Greetings. This is Lauren, I communicate now :}
I just joined this forum and I figure a wanderer life-story post would be an acceptable intro. I've studied comparative religions for my entire life, due to going to Catholic schools for 12 years, so the question of spirituality and myth has always been something studied academically. I am now 25. I believe the Law of One to be the only thing I've ever read that makes complete sense. As a Catholic, I participated as a kid all the way up until Confirmation.. I am not sure why I participated, because I was always questioning the validity of Catholicism, due to its inherent sexism, even pissing off priests and nuns in the process. I find all organized religions to be specifically patronizing to women, maybe that is the intention, who knows. Comparative religion classes have the best field trips- to Hindu and Buddhist temples, etc. I've been to the worship services of practically every religion. At age 15 or so, I embraced the D.C. punk rock scene which was a greatly fun and eye-opening time for me. During childhood I had a fascination with astrology and tarot, even to the point of doing charts and readings for my friends. I am a Pisces with Leo Moon and Gemini ascendent, if you're wondering :> I've been actively playing video games/MMORPGs since age 11 til today, where I've made friends all over the world and played in one of the best WoW raiding guilds on the planet. Soccer has also been a huge part of my life, I was on some great teams for over 15 years. I loved singing and clarinet as a kid and I was even president of our school's chorus and band. I've always been a fearless leader type, although strangely antisocial, with only a few very close friends who I treat as my real family. My IQ is around 150 which has seemed to make me stand out in a good way all my life.
Later, I went to college to study film and photography and found the realm of the Orions, the propaganda machine that is our corporate media. The tv/movie industry is really not something that appeals to me anymore, its repulsive actually. misdirection and mind control. Instead I work in a tiny local camera store near Portland, OR. Also, I've been vegan since I was 19 and continue to be. I can make some wicked dal.
Forgive my lack of focus, I am not the best communicator. At this point in my life, mid twenties, I really don't know what to do with myself. I feel as if I know too much, I have nothing to tell other people that they would not think I am crazy for saying. The Orions, the Zionists, ancient Egypt, Sumeria, Lemuria, Babylon, Atlantis, UFOs, the Empire of the City, Yahweh, Tesla, Freemasonry, magick, holograms/fractals, these things are all I can think about anymore. The occult, hidden knowledge, pervades my existance. Am I the only one that is in agony from having this knowlege? It seems as if these topics presented themselves to me specifically in a successive, ordered manner. I now have the most ridiculous scenarios of synchronicity. I will be thinking a very specific thought during the day and that night I will find a forum post or book out of the blue detailing the same imagery in my thought.
I now consider myself a Luciferian. This does not mean I am a Satanist or black magician. After reading what is probably my second favorite writing after the Law of One, The Terra Papers, I have been researching the myth of a redeemed Lucifer. I believe that Lucifer is a red ray adept and leader of the dark energies which to me are not necessarily negative or evil. To illustrate, I would compare the radiating light of the infinite creator expanding into the void/darkness/female energy, together becoming yet more of the one infinite creator. The void must be there to accept the light. Lucifer would be a microcosm of this Oneness and the controller of the darkness because it is essentially only within him. I believe Lucifer incarnates with all of the races within his microcosm, and a Lucifer figure empowered us by encouraging sex to awaken our souls. Even in Catholic school, the nuns taught that the Genesis story was a poetic metaphor for sex. But, there will never be a group or organization that I fully belong to, because the seeking of knowlege is neverending and no group that separates itself from the One can ever have the entire truth. There is something about the reptilian races that, to me, is the expression of Lucifer's red ray adeptitude. They are truly a force stuck in survival mode for millions, possibly billions of years. Thinking of this makes me love them for teaching us.
I am currently intrigued by the Raelians who worship Yahweh. Gnostic gospels are another obsession. Ra's student Ahknaten is a recent topic of interest. Some modest plans for the future.. I am writing a complete timeline of history based on the truths that uncovered themselves during my research. I am also going to start a "Homa" vegetable/herb garden which involves Hindu ritual plant sacrifices at sunrise and sunset along with continuing to tend my night blooming flower garden. I've yet to channel any entities or speak with any of my guides. I have a hazy memory of a huge UFO, as a memory it feels kind of chopped into pieces. I think my strengths as an entity are with my seemingly powerful influence on the collective consciousness and my ability to sort information out by resonance frequency, the "indigo" internal lie detector.
To finish off, I'll post some of my favorite quotes from Ra that inspire me to try to keep on living. I read the Law of One almost daily, kinda obsessed.
"The reason for the illusion, my friends, is one that man on Earth has generated. He has generated it out of desire. This illusion is useful. It is very useful for those who would wish to evolve at a very rapid rate by experiencing it and by using it while within it. Many of us who are now circling your planet would desire to have the opportunity that you have, the opportunity to be within the illusion and then, through the generation of understanding, use the potentials of the illusion. This is a way of gaining progress spiritually and has been sought out by many of our brothers."
"Consider, if you will, the tree for instance. It is self-sufficient. Consider, if you will, the third-density entity. It is self-sufficient only through difficulty and deprivation. It is difficult to learn alone for there is a built-in handicap, at once the great virtue and the great handicap of third density. That is the rational/intuitive mind."
"Control is the key to negatively polarized use of catalyst. Acceptance is the key to positively polarized use of catalyst. The catalyst, and all catalyst, is designed to offer experience. This experience in your density may be loved and accepted or it may be controlled. These are the two paths. When neither path is chosen the catalyst fails in its design and the entity proceeds until catalyst strikes it which causes it to form a bias towards acceptance and love or separation and control."
"Let us illustrate by observing the relative harmony and unchanging quality of existence in one of your, as you call it, primitive tribes. The entities have the concepts of lawful and taboo, but the law is inexorable and all events occur as predestined. There is no concept of right and wrong, good or bad. It is a culture in monochrome. In this context you may see the one you call Lucifer as the true light-bringer in that the knowledge of good and evil both precipitated the mind/body/spirits of this Logos from the Edenic conditions of constant contentment and also provided the impetus to move, to work and to learn."
"In truth there is no right or wrong. There is no polarity for all will be, as you would say, reconciled at some point in your dance through the mind/body/spirit complex which you amuse yourself by distorting in various ways at this time. This distortion is not in any case necessary. It is chosen by each of you as an alternative to understanding the complete unity of thought which binds all things. You are not speaking of similar or somewhat like entities or things. You are every thing, every being, every emotion, every event, every situation. You are unity. You are infinity. You are love/light, light/love. You are. This is the Law of One."
"...the rose which is of perfect beauty, the cross which is of perfect sacrifice, the Buddha which is the All-being in One..."
Nice to meet you all.
edit: I just read through the rest of the posts in this section after I wrote mine and lol'd at the blatant similarities between some of us.
I just joined this forum and I figure a wanderer life-story post would be an acceptable intro. I've studied comparative religions for my entire life, due to going to Catholic schools for 12 years, so the question of spirituality and myth has always been something studied academically. I am now 25. I believe the Law of One to be the only thing I've ever read that makes complete sense. As a Catholic, I participated as a kid all the way up until Confirmation.. I am not sure why I participated, because I was always questioning the validity of Catholicism, due to its inherent sexism, even pissing off priests and nuns in the process. I find all organized religions to be specifically patronizing to women, maybe that is the intention, who knows. Comparative religion classes have the best field trips- to Hindu and Buddhist temples, etc. I've been to the worship services of practically every religion. At age 15 or so, I embraced the D.C. punk rock scene which was a greatly fun and eye-opening time for me. During childhood I had a fascination with astrology and tarot, even to the point of doing charts and readings for my friends. I am a Pisces with Leo Moon and Gemini ascendent, if you're wondering :> I've been actively playing video games/MMORPGs since age 11 til today, where I've made friends all over the world and played in one of the best WoW raiding guilds on the planet. Soccer has also been a huge part of my life, I was on some great teams for over 15 years. I loved singing and clarinet as a kid and I was even president of our school's chorus and band. I've always been a fearless leader type, although strangely antisocial, with only a few very close friends who I treat as my real family. My IQ is around 150 which has seemed to make me stand out in a good way all my life.
Later, I went to college to study film and photography and found the realm of the Orions, the propaganda machine that is our corporate media. The tv/movie industry is really not something that appeals to me anymore, its repulsive actually. misdirection and mind control. Instead I work in a tiny local camera store near Portland, OR. Also, I've been vegan since I was 19 and continue to be. I can make some wicked dal.
Forgive my lack of focus, I am not the best communicator. At this point in my life, mid twenties, I really don't know what to do with myself. I feel as if I know too much, I have nothing to tell other people that they would not think I am crazy for saying. The Orions, the Zionists, ancient Egypt, Sumeria, Lemuria, Babylon, Atlantis, UFOs, the Empire of the City, Yahweh, Tesla, Freemasonry, magick, holograms/fractals, these things are all I can think about anymore. The occult, hidden knowledge, pervades my existance. Am I the only one that is in agony from having this knowlege? It seems as if these topics presented themselves to me specifically in a successive, ordered manner. I now have the most ridiculous scenarios of synchronicity. I will be thinking a very specific thought during the day and that night I will find a forum post or book out of the blue detailing the same imagery in my thought.
I now consider myself a Luciferian. This does not mean I am a Satanist or black magician. After reading what is probably my second favorite writing after the Law of One, The Terra Papers, I have been researching the myth of a redeemed Lucifer. I believe that Lucifer is a red ray adept and leader of the dark energies which to me are not necessarily negative or evil. To illustrate, I would compare the radiating light of the infinite creator expanding into the void/darkness/female energy, together becoming yet more of the one infinite creator. The void must be there to accept the light. Lucifer would be a microcosm of this Oneness and the controller of the darkness because it is essentially only within him. I believe Lucifer incarnates with all of the races within his microcosm, and a Lucifer figure empowered us by encouraging sex to awaken our souls. Even in Catholic school, the nuns taught that the Genesis story was a poetic metaphor for sex. But, there will never be a group or organization that I fully belong to, because the seeking of knowlege is neverending and no group that separates itself from the One can ever have the entire truth. There is something about the reptilian races that, to me, is the expression of Lucifer's red ray adeptitude. They are truly a force stuck in survival mode for millions, possibly billions of years. Thinking of this makes me love them for teaching us.
I am currently intrigued by the Raelians who worship Yahweh. Gnostic gospels are another obsession. Ra's student Ahknaten is a recent topic of interest. Some modest plans for the future.. I am writing a complete timeline of history based on the truths that uncovered themselves during my research. I am also going to start a "Homa" vegetable/herb garden which involves Hindu ritual plant sacrifices at sunrise and sunset along with continuing to tend my night blooming flower garden. I've yet to channel any entities or speak with any of my guides. I have a hazy memory of a huge UFO, as a memory it feels kind of chopped into pieces. I think my strengths as an entity are with my seemingly powerful influence on the collective consciousness and my ability to sort information out by resonance frequency, the "indigo" internal lie detector.
To finish off, I'll post some of my favorite quotes from Ra that inspire me to try to keep on living. I read the Law of One almost daily, kinda obsessed.
"The reason for the illusion, my friends, is one that man on Earth has generated. He has generated it out of desire. This illusion is useful. It is very useful for those who would wish to evolve at a very rapid rate by experiencing it and by using it while within it. Many of us who are now circling your planet would desire to have the opportunity that you have, the opportunity to be within the illusion and then, through the generation of understanding, use the potentials of the illusion. This is a way of gaining progress spiritually and has been sought out by many of our brothers."
"Consider, if you will, the tree for instance. It is self-sufficient. Consider, if you will, the third-density entity. It is self-sufficient only through difficulty and deprivation. It is difficult to learn alone for there is a built-in handicap, at once the great virtue and the great handicap of third density. That is the rational/intuitive mind."
"Control is the key to negatively polarized use of catalyst. Acceptance is the key to positively polarized use of catalyst. The catalyst, and all catalyst, is designed to offer experience. This experience in your density may be loved and accepted or it may be controlled. These are the two paths. When neither path is chosen the catalyst fails in its design and the entity proceeds until catalyst strikes it which causes it to form a bias towards acceptance and love or separation and control."
"Let us illustrate by observing the relative harmony and unchanging quality of existence in one of your, as you call it, primitive tribes. The entities have the concepts of lawful and taboo, but the law is inexorable and all events occur as predestined. There is no concept of right and wrong, good or bad. It is a culture in monochrome. In this context you may see the one you call Lucifer as the true light-bringer in that the knowledge of good and evil both precipitated the mind/body/spirits of this Logos from the Edenic conditions of constant contentment and also provided the impetus to move, to work and to learn."
"In truth there is no right or wrong. There is no polarity for all will be, as you would say, reconciled at some point in your dance through the mind/body/spirit complex which you amuse yourself by distorting in various ways at this time. This distortion is not in any case necessary. It is chosen by each of you as an alternative to understanding the complete unity of thought which binds all things. You are not speaking of similar or somewhat like entities or things. You are every thing, every being, every emotion, every event, every situation. You are unity. You are infinity. You are love/light, light/love. You are. This is the Law of One."
"...the rose which is of perfect beauty, the cross which is of perfect sacrifice, the Buddha which is the All-being in One..."
Nice to meet you all.
edit: I just read through the rest of the posts in this section after I wrote mine and lol'd at the blatant similarities between some of us.