Meditational changes in 2018
Previously, I wrote about the Fuschia Mist and how I felt about seeing that color during my early days of meditating and how curious it was to me because when I first began meditating there was only blackness when I closed my eyes.
A couple of years ago when I began participating in the Gaia meditations at 9 am and 9 pm, in addition to the Fuschia Mist I started seeing a tiny blue globe, , which I took to be Mother Earth who was in some way acknowledging the work and saying she approved.
Then this year,when I started increasing to 20 minutes in the a.m. and 10 minutes in the p.m., I started to see what I would say looked like the shapes in a lava lamp. They moved from rounded shape to rounded shape, fluidly in the fuschia color.
Recently, the shape has become a large blue sphere. It is very comforting and glows as if lit within. It is a cerulean blue globe that grows larger and larger. It grows larger and larger and is at its largest size when my timer goes off - to the point that when it starts increasing in size I know that time is almost up.
There is no fear. There is a comfort and a peace that I cannot explain.
I used to count so as to keep myself focussed but my focus is now just on the blue globe.
I do not feel it is a phenomenon or has any particular meaning. It is just peaceful and beautiful. I just wanted to chronicle this change for myself, as a record.
I now understand what Q’uo means when they say that each’s meditation experience is unique and intimately personal. And this is mine at this time.