06-25-2018, 02:55 PM
Quote:It has come in waves. It feels as if layer by layer more is uncovered. I feel like I'm becoming my true self (versus me becoming someone new). Sometimes that layer involves physical healing - such as the neck pain that I used to get - other times it involves more emotional healing from past experiences. I also gain greater general understanding in layers. I now feel very connected to my higher self as well.
What do you mean by dark times? Is this based on your own experience?
I do eat healthier.. although I will say that I've always been a healthy eater. I find that foods don't taste as they used to though. For example, some foods are too sweet or salty. I was a pesco vegetarian prior to this and continue this diet. I honestly eat mostly vegan.. not necessarily intentionally but find I feel best when I eat lots of fresh veggies and avoid processed food. I eat a lot of salads, stir fry, nuts, fruits. More strikingly in my diet; however, is that I have almost completely given up alcohol. I just find I am happier without it. No judgements of others who enjoy it of course! It's interesting because after a "wave" I find myself eating more food and craving food in its more natural form.
I just want to say also that my intention for sharing my story was by no mean to brag! (I just re-read my original post) I am grateful every day for my experience, and I am devoting my life to help others find a path towards healing - body and spirit.
Ree
Your post and thread resonate so much.
I struggled with alcohol abuse for years and am now more than 3 weeks sober - nothing crazy for most, but for me its a lot. I have also had deeply insightful experiences in the last few weeks about my identity - or true self, as you said. For the first time, I find myself considering my actions and words rather than impulsively acting. Many of these changes I attribute to the following quote from Session 15:
Quote:15.12 Questioner: How does an individual go about balancing himself? What is the first step?
Ra: I am Ra. The steps are only one; that is, an understanding of the energy centers which make up the mind/body/spirit complex. This understanding may be briefly summarized as follows. The first balancing is of the Malkuth, or Earth, vibratory energy complex, called the red-ray complex. An understanding and acceptance of this energy is fundamental. The next energy complex, which may be blocked is the emotional, or personal complex, also known as the orange-ray complex. This blockage will often demonstrate itself as personal eccentricities or distortions with regard to self-conscious understanding or acceptance of self.
The third blockage resembles most closely that which you have called ego. It is the yellow-ray or solar plexus center. Blockages in this center will often manifest as distortions towards power manipulation and other social behaviors concerning those close and those associated with the mind/body/spirit complex.
Thank you for reading