03-28-2017, 04:44 AM
This is all long term, I have no intent to attempt to learn all these things at once, they're just templates to help design my future, hopefully...
Manic episodes, I have never had one that I know of for sure, I do think I've had one, which was back in...I believe middle school, I stayed up for 5 days straight without laying down or stopping to do anything but go to the bathroom, eat, and shower. By day 5 the hallucinations got pretty crazy and I must have knocked myself out because I woke up over a day later confused how I ended up in my bed.
The only other time I would consider the possibility I was having a manic episode...Was back in 2014 when I felt like I was the Creator and could see love everywhere, but that's a doubt that just can't seem to...Overcome my belief that what happened in 2014 was not a physical phenomenon so-to-speak.
This is all longterm, I have wanted to learn music for a long time and I never had the help or support or motivation, and I see I never will...I need to do it myself. So, this is a start, at the least, to plan something out, to have some kind of direction.
Something, anything. I'm tired of fading away from doing nothing and knowing not how to do the things I want to do.
Manic episodes, I have never had one that I know of for sure, I do think I've had one, which was back in...I believe middle school, I stayed up for 5 days straight without laying down or stopping to do anything but go to the bathroom, eat, and shower. By day 5 the hallucinations got pretty crazy and I must have knocked myself out because I woke up over a day later confused how I ended up in my bed.
The only other time I would consider the possibility I was having a manic episode...Was back in 2014 when I felt like I was the Creator and could see love everywhere, but that's a doubt that just can't seem to...Overcome my belief that what happened in 2014 was not a physical phenomenon so-to-speak.
This is all longterm, I have wanted to learn music for a long time and I never had the help or support or motivation, and I see I never will...I need to do it myself. So, this is a start, at the least, to plan something out, to have some kind of direction.
Something, anything. I'm tired of fading away from doing nothing and knowing not how to do the things I want to do.