I tortured myself for years. kinda ruined some of the best years of my life by thinking I'm black (energetically) and beyond redemption.
And when I came here first, I was delusional too.. the main cause of it was not being able to accept myself and having no hope for redemption
But now I think I'm white/golden (energetically). it may take some time.. but if u seek to forgive/accept the self, u will.
Let me tell you, even those that are more enlightened still carry some ego and a lot of scars. and what enlightened them was acceptance of this part of self that's dark.
for example, that desire for showing off still sometimes surfaces, it's about condemning/denying it or accepting it and letting it go..
If you choose to forgive humanity's darkside you're one step ahead of those that think that they don't include this dark side..
So what I say is, to use your dark past as an advantage.
What matters is that now you're realizing things. and slowly it will be fixed, plz don't give up.
Forgive yourself. and if you can, ask those that you've hurt for forgiveness..
And when I came here first, I was delusional too.. the main cause of it was not being able to accept myself and having no hope for redemption
But now I think I'm white/golden (energetically). it may take some time.. but if u seek to forgive/accept the self, u will.
Let me tell you, even those that are more enlightened still carry some ego and a lot of scars. and what enlightened them was acceptance of this part of self that's dark.
for example, that desire for showing off still sometimes surfaces, it's about condemning/denying it or accepting it and letting it go..
If you choose to forgive humanity's darkside you're one step ahead of those that think that they don't include this dark side..
So what I say is, to use your dark past as an advantage.
What matters is that now you're realizing things. and slowly it will be fixed, plz don't give up.
Forgive yourself. and if you can, ask those that you've hurt for forgiveness..