Unresolved Self

[ada]

You do not understand.
I accept everything for what is, existence's all the same no matter how different.
You need to try and gap the severity of this. I am not suffering, I am not afraid nor I am able to do anything beyond to my ability about this.
There is another mind/spirit/thought/being with its own awareness. That is what I mean by "negativity".

Do you mean that there may be an other entity/consciousness in you ?

Not precisely, I am in my own control/thought.
There's something else in what I can describe a parallel window/reality that collides with my own whenever I meditate.

do you ever think about him/her when not meditation?

Barely at all.
The thought/idea of it's Existence is a mind of it's own. It's there, I just can't sense that.

Papercut, this I (and Carla) found to be a very effective response against any negative contact attempts:

Bathe the source of the contact in love.

It has been my direct experience that negative emotions open us up to unpleasant contact, whereas maintaining a loving and kind disposition throughout the day is the most effective protection.  

I have never had a negative contact persist after I responded by creating in me a mental/emotional state as if giving him/her a warm and loving hug.

Thank you both for this response I found a lot of love in your words.
I'm really starting to feel positive about this, as no harm comes as I meditate and listen carefully to its Existence when it desires to.