02-07-2019, 08:58 AM
I think you are very right Cainite. I just had the experience when I saw from the winndow an homeless man on the street. I first didnt know what to do, since i already experienced rude behaviour towards me while trying to share food. Anyway, I got out, bringing the man some food and some water, even had 5 euros in my pocket. The man reacted in a very offensive way, i then went back inside, but with a sting feeling in my chest. Even a momentary thought of ''Is this his ego that was not willing to accept?'' I called up my mother, who I consider my spiritual guru, and explained her the situation. She said this, and I think we have red it before in the Ra_Material: ''We cannot force help upon those who are not ready, rather not willing to take help.''
I accept what you say, that unity is continuing to love an entity even if they make life impossible ton enjoy for oneself or others.
I would like to share a problem in my life, that is very present.
I Have a girlfriend, we are together for three and a half years by now. I consider that we love each other, she is not so much into metaphysics, spirituality. She is very rational, studies they brain and is psychologist. I have a hrd time to connect with her on the level of spirituality. What i find even harder is to not end up in frustratioin after we have an argument, leading me to say bad things, or hear abd things, to make her feel bad and feel bad myself. An hour after those arguments or a night after usually, i am deeply sorry for allowing my ego to get the worst of me outside...
Now I am desperate: DO I LOVE HER WHEN I LEAVE HER, EVEN THOUIGH WHEN I KNOW IT IS GONNA MAKER HER SUFFER? AND ME, TOO of course...
I seriously have a feeling that this romantic love reltionship is sometimes bringing out shadow sides of me, but on the other hand there is so much care, and tenderness, and love. Just a lack of acceptance, from both parts... I have a heartbeat right now like..crazy. I would love if somebody could give me some advice, or anything. I think I have nbecome somewhat desperate.
My deepest gratitude to all of you. Much love from Gießen, Germany <3
I accept what you say, that unity is continuing to love an entity even if they make life impossible ton enjoy for oneself or others.
I would like to share a problem in my life, that is very present.
I Have a girlfriend, we are together for three and a half years by now. I consider that we love each other, she is not so much into metaphysics, spirituality. She is very rational, studies they brain and is psychologist. I have a hrd time to connect with her on the level of spirituality. What i find even harder is to not end up in frustratioin after we have an argument, leading me to say bad things, or hear abd things, to make her feel bad and feel bad myself. An hour after those arguments or a night after usually, i am deeply sorry for allowing my ego to get the worst of me outside...
Now I am desperate: DO I LOVE HER WHEN I LEAVE HER, EVEN THOUIGH WHEN I KNOW IT IS GONNA MAKER HER SUFFER? AND ME, TOO of course...
I seriously have a feeling that this romantic love reltionship is sometimes bringing out shadow sides of me, but on the other hand there is so much care, and tenderness, and love. Just a lack of acceptance, from both parts... I have a heartbeat right now like..crazy. I would love if somebody could give me some advice, or anything. I think I have nbecome somewhat desperate.
My deepest gratitude to all of you. Much love from Gießen, Germany <3