[split] "The dark attacks from the shadow ..."

[The_Tired_Philosopher]

Min...I don't blame the Ra Material for my Hell, I however do hold it responsible for giving me the keys to those doors.  However, now that I'm no longer in that Frame of Mind...  I am...I feel...That its worth saying, Hell and suffering dulls with continued existence away from such.  I truly was as you kind of implied, torturing, murdering, and raping myself in my own version of Hell.

And you do not believe in any way that you used Ra and their material as tools to find these keys while being led by your own self?

I do believe within my heart that those of Ra do their upmost in their teach/learning experience to teach in a positive manner trying to respect free will. But I would not dare to say I do not get your point because I have found within my heart deep rooted hatred for them that seemed to have been caused by the ripples of their actions on others. Their light has cast darkness in the course of time. But just as I found this hatred, I found equivalent if not stronger love for them and their honnest and pure intents.

But anyways, you'll see such odd instances of Ra shying away from their own advice in spots and places.

Yeah, for instance they teach that there are no mistakes but do not seem to balance not perceiving mistakes of their own.

There is no doubt Ra is positive and caring in my mind...but I doubt the purity of their intent as it begins faltering as thev contact goes on.  This might just be due to the poor...quality of purity from Don in his questioning but I feel like they clearly are not 100% pure in this material.  

Not to say it isn't high up there in percentile, and I wouldn't ask them to change that.  I just ponder critically of them much more so now.  I might be harsh.  But as Ra said, One is Enough.

More than One has died for and from this.  One is enough.

I can hold both parties, self and other, responsible here

The Isolation was paradise, for the first year.  Then it was...lonely.

I got interrupted while typing that portion of my post...  I should mention, in aiding both I also dis-aid both sides in trying to perform balanced Singular harmony.for both.

Earth will be positive, that's just the actuality of its future.  The only way to stop that now would involve heavy infringement on the Free Will of HHumanity.  Listen to me...so certain of it when.I don't even know.

I am.very faithful in Collective Humanities capabilities.  I love my species, they love me too.  Its not all sunshine but...The Choice was made collectively.  I'm of the opinion as many others I used to disagree with are.  4D will move quickly probably, we'e enough catalyst in lessons from our very violent past to know Love is the Choice.

Its in 5D I expect this overbalance of Love to turn deadly in a self destructive manner (assuming we're veiled 4D-5D on Earth).  Otherwise, I think we'll transition quickly enough, those who remain on Earth, the loss of the many 3D's in the collective, having moved to another planet
Might damper the efficiency of Wisdom Teach/Learning.

But that might be by design and on purpose to assure Proper learning.

I'm just holding out that Polarity will be discarded as to say...accepted then shed away, and without any roots pushing for that, could get.

Intense in paradigm essence?  This is for the future essentially.  A different way besides the old ways of war and separation.

What am I escaping from by flinging myself into.a supposed Pit of Indifference to Teach Oneness?

The Pit of Indifference is in my mind, better known as the Pit of Indifference/Love.  There is no wrong, this pit just as much aids polarization as its lip and outskirts does.  I choose to be 'in it'.  We all have.  Its here we learn/teach, while outside of it we seek which is a different learn/teaching experience.

Honestly though the pithole does not exist to me.  Indifference is Love and viceversa.  If this Material causes the doom and gloom of entering that pit, you probably should see past the pit.  Who puts an indifferent pit here anyways?  I opt out, there is no pit.  Only the illusion of one.

Its like being scared of pot holes in the road.  You try to avoid them typically, but you still need to keep going.  If it gives you a flat, catalyst.  The pit is a teacher, its not a trap.  But it can easily become one once you fear its presence.