05-02-2013, 03:27 PM
(This post was last modified: 05-02-2013, 03:30 PM by AnthroHeart.)
(02-03-2013, 01:21 PM)kainous Wrote: It is rough because this place is not for us, and it NEVER was for us. It is meant only for us to teach to those that ask, who don't wish to listen, which is frustrating, especially when all of their pain and suffering becomes our own as well.
Thank you for bringing that up. I never thought about Earth not being the place for us. But as a wanderer I feel this is true.
(02-03-2013, 01:21 PM)kainous Wrote: This is the harshest experience of the densities. In this harshness, the catalysts are more intense and more powerful, and they can feel overwhelming. Many times the catalysts can't even be named here.
You're right there. I've been in tears over my catalyst. I wonder if in higher densities if we'll cry through sadness.
(05-02-2013, 12:19 PM)3nT Wrote: I've ponder suicide since my early teens, but all ways knew that it was not the way. Some how I always knew that been in this illusion, been here and now, it's a privilege. It takes perpetual diligence to feel, under-stand, and live in the moment. That regardless of how dark the skies are, the sun is always shining and those clouds will disperse...eventually.
When I catch my self enjoying the moment, I think " and if I had committed that selfish act I would not be having this moment.. " and when I find my self in a difficult situation I thank the creator for the opportunity to learn, my higher self for trusting me with the task, and laugh at my self and give my self a pat in the back for making it this far...34 on this lifetime!
a diamond is form under very intense pressure....
Spiritual catalyst made my mind go insane once to the point where I said that I had to kill myself, thinking I was headed toward a spiritual hell. I've attempted suicide once in the past as well. It was all from mistakes I thought I had made. But Ra says there are no mistakes. There are only lessons. You're right about the diamond made under intense pressure, but sometimes I wish the pressure wasn't so intense.