04-19-2017, 03:54 PM
If I get drunk, it seems to blast open my awareness of my blockages for the night, and I essentially act as if I have none. The blockages are still there, of course, but being drunk seems to maintain a steady state of being within those parameters. So there is no spiritual growth, and no spiritual regression...
Until the days afterwards, that is. The day after, the hangover, for me is a time of intense meditation whether I like it or not. This is because I am forced to locate that peaceful, calm center within, otherwise I will be overcome with intense nausea and vomit profusely. I have a mindset of 'process all catalyst,' so I do not prefer to vomit.
I wonder if this hangover meditation actually strengthens me, or if I am just wasting valuable conscious energy protecting myself from the negative after effects of alcohol?
During that hangover day, there is a very distinguished feeling of having my aura open. My eyes dilate and contract, the world seems less real. But not in a fun way like at the end of a shroom trip, it's definitely dystopian.
Then the next few days are mental and spiritual recovery, and oftentimes I regress back into an old belief system or an old habit, and I regret ever drinking.
I wonder if these experiences strengthen me at all, some part of me thinks they do, but if so I still think there must be a more productive way to strengthen your mind.
Until the days afterwards, that is. The day after, the hangover, for me is a time of intense meditation whether I like it or not. This is because I am forced to locate that peaceful, calm center within, otherwise I will be overcome with intense nausea and vomit profusely. I have a mindset of 'process all catalyst,' so I do not prefer to vomit.
I wonder if this hangover meditation actually strengthens me, or if I am just wasting valuable conscious energy protecting myself from the negative after effects of alcohol?
During that hangover day, there is a very distinguished feeling of having my aura open. My eyes dilate and contract, the world seems less real. But not in a fun way like at the end of a shroom trip, it's definitely dystopian.
Then the next few days are mental and spiritual recovery, and oftentimes I regress back into an old belief system or an old habit, and I regret ever drinking.
I wonder if these experiences strengthen me at all, some part of me thinks they do, but if so I still think there must be a more productive way to strengthen your mind.