Hi. I think I am the Wanderer who was forced onto the negative path.

[The Traveler]

Hello there and welcome to the forums  

I would like to let you know that you are not alone (although it may seem that way) and that there are others that have had similar experiences and feelings regarding themselves and the current state of the world.

I think I can relate (perhaps in part) to your sense of despair that you have experienced. The Veil of Forgetting didnt affect me as much as it does most people and I knew or could sense I was different or from elsewhere from an early age. As the years past by this home sickness and yearning for answers turn into depression, anxiety, frustration and despair, I have thought of suicide more times than I care to remember. In late 2015 one night while feeling hopelessly depressed I got a Visitor (non-corporeal) and this Visitor took my sadness away that night if only for a while. A few weeks later I got more Visitors and I think they were fixing me and doing energy work. (You can read more about my stuff in a thread titled The Long Night)

It's 2017 now and since the Visitors came I now seem to have certain "abilities" (although crude). My Crown Chakra has been active almost every day (feels like a cool breeze/flame) since they came and I'm also able to direct energy there and also to my Third Eye. (still not really sure why my Crown is doing this)

So I also feel rather exhausted from all the years or depression and I dont have a direction in life and it makes me really frustrated and sad, I'm not sure why I'm here.

I am in no way attempting to compare my experiences with yours but merely sharing some of what I am going through so that you can see that we are all in this together.  

I wish you well and I wish you light.
The Traveler