09-08-2009, 12:27 AM
I’m so happy to have found this sight with others who share my path of the Law of One. I will warn you in advance that my story is a bit long, but I have also been on the planet 52 years. There is quite a bit to tell.
My actual awakening came about ten years ago, but I have been preparing for this since childhood. I don’t know whether I am a wanderer or an awakened seeker. I have never felt I belonged somewhere else, but I have often felt that I didn’t belong here!
I have the Wanderers Handbook and did not score high on the ET test. However, I scored very high in the areas that did not deal with attachment to another star or planet. I was born with a birth defect (inverted breastbone) and my father called me “the freak” because of it. I have always been a loner and walked to my own beat, even though it has been very lonely. I have a very strong intuition and just seem to understand things that other people struggle with (math, physics, technology).
My story begins at age 5 when my mother became a Jehovah’s Witness. From that point forward, I had minimal contact with the outside world as we were preparing for the harvest. From a JW perspective, the current “system” was on the way out. It would be replaced by a “new system” where people lived in harmony with the Earth and with their creator. The new system was supposed to begin October, 1975 and be preceded by the destruction of the known world in a violent event we called Armageddon.
It was very difficult growing up with these beliefs as the end of my childhood culminated in the end of the world (I graduated high school during 1975). The key to surviving the harvest was active membership in the Witnesses. All non-Witnesses were going to die and they would have no hope for a resurrection. That meant my grandparents, uncles, neighbors and classmates were going to be killed by God. I did not accept that and I began to rebel as a teenager.
An elder began coming to our home during 1974 and threatening that I would die if I did not get baptized as a Witness. I finally gave in and was baptized, but I was soon put on probation (what they termed “public reproof”). A friend of mine was excommunicated from the congregation for smoking. I knew he smoked and was reproved because I didn’t notify the elders. The end of the world was only a few months away and I had been kicked off the lifeboat! Rather than feeling repentant, I felt indignant toward God. I could not serve a God who was going to kill my friends and loved ones. Even though the Witnesses were opposed to college or careers, I enrolled in a local college and began pursuing an engineering degree September 1975, one month before the end would come. If I died, so be it!
1975 passed with a yawn, and I began slowly pulling away from the Witnesses and integrating with “the world.” Since leaving the Witnesses meant severing ties with my mother, brothers and sisters, it was nearly 10 years before I was completely out. My first wife was from a Witness family so I had family issues on both sides until we divorced. I was awarded full custody of our three children and I raised them without any religious or spiritual emphasis.
As a Witness, I believed that I was my body. There was no soul or spirit that lived on after death. I was also taught that all other religions were false and rejected by God. No longer having my own faith, and not being open to other faiths, I tried to push God and religion out of my life. However, a friend from college introduced me to American Indian spirituality during 1990. I was intrigued by The Medicine Wheel by Sun Bear which explained astrology from an Indian perspective. Although I did not immediately embrace it, seeds were planted that would sprout later.
My engineering career had blossomed into a management career. By age 30, I was on the management fast-track in a Fortune 500 company. I had become quality manager just as the modern quality movement was taking hold in America. However, I worked in an extremely STS environment. The camaraderie I had enjoyed in engineering was replaced by competition for power and money. Now my coworkers had become rivals or even enemies.
During 1994 to 1996, my business world was turned upside down. I accepted a job at a struggling company on the condition that I be promoted to VP if my efforts were successful. I was extremely successful but the owner was killed in a car crash. His heirs took over the business and I was forced out. I accepted a VP position at another company only to learn the government was going to close the company down for nonpayment of payroll taxes. I decided to start my own manufacturing company with investment from a venture capitalist. He was investing $1 million to buy the startup equipment. The day before we met at the bank to sign the papers and deposit the money, he was rushed to the hospital for a quadruple bypass. He didn’t survive. I was so devastated that I became very ill and required surgery. Also, my thyroid gland quit working. I have taken thyroid replacement ever since.
In the aftermath, I decided I needed to get away for a while. My brother drove a school bus and was off for the summer. The two of us hopped into my convertible and traced old US Route 66 from Illinois to the Pacific Ocean. While we were in Arizona, we stopped to visit our youngest brother who lived in Phoenix. While there, I visited the Heard Museum of American Indian Art. I had this feeling of Déjà vu as if this were my own heritage. I nearly cried as I listened to the flute music of Carlos Nakai and slowly immersed myself into the art and culture that was on display. I suddenly knew what I had to do.
Upon my return to Ohio, I joined the Indian Arts and Crafts Association and opened an American Indian fine arts gallery at a local shopping center. I had artwork shipped in from across the USA and began making contacts with artists. I also carried music CD’s and sponsored a music program on our local public radio station. Many spiritually awake people began coming to the gallery and sharing their stories and their beliefs. I spent my days surrounded by spiritual art, listening to ethereal music and learning about metaphysics. This was a time of great healing as well as awakening.
The gallery did not generate enough money to support my family, so I returned to industry. But I had been awakened to a higher reality and I could not go back. I began to study numerology and astrology, then I was introduced to New Thought. Initially, I became involved with a New Thought church for the opportunity to play music. Eventually, I was able to see the oneness of all creation with the creator. I experienced an outpouring of spirit as I began writing songs about oneness. It was as if the songs were already there and I was simply lucky enough to discover them!
I began having second thoughts about New Thought because of the insistence that disease is the result of wrong thinking and what I perceived as a distortion of the Law of Attraction. Learning to think correctly and speak correctly was supposed to make life flow effortlessly. Yet, I found that the more I progressed spiritually, the more obstacles I faced. I had started to understand the concept of catalysts, although I did not yet know that’s what they are called.
I joined A Course In Miracles study group but could not make sense of the text. I was also reading the Zachariah Sitchen books describing the ancient world of the Annunaki. I was studying the Edgar Cayce materials, especially anything related the Law of One. I later read Children of the Law of One by Jon Peneal. I was beginning to get a clear sense of why we were here. Afterward, I returned to A Course in Miracles. This time, it seemed very simple to read and understand. I guess a certain level of awareness is required before ACIM becomes accessible. Basically, it teaches to see every catalyst as either an expression of love or fear, and fear is to be viewed as your other-self crying out for love.
I have wanted to leave industry and earn my living in a “spiritual” occupation but the doors never opened. I tried publishing and selling music. I even advertised my services as an astrologer. Neither ventures got off the ground. However, I received an entirely new method for astrology during several meditative sessions. I call it relative astrology because it is based upon a metaphysical interpretation of E=mc². I have lectured on this technique and the door may one day open to do it full time. But I still work in industrial management and I believe I must do so for karmic reasons. I am actively working to end the cycle through forgiveness of myself and others. I must admit that my job is an excellent source of catalysts and opportunities to offer forgiveness!
I have only recently come across the Ra material. I believe it provides the clearest picture of how things work. The Casey material was from our collective memory and explained things from a human perspective. There was a great deal of focus on past lives and seeing our present lives in terms of the reincarnation process. The Ra material is from a non-human perspective and puts the primary focus on what we need to do now in our present lifetime in view of the harvest. The Ra material appears to be more relevant to 2012.
Now I have come full circle. I am once again preparing for a new system to be established on the Earth. Once again I have a specific time: December 2012. But this time there will be no Armageddon. I believe we will all be here together until we complete our current incarnations. So regardless of who graduates and who doesn’t, we must continue showing patience and love while we face the challenges of third density. Regardless, I was told during childhood that the new system would arrive during my lifetime. I believe it has already arrived. We just need more people to awaken to it.
Light and love,
Greg
My actual awakening came about ten years ago, but I have been preparing for this since childhood. I don’t know whether I am a wanderer or an awakened seeker. I have never felt I belonged somewhere else, but I have often felt that I didn’t belong here!
I have the Wanderers Handbook and did not score high on the ET test. However, I scored very high in the areas that did not deal with attachment to another star or planet. I was born with a birth defect (inverted breastbone) and my father called me “the freak” because of it. I have always been a loner and walked to my own beat, even though it has been very lonely. I have a very strong intuition and just seem to understand things that other people struggle with (math, physics, technology).
My story begins at age 5 when my mother became a Jehovah’s Witness. From that point forward, I had minimal contact with the outside world as we were preparing for the harvest. From a JW perspective, the current “system” was on the way out. It would be replaced by a “new system” where people lived in harmony with the Earth and with their creator. The new system was supposed to begin October, 1975 and be preceded by the destruction of the known world in a violent event we called Armageddon.
It was very difficult growing up with these beliefs as the end of my childhood culminated in the end of the world (I graduated high school during 1975). The key to surviving the harvest was active membership in the Witnesses. All non-Witnesses were going to die and they would have no hope for a resurrection. That meant my grandparents, uncles, neighbors and classmates were going to be killed by God. I did not accept that and I began to rebel as a teenager.
An elder began coming to our home during 1974 and threatening that I would die if I did not get baptized as a Witness. I finally gave in and was baptized, but I was soon put on probation (what they termed “public reproof”). A friend of mine was excommunicated from the congregation for smoking. I knew he smoked and was reproved because I didn’t notify the elders. The end of the world was only a few months away and I had been kicked off the lifeboat! Rather than feeling repentant, I felt indignant toward God. I could not serve a God who was going to kill my friends and loved ones. Even though the Witnesses were opposed to college or careers, I enrolled in a local college and began pursuing an engineering degree September 1975, one month before the end would come. If I died, so be it!
1975 passed with a yawn, and I began slowly pulling away from the Witnesses and integrating with “the world.” Since leaving the Witnesses meant severing ties with my mother, brothers and sisters, it was nearly 10 years before I was completely out. My first wife was from a Witness family so I had family issues on both sides until we divorced. I was awarded full custody of our three children and I raised them without any religious or spiritual emphasis.
As a Witness, I believed that I was my body. There was no soul or spirit that lived on after death. I was also taught that all other religions were false and rejected by God. No longer having my own faith, and not being open to other faiths, I tried to push God and religion out of my life. However, a friend from college introduced me to American Indian spirituality during 1990. I was intrigued by The Medicine Wheel by Sun Bear which explained astrology from an Indian perspective. Although I did not immediately embrace it, seeds were planted that would sprout later.
My engineering career had blossomed into a management career. By age 30, I was on the management fast-track in a Fortune 500 company. I had become quality manager just as the modern quality movement was taking hold in America. However, I worked in an extremely STS environment. The camaraderie I had enjoyed in engineering was replaced by competition for power and money. Now my coworkers had become rivals or even enemies.
During 1994 to 1996, my business world was turned upside down. I accepted a job at a struggling company on the condition that I be promoted to VP if my efforts were successful. I was extremely successful but the owner was killed in a car crash. His heirs took over the business and I was forced out. I accepted a VP position at another company only to learn the government was going to close the company down for nonpayment of payroll taxes. I decided to start my own manufacturing company with investment from a venture capitalist. He was investing $1 million to buy the startup equipment. The day before we met at the bank to sign the papers and deposit the money, he was rushed to the hospital for a quadruple bypass. He didn’t survive. I was so devastated that I became very ill and required surgery. Also, my thyroid gland quit working. I have taken thyroid replacement ever since.
In the aftermath, I decided I needed to get away for a while. My brother drove a school bus and was off for the summer. The two of us hopped into my convertible and traced old US Route 66 from Illinois to the Pacific Ocean. While we were in Arizona, we stopped to visit our youngest brother who lived in Phoenix. While there, I visited the Heard Museum of American Indian Art. I had this feeling of Déjà vu as if this were my own heritage. I nearly cried as I listened to the flute music of Carlos Nakai and slowly immersed myself into the art and culture that was on display. I suddenly knew what I had to do.
Upon my return to Ohio, I joined the Indian Arts and Crafts Association and opened an American Indian fine arts gallery at a local shopping center. I had artwork shipped in from across the USA and began making contacts with artists. I also carried music CD’s and sponsored a music program on our local public radio station. Many spiritually awake people began coming to the gallery and sharing their stories and their beliefs. I spent my days surrounded by spiritual art, listening to ethereal music and learning about metaphysics. This was a time of great healing as well as awakening.
The gallery did not generate enough money to support my family, so I returned to industry. But I had been awakened to a higher reality and I could not go back. I began to study numerology and astrology, then I was introduced to New Thought. Initially, I became involved with a New Thought church for the opportunity to play music. Eventually, I was able to see the oneness of all creation with the creator. I experienced an outpouring of spirit as I began writing songs about oneness. It was as if the songs were already there and I was simply lucky enough to discover them!
I began having second thoughts about New Thought because of the insistence that disease is the result of wrong thinking and what I perceived as a distortion of the Law of Attraction. Learning to think correctly and speak correctly was supposed to make life flow effortlessly. Yet, I found that the more I progressed spiritually, the more obstacles I faced. I had started to understand the concept of catalysts, although I did not yet know that’s what they are called.
I joined A Course In Miracles study group but could not make sense of the text. I was also reading the Zachariah Sitchen books describing the ancient world of the Annunaki. I was studying the Edgar Cayce materials, especially anything related the Law of One. I later read Children of the Law of One by Jon Peneal. I was beginning to get a clear sense of why we were here. Afterward, I returned to A Course in Miracles. This time, it seemed very simple to read and understand. I guess a certain level of awareness is required before ACIM becomes accessible. Basically, it teaches to see every catalyst as either an expression of love or fear, and fear is to be viewed as your other-self crying out for love.
I have wanted to leave industry and earn my living in a “spiritual” occupation but the doors never opened. I tried publishing and selling music. I even advertised my services as an astrologer. Neither ventures got off the ground. However, I received an entirely new method for astrology during several meditative sessions. I call it relative astrology because it is based upon a metaphysical interpretation of E=mc². I have lectured on this technique and the door may one day open to do it full time. But I still work in industrial management and I believe I must do so for karmic reasons. I am actively working to end the cycle through forgiveness of myself and others. I must admit that my job is an excellent source of catalysts and opportunities to offer forgiveness!
I have only recently come across the Ra material. I believe it provides the clearest picture of how things work. The Casey material was from our collective memory and explained things from a human perspective. There was a great deal of focus on past lives and seeing our present lives in terms of the reincarnation process. The Ra material is from a non-human perspective and puts the primary focus on what we need to do now in our present lifetime in view of the harvest. The Ra material appears to be more relevant to 2012.
Now I have come full circle. I am once again preparing for a new system to be established on the Earth. Once again I have a specific time: December 2012. But this time there will be no Armageddon. I believe we will all be here together until we complete our current incarnations. So regardless of who graduates and who doesn’t, we must continue showing patience and love while we face the challenges of third density. Regardless, I was told during childhood that the new system would arrive during my lifetime. I believe it has already arrived. We just need more people to awaken to it.
Light and love,
Greg
My dreams come true! On the DC forum one of the mods said in a PM i was expressing determinism when i couldn't refrain from occasionaly referring to personal astrology since i'm an astrologer myself. 