Who is it that seeks me?

[Shin'Ar]

I am following my path and have been led here with the understanding that I am to assist someone in some way. Often just the interaction of our fields is enough to meet the need. Many times something is shared beneficial for each. And more often what is gained is never interacted further on.

So with regard to Azrael. Your interest is in the shadow and you are attracted to the darkness and finding the light within it.

You are also attracted to the name which I use. Shin is the ancient symbol for fire, more specifically the Sacred Fire. Shin'Ar is an ancient way of saying Lord of the Fire. This Sacred Fire is the Mystery that dances within the form of every creation. It is the building block of existence, and more recently physicists are becoming aware of it and investigating an aspect of it that they are calling dark matter.

I am not studied enough in the details to know exact teachings or to be exactly articulate in the explanation of it, but I do know that it is the material in which everything resides, or so they would assume. Wilcock's teaching is also referring to it as he speaks of these discoveries surrounding the grid lines matching the characteristics of bacterial formation. You speak of it as the true light in the shadows.

The strange energy connecting us which you feel (which just shot through me like a blast by the way), is Sacred to me. When our fields of consciousness connect together in this way the Great Eye, the Mandorle, is created and it is there where our experience is shared and information transferred.

I do not know why we have come together in this way, but I have learned over the years to follow my intuition and it has been beneficial to me in extreme ways. When I connect I write from the hip in hopes of relating my inner self and not my physical thinking.

The Mandorle is the shadow between the worlds. It is the gateway between the experiences. It is sacred because it is the one and only passage via which growth and evolution can continue on. It is the balancing point, not between perfect right and perfect left, or perfect light and perfect dark, but between interaction.

Can you understand that Azrael? That is what I feel you need to understand.

There is no light or dark, there is only interaction between the two; opposing forces and opposite ends of the poles. and somewhere along the seesaw of existence is that point where the two begin to blend together. The blending point is not one perfect point on the board; it is instead a section where existence becomes neither dark or light. neither evil or good.

Can there be a perfect point of balance? No! the only way that such a thing could happen would be for existence to end; to stop moving, to stop being. When the seesaw becomes balanced in such a way that both sides are of equal weight, it stops moving. And without movement there is no force, no energy and no growth. But that movement can always be toward either direction.

Our struggle Azrael, is to lean toward that which is light and that which is good. Not to try to reach the extreme far reaches of that, but to create a wavelength of existence that directs us in the positive direction so that the motion is forward into growth instead of backward into its opposite.

It is akin to swimming against the tide or with it. swimming with it when it is incoming will take you to the beach where you can find freedom from the inability to walk on Terra Firma, or being taken further out into the darkness of the depths where you cannot walk according to your design.

This our natural state of being. Not to become an Astral Being without ever swimming with the tide, but to become our higher being by going through the process of chewing the leaf as the caterpillar before we become the butterfly. To win the game by scoring the goal without having actually played the game leaves behind the experience of the game itself.

The experience is why we are here, and that includes touching both dark and light, matter and spirit, and understanding the difference between the two so that we learn in which direction we should strive to reach the beach.

The Circle has no Origin, it is infinite, and on its great circumference is all of the aspects of existence. But to attempt to cross it via its diameter is not experiencing the All, and if that path was followed by the Source, the One, than the Circle would not be the perfect circle, it would be more of a semicircle with a straight side, and imperfect missing half of its reality.

When I close my eyes Azrael I do not see total darkness. I see Shin. Magical hues of creation of greens, blues and violets, with the specter of a bright white light that remains just out of focus but always begging to be trapped. I do not know if everyone sees this and I am aware that there are some groups dedicated to discussing this phenomena, but I am interested only in experiencing it, not trying to scientifically expose it. The only reason I bring it up is because I feel that you know exactly what I am speaking of and I think it can help you to understand the light in the shadow.

There is no darkness or light, only the blend of the two.

From the instant that the Great Serpent spiraled out from the Origin, Shin began to burn, and what was became what is. a time that is not a time; a place that is not a place. For the Goddess to move there had to be an opposing force. Consciousness pushed against unconsciousness, unconsciousness pushed back and existence took motion. In that force and energy light became dark, dark became light and nothing became something which was initially nothing; the Circle began to be drawn. As it returns to itself we are caught up in the process as its experience of itself; Fragments of its consciousness adding to the One Consciousness with our own.

Shadows of the One in motion with it.