03-06-2020, 01:03 PM
I used to post here under the alias 777 a few years ago. I was in a very bad place, and I found it impossible to forgive many people from my past at the time. I left to try to polarize negatively through black magick, financial gain, and sexual energy transfer. I was convinced that the universe was trying to force me onto the negative path through trauma, and that I couldn't stay mentally stable by trying to love people, situations, and a world I felt so horribly about. I'm not ready to write out my story again right now, but I might some other time.
I made some progress and found some of the stability I was looking for, but the more I learn, the more meaningless it seems. It's obvious to me now that All is One. We are all mirrors of each other. Going down that path did give me insight, and I have more understanding of the apparent horror and suffering I used to perceive. Ironically, I'm not as angry about it anymore.
I want to try to flip polarity and polarize positively again. I'm scared to let down the armor and do so. I don't know what will happen to me, but I want to give it a shot. If you're wary of me, it's understandable. I can't guarantee I'll stick around, but I'll try.
I made some progress and found some of the stability I was looking for, but the more I learn, the more meaningless it seems. It's obvious to me now that All is One. We are all mirrors of each other. Going down that path did give me insight, and I have more understanding of the apparent horror and suffering I used to perceive. Ironically, I'm not as angry about it anymore.
I want to try to flip polarity and polarize positively again. I'm scared to let down the armor and do so. I don't know what will happen to me, but I want to give it a shot. If you're wary of me, it's understandable. I can't guarantee I'll stick around, but I'll try.