01-02-2014, 06:18 PM
in continuing to work through my orange and yellow chakra blockages, I have found that the importance of feelings and vulnerabilities continues to arise.
part of this is an unwillingness to truly feel and experience what it is like to be truly vulnerable, the kind of vulnerability and dependence that a 9 month or 12 month old baby has, when sitting at the dinner table in his high chair surrounded by his loving family.
there were times when we were growing up, which mostly likely includes many events before the age of 16, when we had traumatic and painful experiences, and these experiences were not able to be integrated at the time.
these traumatic experiences have a tendency to be walled off, and we deny ourselves the right to experience them fully. They are just too painful.
so they become isolated memories, affecting our mood and behaviour. Anything that vaguely reminds us of these painful memories evokes a kind of avoidance response. We don't want to talk about it, we change the topic of conversation or deflect the question back to the other person.
I have found that it is very useful to put oneself back into a vulnerable position again. In the safety and comfort of one's home, one can willingly re-experience the events of childhood, and through a complete re-living and acceptance of what happened, that memory can finally be re-integrated into the self.
part of this is an unwillingness to truly feel and experience what it is like to be truly vulnerable, the kind of vulnerability and dependence that a 9 month or 12 month old baby has, when sitting at the dinner table in his high chair surrounded by his loving family.
there were times when we were growing up, which mostly likely includes many events before the age of 16, when we had traumatic and painful experiences, and these experiences were not able to be integrated at the time.
these traumatic experiences have a tendency to be walled off, and we deny ourselves the right to experience them fully. They are just too painful.
so they become isolated memories, affecting our mood and behaviour. Anything that vaguely reminds us of these painful memories evokes a kind of avoidance response. We don't want to talk about it, we change the topic of conversation or deflect the question back to the other person.
I have found that it is very useful to put oneself back into a vulnerable position again. In the safety and comfort of one's home, one can willingly re-experience the events of childhood, and through a complete re-living and acceptance of what happened, that memory can finally be re-integrated into the self.