11-30-2009, 07:40 PM
Hello, Jordan!
First, I would like to assure you that, in my mind at least, you are not crazy, a freak, a psycho or any of those other derogatory phrases society has come up with to express the idea of “difference”. I honestly don’t think *anyone* here is going to hold that disposition, so don‘t be afraid to say what‘s on your mind.
Waking up can be scary. I know that sounds cheesy, but it’s a very simply truth. A lot of people that get into this kind of stuff seem to think that it’s all fluff and light and joy and once you achieve enlightenment you can just float off on a cloud and never have emotional discomfort again. This is not true. It is the challenges and the pain that provoke the growth that leads you to realize that there is joy *in* pain, hope *in* sadness, and opportunity in every moment.
For years I went through a virtual hell. Like you all of my senses went on the extreme, though I’ve been exceptionally sensitive since birth. I can’t even listen to a lot of the music I used to like because the pitch has become intolerable. I was in and out of mental hospitals because I didn’t know how to deal with all the new emotions I was feeling and I pretty much had a nervous breakdown. I was being bombarded from every direction. I became aware of the invisible entities all around us, and not all of them were friendly. A few of them caused me a great deal of fear and grief. It took me years to get a grip on myself, gather my thoughts and open myself to the change enough for my soul to guide me to the information I needed.
Do not be ashamed if you fear what is happening to you, if it makes you depressed or angry or freaked out. It is dealing with these emotions that gives you strength. There is nothing wrong with feeling any certain emotion…emotions are the tools we are given in this incarnation to be able to function and interact. It is only when you let any certain emotion overpower and control you that you get stuck.
What you have described is being experienced by thousands of people all across the world, and I have to say it is very heartening to see other young people taking up this flag. You are not an anomaly that needs to be avoided, you are the future. You are what souls are striving to become. In my experience at least, the more I learn the more amazing things get. There is no end to the knowledge, to the journey. I can feel my thoughts expanding farther every day. Just relax and let that connection whisper to you. It will get you where you need to go.
Welcome to the site and bunches of love coming in your direction!
-Lynn
First, I would like to assure you that, in my mind at least, you are not crazy, a freak, a psycho or any of those other derogatory phrases society has come up with to express the idea of “difference”. I honestly don’t think *anyone* here is going to hold that disposition, so don‘t be afraid to say what‘s on your mind.
Waking up can be scary. I know that sounds cheesy, but it’s a very simply truth. A lot of people that get into this kind of stuff seem to think that it’s all fluff and light and joy and once you achieve enlightenment you can just float off on a cloud and never have emotional discomfort again. This is not true. It is the challenges and the pain that provoke the growth that leads you to realize that there is joy *in* pain, hope *in* sadness, and opportunity in every moment.
For years I went through a virtual hell. Like you all of my senses went on the extreme, though I’ve been exceptionally sensitive since birth. I can’t even listen to a lot of the music I used to like because the pitch has become intolerable. I was in and out of mental hospitals because I didn’t know how to deal with all the new emotions I was feeling and I pretty much had a nervous breakdown. I was being bombarded from every direction. I became aware of the invisible entities all around us, and not all of them were friendly. A few of them caused me a great deal of fear and grief. It took me years to get a grip on myself, gather my thoughts and open myself to the change enough for my soul to guide me to the information I needed.
Do not be ashamed if you fear what is happening to you, if it makes you depressed or angry or freaked out. It is dealing with these emotions that gives you strength. There is nothing wrong with feeling any certain emotion…emotions are the tools we are given in this incarnation to be able to function and interact. It is only when you let any certain emotion overpower and control you that you get stuck.
What you have described is being experienced by thousands of people all across the world, and I have to say it is very heartening to see other young people taking up this flag. You are not an anomaly that needs to be avoided, you are the future. You are what souls are striving to become. In my experience at least, the more I learn the more amazing things get. There is no end to the knowledge, to the journey. I can feel my thoughts expanding farther every day. Just relax and let that connection whisper to you. It will get you where you need to go.
Welcome to the site and bunches of love coming in your direction!
-Lynn