(06-03-2009, 11:28 AM)xlsander Wrote: as a wanderer apparently deals with a huge sense of alienation, and lonleyness in our 3rd density space/time -
what do you think happens if the wanderer choses commits suicide?
...also, what signifigance and ultimately impact do you think does it have on the wanderer
to have chosen to commit suicide at time of a planetary harvest?
L/L
Alex
Alex, I agree with ayadew - you are much too valuable to commit suicide! Just the fact that you are HERE, with us, seeking/learning/loving, shows you have much to contribute to this planet!
I can understand your feelings of loneliness and alienation. I felt that way for the first 20 years of my life! And probably most of us here have felt that at one time or another.
But, you are NO LONGER ALONE!!!
You now have us!
What is this all about, if not to extend LOVE to others?? We are all here talking about it, and we are all, undoubtedly, very loving towards others in our everyday lives. Surely we can extend that love to someone in our own forum who is feeling lonely! (Right, everyone?)
We're here for you, Alex. Don't hesitate to send a private message to me or to anyone else you might feel a connection with. YOU HAVE FRIENDS HERE...even a spiritual family!
As to what happens after suicide, well, I don't think it's an unforgiveable 'sin' like the religions think...according to the Law of One, there is indeed need for extra healing after such an experience. In the discussion on the other thread, we've been talking about forgiving self for having done that in a past life.
Since this idea is (presumably) occurring to you in THIS life, I would suggest considering this:
Everything that's going on in your life is just catalyst. Ra stated that, in order to graduate, we must love not only others, but ourselves as well! In fact, it is a requirement! (Does anyone remember the quote?)
I found this to be harder than loving others, personally. It was quite disconcerting for me when I realized that I didn't love myself very much. It was a major wake-up call for me, like getting splashed in the face with cold water! Something I had sort of taken for granted - being harvestable - suddenly became a big question mark, when I faced the truth of how very little I loved myself!
So that really got me thinking...and praying. I never felt suicidal, but I did feel a lot of despair at many times in my life, and even when I felt better, I still was living predominately for the benefit of others. It was a huge shift in my consciousness to realize that I needed to love MYSELF as much as I loved others! I later learned that this is not unusual for Wanderers.
Well, I also realized that, applying that same principle, if I would not kill someone else, how could I justify killing myself? Even though suicide was never seriously considered by me, it was usually because I felt I had to keep living for the sake of others. It was quite a revelation to realize that I needed to love MYSELF for the sake of MYSELF.
As for suicide having special significance so close to the Harvest, I think everything we do has special significance. I don't think any single act would determine the outcome, but would be a factor, along with your entire life, in determining the amount of light when you walk the Steps of Light. I just don't think any of us can you give you a definitive answer on how such an action would affect harvestability.
No one here will judge you. But it would be a shame for someone in our midst, right here on our forum, to be feeling so lonely as to be considering suicide! I hope that you will give us a chance to reach out to you and welcome you to our spiritual family!
These are just some ideas to consider.
See the LOVE in the present moment.
WE LOVE YOU!
