07-16-2018, 04:26 PM
I haven't posted my wanderer story yet because I am not proud of how I got onto this path.
My parents' first date was to see the movie poltergeist. This story of theirs stuck with me for some reason, and one day in middle school my English teacher asked us to write a research/persuasive paper about a subject we know little about. I ultimately chose to write mine about poltergeists. (This story of my parents' being the first thing to pop into my head) I wondered why there was a word to describe a type of ghost when ghosts didn't exist. (I learned early in research that it's a loan word from german that translates to "noisy ghost").
For the paper I had to research the subject and later use these findings in my persuasion. I chose to persuade against us needing to use this loan word because ghosts aren't real. I set out to collect research showing that these phenomenons were all shams or misunderstandings. The only information I could find about these kinds of events recorded in reputable sources that were approved for my assignment had no clear scientific reasoning for anything 'paranormal' that took place. This got me frustrated because I was failing to write this paper and being persuasive at all, so I set out to attack this at a different angle: to prove that the basis for poltergeists is unscientific.
As I tried finding research about 'psionic' feats, which poltergeists are attributed to by most paranormal investigators in the research, I only found papers showing these events as plausible.
For context, this was a middle school I moved to in 7th grade, and it was 1/10th the size of my previous one. By the time I arrived the students there had already created groups of friends. I tried to be like my best friend from where I moved from, because I thought he was really cool, and... let's just say I failed miserably. Since that day I attracted the attention of the group of bullies in that middle school, who made it their mission to sexually harass me every school day in every class I shared with them. I tried going through the proper channels to stop or prevent these things from happening, but the administration instead warned me not to do anything about it or they will call the cops and have me taken into juvenile custody, despite me being the victim. I was and still am not an aggressive person by any means. Most teachers at this school turned a blind eye to the rough housing and sexual abuse I suffered. My music teacher would simply walk out of the room until the bullies were done. Why this happened in this way I am not sure of, but I certainly felt like I didn't deserve it.
So with my life seemingly ruined (at the time) and with zero friends at my new home, I decided to try and learn the psionic feats that these papers attributed to poltergeist phenomenon. I was immature, emotionally broken, and I attracted all kinds of negative energy because of this. I experienced many paranormal events due to the practice and my unhealthy mental state, until I eventually manifested a mental disorder: Bipolar Manic Type II.
This mental disability rocked my view of the world and of myself. I struggled with it for 5 years until accepting it as a part of myself, and ultimately a result of my self-harmful actions and immaturity. In my young adult years I bounced in and out of jobs due to it, and ultimately was taken in by my mother and my stepfather to get me back on my feet. I started going to college and am finishing this fall if all goes well.
The paranormal events I experienced really shocked me at a fundamental level. Even with my mental disability they cannot be easily explained by science. Many of them have multiple witnesses, and all witnesses experienced the same event. If anything it showed me the world is not what it seems.
Despite the negative events that transpired in my young teens, I also always had a sense of duty to hold compassion and do the right thing even when nobody is watching. To help others even with nothing to gain. Selflessness isn't really accepted by a lot of the people I've interacted with, so many assumed I was hitting on them or being weird. Even still I make it a point to try and do the right thing even if it's seemingly all for nothing.
The 'paranormal' events that transpired really left a mark on my view of the world, and it wasn't something I could openly talk about or share. All of these experiences were labeled as a symptom of my mental disorder, even when they weren't. I couldn't safely talk about it with friends or family without raising red flags while I really wanted answers. So I did research on my own, and came across a radio talk show with a guest speaker I had never heard of that mentioned the Law of One.
The Law of One resonated with me greatly and has given solid explanations for some of the suspicions I had about the true nature of reality. And that is what led me here today.
My parents' first date was to see the movie poltergeist. This story of theirs stuck with me for some reason, and one day in middle school my English teacher asked us to write a research/persuasive paper about a subject we know little about. I ultimately chose to write mine about poltergeists. (This story of my parents' being the first thing to pop into my head) I wondered why there was a word to describe a type of ghost when ghosts didn't exist. (I learned early in research that it's a loan word from german that translates to "noisy ghost").
For the paper I had to research the subject and later use these findings in my persuasion. I chose to persuade against us needing to use this loan word because ghosts aren't real. I set out to collect research showing that these phenomenons were all shams or misunderstandings. The only information I could find about these kinds of events recorded in reputable sources that were approved for my assignment had no clear scientific reasoning for anything 'paranormal' that took place. This got me frustrated because I was failing to write this paper and being persuasive at all, so I set out to attack this at a different angle: to prove that the basis for poltergeists is unscientific.
As I tried finding research about 'psionic' feats, which poltergeists are attributed to by most paranormal investigators in the research, I only found papers showing these events as plausible.
For context, this was a middle school I moved to in 7th grade, and it was 1/10th the size of my previous one. By the time I arrived the students there had already created groups of friends. I tried to be like my best friend from where I moved from, because I thought he was really cool, and... let's just say I failed miserably. Since that day I attracted the attention of the group of bullies in that middle school, who made it their mission to sexually harass me every school day in every class I shared with them. I tried going through the proper channels to stop or prevent these things from happening, but the administration instead warned me not to do anything about it or they will call the cops and have me taken into juvenile custody, despite me being the victim. I was and still am not an aggressive person by any means. Most teachers at this school turned a blind eye to the rough housing and sexual abuse I suffered. My music teacher would simply walk out of the room until the bullies were done. Why this happened in this way I am not sure of, but I certainly felt like I didn't deserve it.
So with my life seemingly ruined (at the time) and with zero friends at my new home, I decided to try and learn the psionic feats that these papers attributed to poltergeist phenomenon. I was immature, emotionally broken, and I attracted all kinds of negative energy because of this. I experienced many paranormal events due to the practice and my unhealthy mental state, until I eventually manifested a mental disorder: Bipolar Manic Type II.
This mental disability rocked my view of the world and of myself. I struggled with it for 5 years until accepting it as a part of myself, and ultimately a result of my self-harmful actions and immaturity. In my young adult years I bounced in and out of jobs due to it, and ultimately was taken in by my mother and my stepfather to get me back on my feet. I started going to college and am finishing this fall if all goes well.
The paranormal events I experienced really shocked me at a fundamental level. Even with my mental disability they cannot be easily explained by science. Many of them have multiple witnesses, and all witnesses experienced the same event. If anything it showed me the world is not what it seems.
Despite the negative events that transpired in my young teens, I also always had a sense of duty to hold compassion and do the right thing even when nobody is watching. To help others even with nothing to gain. Selflessness isn't really accepted by a lot of the people I've interacted with, so many assumed I was hitting on them or being weird. Even still I make it a point to try and do the right thing even if it's seemingly all for nothing.
The 'paranormal' events that transpired really left a mark on my view of the world, and it wasn't something I could openly talk about or share. All of these experiences were labeled as a symptom of my mental disorder, even when they weren't. I couldn't safely talk about it with friends or family without raising red flags while I really wanted answers. So I did research on my own, and came across a radio talk show with a guest speaker I had never heard of that mentioned the Law of One.
The Law of One resonated with me greatly and has given solid explanations for some of the suspicions I had about the true nature of reality. And that is what led me here today.