Kundalini

[Aloneness]

Well, I think I might have experienced a spontaneous awakening. I've had some very intense moments where I could literally (like, my skin just dissolved) feel such a deep connection to all and all. The first time it was quite overwhelming because I was just doing stuff and it happened, it left me completely mind boggled but it was such a magnificent feeling. This was before any noticable physical sensations like hot/cold flashes etc. etc. and the enormous rush/flow of energy which can be a bit unnerving sometimes because it's so intense. It's like a giant circle of light coming in from the top of head, rushing down into the earth and then it circles back up again. At least thats how I see it. My focus tends to scatter all over the place but when I tap into that energy it's creates a blissful feeling. My body seems to be able to manage or balance these changes most of the time.(read: when I don't resist it too much and just relax into it. Which, by the way, is quite a challenge for me.)
Sometimes I try to resist it because it feels like it doesn't belong to me or something.

I've felt exhausted for such a long time, so, when this stuff arises it may go a little something like this, sometimes; "Hey energy, yeah all of you! you don't belong here! Go-away-energy! Bad energy! Go! Wait, what's happening over there, yeah, on my body, that's not mine!"
It never really extends to a dialogue but it's nice to have a bit of fun with all the happenings.