01-02-2010, 11:22 PM
(01-02-2010, 10:03 PM)Questioner Wrote:(01-02-2010, 09:37 PM)creationist Wrote: I've let myself and others down so many times in my life, even though I am a perfectionist. So everytime that it happens it is almost unbearable for me and causes me no end of stress.
That is interesting. Perhaps the premise is that if you don't personally see to it that everything happens perfectly, it might totally all fall apart. Only your guidance with the driving, the show, the equipment, the plan could make an adequate evening. And then, the people for who you try to make everything perfect abandon you... without even asking what you need. But what could they offer someone with all the perfect plans?
You asked for enlightenment, and got shown a story in which everything relied on you and nobody else considered how to help you. Then you woke up. Hmmm...
I really don't know for sure what the truth is sometimes. I am a perfectionist in a way that I try to analyze as many paths and possibilities as possible, so that I can find the best plan of actions. After doing such calculations, I'm accused of being single/narrow minded and not considering other paths, when I've already done so.
It does get pretty frustrating. Of course I'm completely open to the possibility of me being wrong, but I can safely say that I am open to any and all options and opinions and I consider each carefully. Lately I've learned to avoid arguments by ignoring important factors and efficiencies, and going along with non-optimal choices suggested by others. While I do understand possible catalysts in alternate paths, people are not absorbing catalysts intelligently either.
Oh wow this turned into a rant =) I think I drove myself crazy for a second there! Haha thank you for this time opportunity for me to let off some steam.