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Aimlessly Wandering - DR34M4CH1NE - 04-16-2011
Hmmm, where to start, the beginning is as good a place as any I suppose.
My name is Michael, my mother say's that she had no intention of naming me the same as my father, but when I was born, apparently I looked like a Michael, so that is my name.
Michael is a Hebrew name, meaning who is like God.
I was born on the 5th of March 1982 at 10:10pm, astrologically that makes me Pisces, the Moon was at home in Cancer, and Libra was rising.
Numerologically, I am a Life path number 1.
All my life I felt that I was different, never really understood why, or how. In school I never really fit in, I was too intelligent to be a part of the popular crowd and was occasionally bullied for my smarts, so I became good at hiding them.
I had many friends in the geeky crowd, but if i'm honest, was never really close to any of them and still didn't really feel that was my place.
I started off well in school, was reading years ahead of the average child and learnt very quickly but soon became bored and disruptive, at the end of school life I didn't do well in my exams and ever since struggled to find direction in my life.
At 23, events transpired in a relationship that has lead me to where I am now. Without going into detail, persons close to me abused my trust in the worst ways possible and I have subsequently withdrawn from society, unable to cope with the self centred attitudes of the masses of people I encounter in life.
I was, and still am to a great extent, a very happy, caring and giving individual. I have always found that animals and children seem to take to me instantly without my having to interact with them in any way, like they instinctively know something about myself that I have been ignorant to.
I am a big fan of David Wilcocks work, which is what lead me to the Law of One. What is said about the so called wanderers really struck a chord deep within my being. Anyone familiar with Delores Canon knows that being the age I am places me in the second wave of Wanderers, if indeed that is what I am, our purpose is nothing more than to be, to anchor the higher vibrations and share the love with all we encounter.
That may go some way to explaining why I do not have the drive to succeed in the generally accepted consensus of what success is.
I do what I need to do in order to survive in this society to which I was born but become increasingly disillusioned with. The rest of the time I follow my intuition and read about things that interest me, which lately has been spiritualism.
I feel as if I am waiting for something, I'm not sure what it is, but intuitively I am excited by it. For quite a long time I have been looking forward to turning 30, don't know why but I felt this way before I ever got onto anything to do with 2012. Strange coincidence then that 2012 happens to be the year that I turn 30!?
Like a Butterfly emerging from its cocoon, my eyes see the world but the wings of my consciousness are yet to unfurl and reveal its outstanding beauty.
Am I a Wanderer? you decide, all I know is i'm not like most other people!
Keep the Peace, Spread the Love, Be the Light
As is always the case I missed some information!
I suffer with allergies, hayfever to be exact and so badly when I was younger I was given steroid injections to calm my symptoms. I don't have any friends, though I get on with everybody, I feel no need to form tight emotional bonds with my peers and I'm quite content in my own company. I'm the kind of person that will do anything for anyone within reason, and this has seen my good nature be abused, another reason I distance myself from people.
I don't like the way the world is run, and everybody seems to be out for what they can get for themselves, in my head I am screaming at them, the sheeple, all of them blindly following the herd, not questioning anything about their existence, DON'T YOU SEE THAT THERE IS ANOTHER WAY, IF YOU ONLY TOOK THE TIME TO STOP AND THINK, WHAT A WORLD IT WOULD BE IF PEOPLE PUT THE TIME AND ENERGY THEY CURRENTLY PUT INTO FURTHERING THEIR OWN LIVES WITH ALL THE MATERIAL POSSESSIONS THE MASS MEDIA MAKES THEM CRAVE, IF THAT ENERGY WAS PUT INTO BEING OF SERVICE TO OTHERS, WHAT A WORLD THIS WOULD BE!!!
as Ra states, to serve others is to serve yourself, We ARE all one!
I, for one, cannot wait until humanity realises it.
RE: Aimlessly Wandering - Ankh - 04-16-2011
Welcome to the forum, Michael. It is indeed a wonderful feeling of waiting for something. I knew that something would happen to me when I turned 33, which is kind of amazing as I've been looking for this something for 19 years. Imagine to still have hope after such a long and tiredsome time. I turned 33 in September and in October I found that something, that is my home - Law of One. So you hold on to that hope of yours and have faith! And it will all come to you. Oh, and don't forget to share with us.
Love and light!
RE: Aimlessly Wandering - kycahi - 04-17-2011
Welcome to your new crowd, DR34Mer! Your story is both unique and a variation of a theme. You will have fun roaming around in the material here and on llresearch.org. Feel free to vent or ask.
RE: Aimlessly Wandering - Ocean - 04-17-2011
i look forward to turning 30! i always felt i would die around that time, but now i realize it's prolly the changing times. it seems a lot of us feel that way.
RE: Aimlessly Wandering - LetGo - 04-18-2011
nice post and welcome!
what is it about the 2nd wanderer wave? is there a book by Delores Canon talking about wanderers?
i understand how you feel about the world.
remember that also to serve the self is to serve all.
the problem is the Egoic Mind and the false sense of self...
RE: Aimlessly Wandering - Zeva_Rediekiel - 04-18-2011
@LetGo Dolores Cannon kind of skims over it in one of the Convoluted Universe books, but talks about it more in videos and interviews. I heard her on Coast to Coast AM where the entire topic was the influx of ET/higher dimensional souls.
@DR34M4CH1NE I could have written your post myself (except for the allergies). Born in the same year (I'm a few months younger), same feeling of waiting for something huge and life changing, similar catalyst of difficult and painful relationships, also brought to the Law of One through the same means. It does sound like an archetypal Wanderer experience, but no one else can say for you.
When we look into the illusion, it vanishes. The masses of people are made up of individuals who all glitter with that same light. It just depends on which facet you see
It's all the One. It's all You, even if they're confused and backwards and seemingly insane. We're all in various stages of the dream, otherwise we'd remember that we never left the Divine to begin with. Getting there is inevitable, right? We're within the event horizon of the Divine already. Much love and light to you, Michael!
RE: Aimlessly Wandering - Focus123 - 04-18-2011
Hi Michael thanks for sharing your story.We have many of parallels in our journey, though I am 51. You are not alone. Keep your chin up, the reward in the end is great.
L/L
Michael
RE: Aimlessly Wandering - Brittany - 04-20-2011
Michael is quite a special name to me. It is a very good name to have.
I, too, get extremely frustrated with the way the world is run at times. It makes me want to scream at the top of my lungs. However, little moments of love always creep out before I can completely lose faith. There is so much beauty in the world...most of us have just been programmed to ignore it.
A lot of times I visualize the world with a big glowing heart in the center of it. I say to the universe, "This is how I CHOOSE to see this planet. It is a planet of love." It helps when things seem to just be going to crap.
RE: Aimlessly Wandering - Confused - 04-20-2011
(04-18-2011, 12:55 PM)Zeva_Rediekiel Wrote: When we look into the illusion, it vanishes.
That is a very good one.