02-21-2018, 09:41 PM
'cause I've played myself to a situation where I can't see a way out! I'm so full of frustration, everything seems mildly interesting at best, I'm in mental pain all the time and it's slowly making my body ill too and things just don't motivate me anymore! I'm at least 90% sure that even heroin would not dull this pain since the last time I took LSD I felt intense euphoria and it just felt like blehhh! What's the deal with this, is this the Dark Night or just regular depression, nihilism, heartbreak? All at once! My heart yearns for love and that's all I want, won't the Creator take me back to Him if just for a while?