Anyone else feel the huge energy influx these last few days?

[xise]

Ups and downs man, ups and downs. I've been feeling the same way. Just got to ride this out with hope and faith.

I have been seeing what you guys describe for years, they have picked up intensity big time right now. If you focus closely enough and have the ability you can even see the glowing web strands that make up everything, I think what we are beginning to see is the ether, the webs of light that create this room.

Well I fell again, I was a fool to think I wouldn't. It felt like a had the world in the palm of my hand, like nothing could stop me, all of my efforts over the years where starting to show results and the high felt like it would last forever. Then just like that in one night boom and crash and next thing you know I'am hanging on by a thread. Worst thing is I know you can't control it, control is an illusion we have none nada zip. Paradoxically we do as we are controlling ourselves from higher ground, like a general organising his troops. I'am just sick and tired of this constant twirl, this storm has really shaken me up.

I'am noticing the effects on others as well. Everyone I come in contact with I can see the pain in there eyes, everyone will go through the storm. Is this the only way? I'am breaking me down a day at a time, I feel like a ghost, someone who is dead but can't let go. So far the higher I get the lower I go. I want to understand it all but I can't and no one here can, were all just along for the ride in the name of service. Oh well I'am still here to survive another day in this circus. I really thought I was home to and now everything looks worse then ever.