01-27-2022, 11:51 AM
I do not have the sense that I am in "test" mode. It is all practice to me: expansion, application, observation, over and over.
But when I notice repeating catalyst, I question: what in the world am I supposed to learn that I'm not getting? Argh.
In testing - for me - there is an external (internalized) standard that I am trying to achieve for some sort of external/internal approval. I don't experience this sensation much within my spiritual practice.
Do you feel as if you are being tested? If so, what is that experience?
But when I notice repeating catalyst, I question: what in the world am I supposed to learn that I'm not getting? Argh.
In testing - for me - there is an external (internalized) standard that I am trying to achieve for some sort of external/internal approval. I don't experience this sensation much within my spiritual practice.
Do you feel as if you are being tested? If so, what is that experience?