05-09-2016, 11:30 PM
I think you're right and your description of having anxiety attacks due to failure to integrate properly falls right in line with Don's "initiation" experience. If he was able to take a leap of faith and fully embrace Ra's open hearted teachings, things would have been different. But then also we would be asking for Don to be different.
In Book 5 Carla speaks more of Don's downfall, and how his extreme paranoia overtook their lives. He thought everywhere was bugged and that they were constantly in danger. I'm rarely the first to cry "negative greeting", but this seems suspect. When Don and Carla had their "deleterious working", the energy exchange where Don became the weak one, he didn't have the protection of love/faith that sustained Carla. So, aggravating his distortions unto his demise was easier.
In Book 5 Carla speaks more of Don's downfall, and how his extreme paranoia overtook their lives. He thought everywhere was bugged and that they were constantly in danger. I'm rarely the first to cry "negative greeting", but this seems suspect. When Don and Carla had their "deleterious working", the energy exchange where Don became the weak one, he didn't have the protection of love/faith that sustained Carla. So, aggravating his distortions unto his demise was easier.
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