10-18-2014, 03:12 AM
Hello all, Fang here, I thought I better clean something up. This has been on my mind for a while to the point where I decided to make an account (I know, I know, another one) and rectify some inevitable confusion I may have caused. If anyone cares.
I am not here to participate but to apologise for ambiguity.
Now, as you may well be aware, I was Account1, however Account1 was not a fictional identity I crafted to dupe anyone. You could probably just tell if you were familiar with my posting style and I was aware that that would be likely for some but still the following needs to be said.
Account1 was me without the name Fang, I didn’t want to talk personally, I just wanted to discuss the material. I wanted to hear why people believed the material to be true and to see their reasoning behind the position combated with my own views. I tossed and turned over whether it’s possible to maintain an honest approach without a face, I thought so then but am now unsure, thus why I am here presently. I was going to reveal myself in my nuked posts at the end of thread but decided against it. Now while I may appear as aggressive and to the people on this site I have been here a while and respect the community (even though I think you're a bunch of nutters) and feel I owe you an explanation.
My goal with that account was not to troll, dupe, witchhunt, bait or deceive but to discuss the material that the site is dedicated to, and I am sorry if it appeared to be that way. I was aware of the forum guideline that users should not create multiple accounts and pretend to be different people, I did not think too much of it at first as I was using the only account I had that was functional but the discussion went on much longer than I anticipated to the point where people would have carved out an identity for the account, I noticed this and regretted not making myself known as Fang but felt the revelation would derail the conversation, so I kept quiet.
The views related in the thread I created are my own views and not the product of a fictional identity, I do not believe the Ra Material to be true. The experiences I spoke of as account1 were real experiences I have had with many, many people. The list of the progression of a new ager was not only what I have observed in some of my friends and social circle but also what I went through myself when I was younger. I didn’t just make things up. The way became familiar with the material is the same as what I relayed as Account1 I just didn't mention that when I first read it I believed it.
I figured out fairly quickly that if I mentioned that I had formerly held the material to be true the discussion would descend into chaos so I decided to keep that quiet. This however led to many understandable assumptions about the character of Account1 (that differ from the known properties of Fang) and thus could easily give the impression that the account was created with the intention to fool.
The second trouble I ran into was in conversation with people I have discussed with at length before, and them not knowing that I had talked to them before. I tried my best to remain unbiased and respond as if I had not talked to these people before. I found it difficult to do and felt guilty of perhaps deceiving (as if I had talked to them before, which I had, that would have however slightly influenced what I said), but I did try. The exception to this was my rebuking of one of Parson’s post, I did not appreciate being told that he was once like me (at the time it just seemed condescending but I know it was well intentioned), being familiar with his posting style I brought up something I remembered that seemed to conflict with what was currently being presented and then later said I was unaware of the posting date, this was the one lie in my time as Account1 (well apart from my age to JLY, I'm actually a little younger). But my response was petty and unwarranted and I apologise for it.
I no longer believe the Ra Material to be true and no longer have an interest in it and thus no longer have a place here nor desire to participate here. I wish you all the best on your journeys but I am no longer on this path.
Hope I didn’t cause too much harm
With non cosmic love
Fangus Aurelius
I am not here to participate but to apologise for ambiguity.
Now, as you may well be aware, I was Account1, however Account1 was not a fictional identity I crafted to dupe anyone. You could probably just tell if you were familiar with my posting style and I was aware that that would be likely for some but still the following needs to be said.
Account1 was me without the name Fang, I didn’t want to talk personally, I just wanted to discuss the material. I wanted to hear why people believed the material to be true and to see their reasoning behind the position combated with my own views. I tossed and turned over whether it’s possible to maintain an honest approach without a face, I thought so then but am now unsure, thus why I am here presently. I was going to reveal myself in my nuked posts at the end of thread but decided against it. Now while I may appear as aggressive and to the people on this site I have been here a while and respect the community (even though I think you're a bunch of nutters) and feel I owe you an explanation.
My goal with that account was not to troll, dupe, witchhunt, bait or deceive but to discuss the material that the site is dedicated to, and I am sorry if it appeared to be that way. I was aware of the forum guideline that users should not create multiple accounts and pretend to be different people, I did not think too much of it at first as I was using the only account I had that was functional but the discussion went on much longer than I anticipated to the point where people would have carved out an identity for the account, I noticed this and regretted not making myself known as Fang but felt the revelation would derail the conversation, so I kept quiet.
The views related in the thread I created are my own views and not the product of a fictional identity, I do not believe the Ra Material to be true. The experiences I spoke of as account1 were real experiences I have had with many, many people. The list of the progression of a new ager was not only what I have observed in some of my friends and social circle but also what I went through myself when I was younger. I didn’t just make things up. The way became familiar with the material is the same as what I relayed as Account1 I just didn't mention that when I first read it I believed it.
I figured out fairly quickly that if I mentioned that I had formerly held the material to be true the discussion would descend into chaos so I decided to keep that quiet. This however led to many understandable assumptions about the character of Account1 (that differ from the known properties of Fang) and thus could easily give the impression that the account was created with the intention to fool.
The second trouble I ran into was in conversation with people I have discussed with at length before, and them not knowing that I had talked to them before. I tried my best to remain unbiased and respond as if I had not talked to these people before. I found it difficult to do and felt guilty of perhaps deceiving (as if I had talked to them before, which I had, that would have however slightly influenced what I said), but I did try. The exception to this was my rebuking of one of Parson’s post, I did not appreciate being told that he was once like me (at the time it just seemed condescending but I know it was well intentioned), being familiar with his posting style I brought up something I remembered that seemed to conflict with what was currently being presented and then later said I was unaware of the posting date, this was the one lie in my time as Account1 (well apart from my age to JLY, I'm actually a little younger). But my response was petty and unwarranted and I apologise for it.
I no longer believe the Ra Material to be true and no longer have an interest in it and thus no longer have a place here nor desire to participate here. I wish you all the best on your journeys but I am no longer on this path.
Hope I didn’t cause too much harm
With non cosmic love
Fangus Aurelius