05-12-2013, 08:08 AM
IF "tl;dr" THEN: "What is Fear?"
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Sorry to everyone who opened this thread and expected any ideas, or musings, or even insights about Fear...
This isn't a forum posting so much as a question to the universe: I want to know about Fear.
Or perhaps I should say, I want to know Fear (though that does sound really scary, and, for that matter, I do know fear well enough, much too well, I might even be tempted to say...).
Still, I do want to know Fear (you might have noticed the capitalisation), know her-him like you know a good friend; that way exactly: not knowing and understanding everything there is about him/her, but ... well, a kind of knowing, or trust, about which particular manifestation(s) of the One you are dealing with, somehow. :)
There are several kinds of fear, and the one I am most interested in is the one which often is hidden, the one we distract ourselves from by having our minds making up reasons why - by the logic of cause and effect - this or that doesn't or won't work.
That sort of fear which I want to know better is the fear which keeps you from doing something you want to do.
Whatever it is you want to do, however noble, or wise, or petty, or insignificant, or impossible, or easy, or foolish, or ... I am running out of words.
And then, every time, fear just creeps up from the ground and piles itself higher and higher in the blink of an eye, quicker than you can notice, forming itself into an invisible and impermeable wall, and you might bang your fists against that wall, or you might just walk into another direction, change course and continue with your steps... .... but.....
But what is the "true" nature of all this?
Sometimes, you merely wait, and fear dissipates, just by itself. Sometimes, understanding dissipates fear. And sometimes you try to understand, or you meditate, or you wait, and nothing happens; and still you "know" that you "must" get on the other side of the wall.
And there is one more thing, that very peculiar thing that is such a prominent feature here in Third Density: time. I cannot just sit and meditate for a million years if something needs to be done by tomorrow. Or even right now.
Sometimes you only think (believe) "it" needs to be done, and then you discover that your own little world keeps on turning just as well if you sit there, inert and inactive ... but, alas, not always ... experience has shown that, on a multitude of occasions. Never has it been fatal (except in the eyes of some people), but often very tedious, and troublesome, and painful.
And "normal" humans (I am amazed at how many of these still roam the Earth!) often have little understanding for such procrastination, even if they might procrastinate in much "worse" ways ... just maybe not in the matters of everyday life, of consensual reality, of making it through the day fed and clothed and sufficiently undisturbed by other-selves to maintain a minimum degree of clarity and peace of mind (yes, I know, Third Density was built on the very notion of precluding any clarity and peace of mind, but throwing myself in the maelstrom of the kind of life a "normal" person is supposed to lead, I wouldn't survive for long, not as a person that is even remotely myself, not as a person functioning in society, and most probably not even physically, due to my weak immune and nervous system).
And, yes, being afraid ... even without noticing it ... or being afraid and paralysed and not being able to do anything about it ... or maybe being able to do something about it, but believing you don't have the power to (yes, we all have infinite power, so "they" say, but where exactly is it buried, if I may ask, where?) ... what valuable experiences and indeed "lessons" are these, here on earth.... <3
But still, the "warrior in me" wants to ... well, "slay the dragon", I guess, though I don't like using this figure of speech, as dragons are creatures very dear to me...
So, now that the question has been posed, maybe one day ideas will begin to trickle in, ideas of my own or those of any helpful friends and fellow seekers (I never liked that word, for what is there to seek, or even find?), and maybe I will be a little bit more illuminated on this topic some distant future day ... and might even be able to apply some of those new understandings to the conundrums of my own daily life...
On a side note, my own personal most fearsome "friend" sits in my solarplexus (or maybe is wrapped around it), so this note is just to say "hi" to her-him.
And I would most dearly wish to bid farewell to this entity - most possibly of my own making, if probably not in this lifetime - for aren't there so many nice things you can do with your solarplexus/third chakra? Aren't the ways in which you can express your Self on this level most diverse and plentiful? Apart from the lamentable fact that the upper chakras are somewhat starved of energy if that inner sun of one's Self is not allowed to shine forth the way it wants to.
Well, and unless someone builds a lot of pyramids, stone circles and similar devices in order to harmonise the cosmic influx of pure primal energies into and out of our earth, so that our natural lifespan can once again approach those 800 years Ra spoke of, unless that happens (and imagine what an arduous feat it would be, given the amount and depth of man-made orange and yellow thought-form vibrations of disharmony and strife, circling and enveloping our little planetary sphere) ... unless that happens, there isn't all too much time left ... and I really like this incarnation, despite all the pain; I really like this one, unequaled Earth and the "interesting" times we live in, and even human society in all its shiny and opaque facets ... so yes, I do yearn for that magic golden key to unlocking all that power which is - for now - held captive by that ancient companion of mankind - Fear.
Oh yeah, I should have mentioned - what I was talking about is not really fear of something (which, in most cases - and again I am only talking for myself and my own experiences here - is rather like a tame, if slightly unruly, puppy, once you find the courage to look straight into its face), but rather that fear which escapes all explanation and understanding and grasping at it ... I am certain you all know what I am referring to.
Thanks for reading and have a courageous day, dancing with your and our and everyone's fear to the music of the sun rising and setting, the winds of change blowing over our very own mental landscapes, and the moon shining its gentle silver light onto the darkness....
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Sorry to everyone who opened this thread and expected any ideas, or musings, or even insights about Fear...
This isn't a forum posting so much as a question to the universe: I want to know about Fear.
Or perhaps I should say, I want to know Fear (though that does sound really scary, and, for that matter, I do know fear well enough, much too well, I might even be tempted to say...).
Still, I do want to know Fear (you might have noticed the capitalisation), know her-him like you know a good friend; that way exactly: not knowing and understanding everything there is about him/her, but ... well, a kind of knowing, or trust, about which particular manifestation(s) of the One you are dealing with, somehow. :)
There are several kinds of fear, and the one I am most interested in is the one which often is hidden, the one we distract ourselves from by having our minds making up reasons why - by the logic of cause and effect - this or that doesn't or won't work.
That sort of fear which I want to know better is the fear which keeps you from doing something you want to do.
Whatever it is you want to do, however noble, or wise, or petty, or insignificant, or impossible, or easy, or foolish, or ... I am running out of words.
And then, every time, fear just creeps up from the ground and piles itself higher and higher in the blink of an eye, quicker than you can notice, forming itself into an invisible and impermeable wall, and you might bang your fists against that wall, or you might just walk into another direction, change course and continue with your steps... .... but.....
But what is the "true" nature of all this?
Sometimes, you merely wait, and fear dissipates, just by itself. Sometimes, understanding dissipates fear. And sometimes you try to understand, or you meditate, or you wait, and nothing happens; and still you "know" that you "must" get on the other side of the wall.
And there is one more thing, that very peculiar thing that is such a prominent feature here in Third Density: time. I cannot just sit and meditate for a million years if something needs to be done by tomorrow. Or even right now.
Sometimes you only think (believe) "it" needs to be done, and then you discover that your own little world keeps on turning just as well if you sit there, inert and inactive ... but, alas, not always ... experience has shown that, on a multitude of occasions. Never has it been fatal (except in the eyes of some people), but often very tedious, and troublesome, and painful.
And "normal" humans (I am amazed at how many of these still roam the Earth!) often have little understanding for such procrastination, even if they might procrastinate in much "worse" ways ... just maybe not in the matters of everyday life, of consensual reality, of making it through the day fed and clothed and sufficiently undisturbed by other-selves to maintain a minimum degree of clarity and peace of mind (yes, I know, Third Density was built on the very notion of precluding any clarity and peace of mind, but throwing myself in the maelstrom of the kind of life a "normal" person is supposed to lead, I wouldn't survive for long, not as a person that is even remotely myself, not as a person functioning in society, and most probably not even physically, due to my weak immune and nervous system).
And, yes, being afraid ... even without noticing it ... or being afraid and paralysed and not being able to do anything about it ... or maybe being able to do something about it, but believing you don't have the power to (yes, we all have infinite power, so "they" say, but where exactly is it buried, if I may ask, where?) ... what valuable experiences and indeed "lessons" are these, here on earth.... <3
But still, the "warrior in me" wants to ... well, "slay the dragon", I guess, though I don't like using this figure of speech, as dragons are creatures very dear to me...
So, now that the question has been posed, maybe one day ideas will begin to trickle in, ideas of my own or those of any helpful friends and fellow seekers (I never liked that word, for what is there to seek, or even find?), and maybe I will be a little bit more illuminated on this topic some distant future day ... and might even be able to apply some of those new understandings to the conundrums of my own daily life...
On a side note, my own personal most fearsome "friend" sits in my solarplexus (or maybe is wrapped around it), so this note is just to say "hi" to her-him.
And I would most dearly wish to bid farewell to this entity - most possibly of my own making, if probably not in this lifetime - for aren't there so many nice things you can do with your solarplexus/third chakra? Aren't the ways in which you can express your Self on this level most diverse and plentiful? Apart from the lamentable fact that the upper chakras are somewhat starved of energy if that inner sun of one's Self is not allowed to shine forth the way it wants to.
Well, and unless someone builds a lot of pyramids, stone circles and similar devices in order to harmonise the cosmic influx of pure primal energies into and out of our earth, so that our natural lifespan can once again approach those 800 years Ra spoke of, unless that happens (and imagine what an arduous feat it would be, given the amount and depth of man-made orange and yellow thought-form vibrations of disharmony and strife, circling and enveloping our little planetary sphere) ... unless that happens, there isn't all too much time left ... and I really like this incarnation, despite all the pain; I really like this one, unequaled Earth and the "interesting" times we live in, and even human society in all its shiny and opaque facets ... so yes, I do yearn for that magic golden key to unlocking all that power which is - for now - held captive by that ancient companion of mankind - Fear.
Oh yeah, I should have mentioned - what I was talking about is not really fear of something (which, in most cases - and again I am only talking for myself and my own experiences here - is rather like a tame, if slightly unruly, puppy, once you find the courage to look straight into its face), but rather that fear which escapes all explanation and understanding and grasping at it ... I am certain you all know what I am referring to.
Thanks for reading and have a courageous day, dancing with your and our and everyone's fear to the music of the sun rising and setting, the winds of change blowing over our very own mental landscapes, and the moon shining its gentle silver light onto the darkness....