09-14-2013, 04:01 PM
So, for a few years I've been experiencing anhedonia, and the catalyst has been increasing exponentially over the last few years. I don't have enough time to explain fully in this post, so I may come back later and fill in the blanks.
After a week of vacation in the most beautiful place in the world, I finally have my answer as to why it has been so difficult for me to remain in the body and getting more difficult to enjoy everyday things: yellow ray has gone away.
I was "told" this morning, that it is more difficult to draw on yellow ray love, but becoming increasing easier to draw on green-ray love. This has opened up the ability to almost see (or feel) the cycles more clearly. Red ray is also becoming less (just not moving into potentiation), which will cause extinctions and also greatly affect the fertility of mankind over the years ahead.
This is all a part of the transition period. Despite that I've read about it, I didn't know what the effect would be, but I'm beginning to realize that the effects have been all around me this whole time.
The realization has given me a new lease. It's so difficult to deal with something when you don't understand it, but easier to accept when you can at least put a reason to it.
After a week of vacation in the most beautiful place in the world, I finally have my answer as to why it has been so difficult for me to remain in the body and getting more difficult to enjoy everyday things: yellow ray has gone away.
I was "told" this morning, that it is more difficult to draw on yellow ray love, but becoming increasing easier to draw on green-ray love. This has opened up the ability to almost see (or feel) the cycles more clearly. Red ray is also becoming less (just not moving into potentiation), which will cause extinctions and also greatly affect the fertility of mankind over the years ahead.
This is all a part of the transition period. Despite that I've read about it, I didn't know what the effect would be, but I'm beginning to realize that the effects have been all around me this whole time.
The realization has given me a new lease. It's so difficult to deal with something when you don't understand it, but easier to accept when you can at least put a reason to it.