08-30-2010, 02:03 AM
Hello fellow seekers,
I have posted occasionally, but often have difficulty opening up about my personal life...So I have decided to post a very personal story in hopes that it may touch someone or offer hope or faith where and when it may be needed. (which for me is often in this confusing world)
My daughter "S" was 17 years old when this happened last year. It was a trying time for me and my family and most assuredly for her. S has had some difficulty in her teen years and was not dealing with it very well. She was running away from home, cutting herself and drinking to the point of passing out or blacking out. As a mother I was trying to do everything I could to reach her and help her out of the dark place she had gotten herself into...But she seemingly did not want my help. So one night after she had run away (again) I was meditating and praying for her to be safe and asking for guidance.
As I laid in bed trying to meditate, (which is difficult for me when I am upset) I heard a bong, like a ringing of a bell...I heard it as if it was coming from within the room (not in my head) on my right side. I opened my eyes and looked to the right searching for the source of such a strange sound in my room in the middle of the night. Then I heard it again but this time it was more like a flute or small wind instrument. I sleep with a fan on at night and it sounded like it was coming from my fan. It was very strange.
My husband who was asleep right next to me heard nothing and kept snoring. Then it was repeated slowly methodically every few seconds and seemed to be gaining a tempo...I closed my eyes and relaxed- listening to this beautiful sound. Then I started to recognize a pattern and began humming along. Finally it formed into a song that I have heard thousands of times before and it was so simple and beautiful I sat there in awe of the message...The song was "Mary Had a Little Lamb".
I started singing along and began to cry as I thought of my daughter. The realization that I could do nothing but Love her and lead by example was a wake up call. But the line..."Everywhere that Mary went- the Lamb was sure to go." gives me hope and faith that if we lead with the loving light those who need a little help are sure to find it.
I have tried very hard to remember this lesson, not only with my children but also with friends, family, and the world.
Thanks for reading and please feel free to comment and add your thoughts.
zanny
I have posted occasionally, but often have difficulty opening up about my personal life...So I have decided to post a very personal story in hopes that it may touch someone or offer hope or faith where and when it may be needed. (which for me is often in this confusing world)
My daughter "S" was 17 years old when this happened last year. It was a trying time for me and my family and most assuredly for her. S has had some difficulty in her teen years and was not dealing with it very well. She was running away from home, cutting herself and drinking to the point of passing out or blacking out. As a mother I was trying to do everything I could to reach her and help her out of the dark place she had gotten herself into...But she seemingly did not want my help. So one night after she had run away (again) I was meditating and praying for her to be safe and asking for guidance.
As I laid in bed trying to meditate, (which is difficult for me when I am upset) I heard a bong, like a ringing of a bell...I heard it as if it was coming from within the room (not in my head) on my right side. I opened my eyes and looked to the right searching for the source of such a strange sound in my room in the middle of the night. Then I heard it again but this time it was more like a flute or small wind instrument. I sleep with a fan on at night and it sounded like it was coming from my fan. It was very strange.
My husband who was asleep right next to me heard nothing and kept snoring. Then it was repeated slowly methodically every few seconds and seemed to be gaining a tempo...I closed my eyes and relaxed- listening to this beautiful sound. Then I started to recognize a pattern and began humming along. Finally it formed into a song that I have heard thousands of times before and it was so simple and beautiful I sat there in awe of the message...The song was "Mary Had a Little Lamb".
I started singing along and began to cry as I thought of my daughter. The realization that I could do nothing but Love her and lead by example was a wake up call. But the line..."Everywhere that Mary went- the Lamb was sure to go." gives me hope and faith that if we lead with the loving light those who need a little help are sure to find it.
I have tried very hard to remember this lesson, not only with my children but also with friends, family, and the world.
Thanks for reading and please feel free to comment and add your thoughts.
zanny