knowledge (the light) of Ra in a way that still supports my desire to be of STO, that is, balancing the physical with the spiritual. Nearly went mental like Syd Barrett in the process (Pink Floyd) without all the LSD.
Anyways, would doing this actually be a bigger act of STS? I just want the world to know how amazing we really are. How blessed we are to be living. With all the tragedy human kind has gone through... there are a lot of people that don't know of our true origins, what we are and what the world is, and how that can save us from further suffering. (Physically anyway, I remember reading about 4th/5th dimensional catalyst being emotional and spiritual pain.)
Trying to save a brother here from another 20,000 years of 3D with all this, I suppose. hahaha
But maybe not. Maybe this is the only way I can make enough money to go build an organic house out in the middle of the nowhere and live with my (future) wife in harmony with nature. Solar panels for internet and all.
Whoa, where did you get the idea that trying to describe 4D to the best of your ability would polarize you towards STS? STO is about intention and being, not action. You wanting to illustrate the beauty of 4D to other-selves is polarizing to STO, and if you're doing your best to describe it truthfully (as far as you know) then there's nothing negative at all about that.
It's not my place to meddle in someone's personal life but: do you really need to buy an expensive engagement ring? Its the idea behind the ring that's important, not the price of it. The most STS person in the world can buy someone the most expensive ring, that doesn't mean they care about them in the slightest. And a regular joe who's very compassionate but has no money could give his fiancee a plastic ring from one of those toy vending machines and if they were in tune she would feel his love. The ring money could be better spent on the film you want to make. I have some ebooks about making cheap films if you want to read them, and are you planning on buying a new camera or do you have one? Does your government have grants for film makers?
Sounds like a victim of wanting to know the outcome before taking a step. I know this all too well.
We are supposed to.... We are here to.... We must.... There is nothing else but...
to jump into the unknown with both feet!!!!
Pick up a pen. Talk to your potential mate(s). Do do do. (oh, it's hard when we are unsure. I'm at a place where I am clueless of which step to take next. I'm on the edge looking down in fear. I MUST JUMP INTO THE UNKNOWN. It's the only way to know)
Quote:Whoa, where did you get the idea that trying to describe 4D to the best of your ability would polarize you towards STS?
This line.
Quote:Ra: I am Ra. We ask you to consider as we speak that there are not words for positively describing fourth density. We can only explain what is not and approximate what is.
I guess I can only approximately describe it. Which seems fine, we can't truly know what 4th dimensional life is like until we get there. But I agree, as long as I speak with the heart, I'm sure the love will translate.
3dMonkey, thank you. Your advice was well put.
Quote:Does your government have grants for film makers?
Wow, I wish! Unfortunately, they do not.
Quote:I have some ebooks about making cheap films if you want to read them, and are you planning on buying a new camera or do you have one?
Thanks, I would love to read them. I am going to have to buy a new camera. I only have a cheap, handheld one with no audio input.
(03-15-2011, 05:58 PM)Gribbons Wrote: [ -> ]I guess I can only approximately describe it. Which seems fine, we can't truly know what 4th dimensional life is like until we get there. But I agree, as long as I speak with the heart, I'm sure the love will translate.
My brother, I wrote a science fiction book about a sister planet to Gaia where development of human kind was different. People on that planet was less bellicose, used Magic in STO purpose, and didn't have any monetary system - just to mention few things. It was still 3rd density. You can write about 3/4D, like Gaia in the future, or simply take another planet and create an enviroment that you want to see. Use your imagination, though it is unique and divine, and
create.
art is never supposed to be a replica of this universe anyway, it's its own universe. that's my view.
and that thing about plastic rings, so true. again, just my view.
(03-15-2011, 06:23 PM)Ankh Wrote: [ -> ] (03-15-2011, 05:58 PM)Gribbons Wrote: [ -> ]I guess I can only approximately describe it. Which seems fine, we can't truly know what 4th dimensional life is like until we get there. But I agree, as long as I speak with the heart, I'm sure the love will translate.
My brother, I wrote a science fiction book about a sister planet to Gaia where development of human kind was different. People on that planet was less bellicose, used Magic in STO purpose, and didn't have any monetary system - just to mention few things. It was still 3rd density. You can write about 3/4D, like Gaia in the future, or simply take another planet and create an enviroment that you want to see. Use your imagination, though it is unique and divine, and create.
Cheers, brother. It's a bit difficult imagining a world without money.. but that's because we don't know how to use magic yet I guess. lol I like the idea though.
(03-15-2011, 05:58 PM)Gribbons Wrote: [ -> ]Quote:Whoa, where did you get the idea that trying to describe 4D to the best of your ability would polarize you towards STS?
This line.
Quote:Ra: I am Ra. We ask you to consider as we speak that there are not words for positively describing fourth density. We can only explain what is not and approximate what is.
LOL, Ra meant positive in the sense of affirmative e.g. "fire trucks are red" is a positive statement, "fire trucks are not green" is a negative statement - it has nothing to do with polarity.
Quote:Quote:I have some ebooks about making cheap films if you want to read them, and are you planning on buying a new camera or do you have one?
Thanks, I would love to read them. I am going to have to buy a new camera. I only have a cheap, handheld one with no audio input.
http://www.henrys.ca/63403-CANON-VIXIA-H...ORDER.aspx
This Canon camcorder shoots in HD (1080i and 720p I think), has a mic in and headphone out, those are pretty much the only 3 important specs for shooting a low budget movie. It's $400. More expensive versions of this have better image sensors and support 1080p but as long as it looks good on an above average size HD TV (let's say 45") that's what matters. 1080p should look fine on a projector if you submitted your movie to a film festival, I dunno about 1080i or 720p though.
If you wanted a "real" camera then RED makes Hollywood quality digital cameras
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Red_Digital...ra_Company the most basic model would be around $4000 I think. DSLR still cameras that can shoot movies actually are even better quality than a RED camera, and slightly cheaper. But I think these are overkill, your movie would probably go straight to DVD and be distributed online so it just needs to be regular HD.
so, I had a few lingering orange ray issues to deal with.
these are to do with personal identity and personal power of course.
I found that I had been expressing them or playing them out with computer games, most especially RPG's (role playing games quite ironically)
by investing in these characters, levelling them up, I could gain power and abilities. This was reflected in the stats, and gaining HUGE NUMBERS.
I have to say that this was my own personal use of these games, and that everyone gets something different out of them. This was just my own use.
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in the end, the distorted thoughtform/understanding that was asking for attention was one to do around "worshipping uniqueness and abilities". This was moderated in consciousness down do "acknowledging my own uniqueness", and by association, acknowledging and appreciating others' uniqueness and particular current life configurations.
this smoothing of orange ray led to greater acceptance of myself and others, as the balancing of all distortions does.
(03-15-2011, 06:23 PM)Ankh Wrote: [ -> ]My brother, I wrote a science fiction book about a sister planet to Gaia where development of human kind was different....
Will I be able to get a chance to read the book, please?
(03-14-2011, 02:25 AM)Gribbons Wrote: [ -> ]Again I lay restless at night. And I think I found the source of why.
I'm 22 years old and I've been studying the metaphysical lessons of Ra for nearly 2 years now. It's literally changed my life, as I'm sure all of you can understand. I don't regret learning about it; it has given me purpose in life, but I'm in need of guidance. I've become detached, desensitized, alienated from the way society wants me to be that I'm having a bit of an identity crisis.
I'm in college and I feel, logically, if I want to survive, I need to make money, so I should study something that plays to my strengths. Ok, writing. Theatricality, people. But I've never felt like I wanted to specialize in one area. I just kind of want to do it all, because I don't feel particularly drawn to one area. Think actor/writer/director. Ever since learning about Ra I've been walking the way of the adept, I can "read" people almost so accurately without really getting to know them that some people have felt uncomfortable just being around me. I myself feel uncomfortable being me sometimes.
I'm really feeling the burden of being stuck between this third density society and the changes 4th density light is bringing. A lot of people invest their identity into their jobs, their professions, but I mean, look at Japan, the economy here, we all know big changes are coming. My body needs to survive, so I need to conform to society, but feel like I'm here for something bigger. The only dream that I can think of that would make my soul feel at peace is to build my own city. A peaceful town that works with nature, everyone knows each other, helps each other ... it's a 4th density dream. So it's impossible for me to dedicate my life to that dream right now, so all I can do is hope I can write some LOO-friendly drama/comedy that uplifts and hopefully awakens those wanting to learn more about our place in the universe.
I want to be creative, but I just feel I'm being forced down this path because its the only thing that can somewhat grasp my expression of what being human really means. I don't even know what that is yet, but I wish I could demonstrate it by getting a 4th density commune going.
Sidenote: Think we build stuff in the 4th density+ Earth using telekinesis or do we manifest objects/structures with our thoughts, similar to how the great pyramid was created?
Much love, brothers and sisters.
Orange ray blockage will have an accompanying nutrient deffecieny. No matter how much of the nutrient one uptakes. Until that blockage is cleared the counter nutrient problem will persist.