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So I Woke Up - Jerome - 12-09-2010 Hello, I'd like to tell you some of my story. This is how I woke up. Three paragraphs of backstory - I'm 30 years old. I grew up in small town Canada. When I was 17 I got a job and saved up and travelled to Port-au-Prince, Haiti. I was no wordly guy - a kid from the country, a bookworm farmhand, but I needed to see what was really happening. I was changed by the trip. I returned determined to understand the injustice of our politics and economics so they may be remedied. I studied Noam Chomsky and his hero, Bertrand Russell. I had an idea one day. I was trying to write an essay for a metaphysics class and I got caught up with the idea that most philosophy I'd read presupposed that categories were real. Innocently I thought what the opposite presupposition might entail. What followed was an intense mental event. I suddenly realized that there were no boundaries in the universe. So I ran out of the library. I'd heard this before of course. You hear it every day if you listen. But in that moment I had a peek at the implications. Soon I began to view the political problems differently. What was now clear to me was that I had become somewhat hardened. If I were to ever to approach positive social change I must learn to first (and this part was hard to admit) love everyone and everything. I had not meditated before, so I started there. This is where my story starts. A day after I started meditating I friend stopped by with a strange gift. He had been given some morning glory (ololiuqui) seeds by a friend of his who had experimented with altered states of consciousness. I did some research, reading dozens of peer reviewed publications. Eventually I decided the potential benefit outweighed the risk of harm. I was also swayed by the uncanny nature and timing of the events of the last two days. So I prepared the seeds, took the dose, and very seriously centered on asking how to love everyone and everything. About an hour passed. Suddenly and much to my surprise information entered. It was an old stone pyramid with the message 'this isn't a pyramid, this is a sphere. this isn't a sphere, its a single point. this isn't a point, it is nothing at all. it is everything'. The shape/concept elaborated itself into a flowing toroidal vortex (I didn't know what this was at the time). I was not expecting geometry. I wasn't expecting anything really, but certainly not that. I woke up the next morning compelled to draw the shape. I'd look at the diagram and feel it was wrong and draw it differently. Over and over and over, always groups of three. Along with the shapes were strangely spiritual phrases describing the motion of energy. I didn't know what any of it meant but I had to write it down. I was using electrical terms that I did not understand to explain spiritual concepts. It was deeply odd. Suddenly the urge vanished and I went about my day. A week later, after I had been looking up motors and generators trying to understand what on earth I was drawing before, I found something. It was a documentary on Nikola Tesla. Not only did I see the shapes in his work notes, but the phrases I wrote next to spoken aloud by the narrator. It was truly unnerving. I wrote down the word 'synchronicity' before I even knew what it meant. That whole day was amok with it. As I pursued different threads, I became aware something was happening. People started saying the words in my head during conversations. The radio, television, passing pedestrians, would answer my passing mental questions in perfect ryhthm. For a time I would wake up simply 'knowing' something utterly useless - what my friend was dreaming about, levels of supply at work, that my mother was coming to visit out of the blue, the first sentence someone would say that day, etc. These synchronistic events peaked after about three weeks when I found the Law of One material. As strange as this work was - it was coherent, it never contradicted itself, and it explained everything that was happening. How could this be faked? It was clearly a work of genius either way, deserving of study regardless of its origin. This material changed my tack and hastened my pursuit. Synchronistic strangeness followed me. I took up the study of the tarot discussed in the later workings. I printed out the images to aid the study. After a few days, I was at my computer playing an online poker tournament when I noticed the tarot deck i had made. I picked it up and pondered for a moment the connection between the tarot and the modern playing card deck. For some reason I felt a strong compulsion to shuffle the cards. I had been very careful to keep them in order (although I'd noticed the 13 card kept accidentally falling out) but now felt there was some power involved in shuffling them. I was doing this for a minute or so absently when I was dealt two aces, the strongest hand in my game (texas hold'em). I had been playing this tournament all night and was doing very well, a few players out from the final table (a rare and lucrative achievement in such a large tournament). Still shuffling, I saw the next minute unfold in an instant. This next part sounds crazy. I knew my raise would be called by one player, that I would make three aces on the flop, the other player would bluff all his chips when I checked, and he would catch a miracle straight to eliminate me. As this scenario unfolded exactly as I saw it, I continued to shuffle the cards. At the end of the hand, all of my chips went to the player named "nickel13". I knew that if I looked down I would see not only the 13 card, but for some reason I knew that the cards would be in order again. It was and they were. Please take a moment to consider the odds of shuffling 22 cards in perfect order. The number is too big to write on a piece of paper, it makes winning the lottery look commonplace. I felt its meaning immediately - there's a part of you thats a part of this, that is with everything, knows everything. Of course, I was the only witness to this statistical miracle, it would be meaningful only to me. So I ran out of the house. Its been almost two years since this tremendous tap on the shoulder. I've tried to absorb, tried to listen, and tried to love more and more since then. My heart isn't so hard anymore as my perceptions keep shifting, but my mind buzzes with questions. I am at all times confused. I have no trouble obeying that law. I have a real urge to understand why I chose to come here. My dreams indicate I'm from a different place. In a lucid dream I met my people in a library. They were overcome with laughter, trying to hold it in. I knew I was lucid but was disturbed to see I couldn't control them, that they were 'of their own'. This delighted them. They gave me a business card with big indigo letters 'UHO' and said "you are a member of the blue protocol. its time you remembered who you really are". I was too alarmed, so I ran out of the library and woke up. Now I wish I hadn't. Thanks for reading. If you have any thoughts or insight or questions please pass'em along. RE: So I Woke Up - Meerie - 12-10-2010 Hello Jerome! Welcome and thanks for sharing your story. ![]() (12-09-2010, 10:59 PM)Jerome Wrote: I have a real urge to understand why I chose to come here. My dreams indicate I'm from a different place. In a lucid dream I met my people in a library. They were overcome with laughter, trying to hold it in.According to Ra, understanding is not of this density... I think we will never really understand as long as we are behind the veil. The library could be the Akash - it is often reffered to as some kind of library. And concerning the laughter, I guess we will all have a big laugh once we return to the other side of the veil... the creator is renowned for her sense of humour ![]() The blue protocol is interesting. Indigo blue - wisdom? in a dream some time ago, I descended from a staircase and I had been given two blue books... I also interpreted it as having been given wisdom. Enjoy your stay here! btw you got PM ![]() RE: So I Woke Up - Ashim - 12-10-2010 Welcome Jerome, thanks for being here. This process that you have explained is very familiar to me. Please rest assured that all is going to plan even when you get the impression that the 'wheels are falling off'. Staying for longer and longer periods in the heart enables awareness. Too much focus on the mental side only fuels the ego and delays the inevitable motion towards the light. You have done very well and we are very proud of you and all the awakening ones. All is well, adonai RE: So I Woke Up - Eddie - 12-10-2010 Welcome. This board is a place of joy and fellowship. RE: So I Woke Up - Lavazza - 12-10-2010 What a great story you shared, thank you. And welcome to our humble forum of like minded seekers. Welcome Jerome! RE: So I Woke Up - Ali Quadir - 12-10-2010 Wow Jerome, amazing story, I am looking forward to getting to know you. Ask the universe what you wish to know, then let the search go for a bit. Allow the all to synchronize you with the answer. It seems you've got a strength there. RE: So I Woke Up - Jerome - 12-10-2010 Hi Eddie, Thanks for the welcome, this is such a warm place. I'm grateful to have found it. I look forward to getting to know everyone. -jer RE: So I Woke Up - Aaron - 12-10-2010 Hi, Jer! Welcome! That's an insane amount of synchronicity... haha! RE: So I Woke Up - Brittany - 12-11-2010 Wow, what an amazing story! What did the library look like? I've been to a "galactic library" in my dreams before. Wondering if perhaps we hit the same place. ![]() I've experienced synchronicity, but nothing to that degree. It must have been quite an experience! My present path of seeking came out of nowhere and bonked me on the head, too. Gotta love it when the universe decides "it's time." I find it funny that you seem to "run out of" places a lot. I get this image in my head of someone running around with their hands over their head going "AAAHHHHH!" Not that I haven't done that a few times myself. :-) Welcome to the family! Please, speak your mind and know that you are loved! |