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Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Biu_Tze - 02-25-2010 Hello everyone, just going to start rambling, forgive how unorganized this may get! I'm new here, just found a thread on another site called abovetopsecret, from there I got a link to a q and a session with someone known as hidden hand. I went through it all, and feeling a reaffirmation from what I've learned through my other studies, and just what is a part of me, was able to get out of a funk I've had.. The real issue is I let myself be comprised, because of the love I felt for someone, and my huge desire to try and help them. I also was engaging in some pretty bad habbits, recreational use of marijuana, while in my opinion isn't so bad, it is for me, at least in this point in time, only when I'm alone is it mainly positive. And something I really dislike, an addiction to pornography. I've distanced myself from the smoking of pot, and have refrained from allowing my thoughts to drift towards anything sexual. When I dream I have been bombarded with sex, almost the point of me cumming in my sleep, right before it happened I managed to make it stop. Anyways, I have a few things I'd like to ask help about, I would also be open to whatever possible suggestions or questions you fine folks may have. One thing that is big to me, the other day, after I was reading the last portion of the hidden hand stuff, I was so elated and felt so much love and happiness, it was amazing.. I have had a lot of emotional blockages since my father died roughly 7 years ago, I was in a very negative place, and I still resonate a fair bit with negativity. In fact I feel like I have a tremendous ability to be evil, the lure of power is always there, but luckily for me my heart just won't let it happen! anyways.. during my elation at the affirmations found within the text I had this great fear strike me at once, I was going to be abducted and violated, I have had fear of alien abduction since I was 10 or so I believe, not sure on exact age, and for sometime I had forgotton about that, with the new found happiness, surprise surprise, look who has come knocking on my door again, anywaysss.. I covered myself under a blanket and was just waiting for the feeling to go away, and during this time, I had a blip in time.. it's like time was stopped and than started again, was a very weird feeling.. I feel like I have been interfered with.. and I don't think this is the first time. anyways, I'm worried that they will come back.. I'd like some suggestions as to what I might be able to do.. to protect myself, I'm worried they may attack my loved ones as well.. it makes me very angry thinking of that.. anyways.. one of the only other concrete examples of "alien interference" and I don't even know for sure if either of these are, even tho I believe it strongly, is when I was trying to practice astral projection, which I have yet to succeed with, probably due to my being frightened to death of finding some parasitic life form feeding off of me, but yeah, I was trying to AP and the vibrations began to get incredibly intense, and than, I saw the clearest thing I've ever seen in my minds eye, at least as an adult.. the face of a grey alien appeared, and I almost crapped myself.. so yeah.. theres that little piece of info.. I'd like to apologize to any moderators out there, going to switch topics here, hopefully this isn't going to create any difficulties for ya! The other thing I want help with would be all these sexual impulses, images of things I've seen and things I haven't, ideas of foul forms of sexual practice, all sorts of things, I want them out of me, I refuse to sumbit to them, and am not worried about it, but i'd still rather not be constantly pressed upon with such things.. I try to imagine the people in these acts stopping, and realizing what they are doing isn't what their hearts want, ect ect, but I feel like that may be attacking their free will, aside from that, helping myself heal, I want to help others, so very very bad, but I'm very conflicted, I don't want to knock people off of their path, and it's quite rare someone comes to me for help, and when they do, I feel as if i'm just wasting my energy, I feel drained, and while I temporarily bring them happiness and inspiration, it's not really getting to the root of the problem, maybe they just want my energy, and aren't ready to heal, I wish there was more I could do, to help people... but I don't know what to do! I'm hoping someone who shares my desire to help people will in turn help me and by doing so help themselves! I guess i'll leave it at that.. Thanks a lot to everyone here, I've read a few threads so far and feel very at home and appreciative of all of you already! With lots of love! Daniel[/u] I forgot to add that I felt required to let myself be taken to assist them in some way, like my sacrifice of myself could somehow help save them, not sure if that was an implanted thought to take away my free will or what.. but there it is! RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Cyclops - 02-25-2010 Uh where do we begin?, first you don't know how much I appreciate you laying your issues and problems on the table for it would be an extreme pleasure for me to formulate for you some helpful answers or material that would bring out the sleeping seeker. This answer will be long but I will address the key parts of of your question and know that in the end all will be available for you to seek for yourself. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Here first consider perhaps the source of sexuality. Quote:G: Final one from me, Q’uo. This question comes from a “friend.” This “friend” wants to know if the activity known as masturbation expends vital energy that would otherwise be available for higher charka activity? Starting off again with why judgment about sexuality is unnecessary. Q'uo excerpt: Quote:To many cultures, the eroticism of hidden genitalia Why need to throw away those feelings of sexual impulses and sexual desires or thoughts? The Aaron/Q’uo Dialogues, Session 14 Aaron excerpt: Quote:One place where you shut out light is when you look with disdain on these emotional and physical bodies. You see the imperfections, and you strive to get rid of those imperfections rather than finding love for the being that you are. You do not need to be judgemental, acceptance of of self is the ground work for which a seeker can spring forward in his learning. Q'uo excerpt: Quote:In some personalities, the openness of the heart is such that that particular personality is almost incapable of expressing the self without the green-ray aspect. However, this is not the case for the majority of entities who engage in sexual congress. It is to be remembered that your present experience of sexuality has heavy cultural overlays which encourage the value of sexuality remaining firmly in the red ray.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Let us look upon your fear. First see that fear is a gift in this life, when you see it coming you look at it, you can accept it or you can dwell in it. If you accept it you see that it is there and offering you a lesson. In my opinion there is nothing to fear. The Aaron/Q’uo Dialogues, Session 18 Aaron excerpt: Quote:From my perspective, there is a vast difference Once you see your fears and move forward in your seeking it will lessen. Ariel excerpt: Quote:That you on Earth are capable of this as you move There are endless material on fear basically but it might be seen as stemming from separation of you and all that there is which includes also the unknown and the negatively oriented entities. Hatonn excerpt: Quote:When you consider, my friends, what it is that you are, you may then see that there is nothing to fear either outside or within yourself. For you are a being of infinite life, and whatever occurs to your physical envelope which you call your body is but a transitory alteration in your condition of consciousness. However, we realize that at this time, although you have some knowledge of yourself as one with the Creator, although you have a good grasp of the ideals of the ethics of love, but you are at this time enduring difficulties associated with living within the gross or coarse reality which is your Earth plane.----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The thoughts on which you feel the need to help people but do not wish to knock them off their path and in which you find yourself waiting and grasping for them to come to you for answers might be expressed here. The first excerpt is the one I find most important in your concerns with the second part of your post's questions. Q'uo excerpt: Quote:We understand that when you have been awakened and excited and impassioned for the good, the true, and the beautiful by truths that have been revealed to you that seem fair and worthy of being shared, it is a great temptation to share these wonderful truths with others as a way of relating to them. However, we would suggest that you refrain from doing so, relating to entities not by what you think but by who you are; giving yourself to the relationship with them, not your ideas. When relating self-to-self you may encourage and support the good that you see in another in any way that comes to you, but rest from sharing your opinions except insofar as they seem to spring up in conversation of their own accord. To be of service you do not need to offer your material when asked and then constantly worry if the person had understood it to your understanding, seek no reward and you shall get all reward. Q'uo excerpt: Quote:There is no question but that in all of those three circumstances and more there is much infringement upon free will among your people. To those who feel that there is a question as to whether they are acting appropriately or whether they are moving beyond the bounds of acceptable influence and infringing upon another’s free will, we might suggest that, in your mind, you turn the tables and see the situation as happening the opposite way, not from you to another but from another to you. If, in that turnaround, you see the goodness of your actions, you are most likely behaving appropriately and maintaining unity between yourself and the other self. If, when you turn the tables, you realize you would resent such a thing were it to happen to you, then you know that you have infringed upon the rights, the peace, and the liberty of another. Q'uo: Quote:And when you are asked questions, whether of a physical, emotional or spiritual nature, it is entirely appropriate to offer your opinion, again using your own sense of rightness and goodness to shape your replies. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Please understand this is at most the least of least able answers to offer you insight on these concerns, you would be better off in getting the background information. I see you've read Hidden Hand's post, I've read it too which lead me to the Ra material. I suggest as a new seeker you go through the Ra sessions and then move onto the Q'uo and other entities' sessions. This is easier said then done of course even take me who has read countless sessions... I yet do not understand completely even a microscopic portions of that which is available, but continue seeking I will. Basically http://www.lawofone.info/ is the Ra sessions, a good start to seeking is here. Use the search about any questions you have. Also the most general searches can be made here http://www.llresearch.org/ anything you wish to find out about which is in your head you can begin to seek in the vast library of sessions of countless information. I would really like to leave you with this excerpt which is a favorite of mine. Quote:Questioner: I am going to make a statement and then let you correct it if I have made any errors. This is the statement: Creation is a single entity or unity. If only a single entity exists, then the only concept of service is the concept of service to self. If this single entity subdivides, then the concept of service of one of its parts to one of its other parts is born. From this springs the equality of service to self or to others. It would seem that as the Logos subdivided, parts would select each orientation. As individualized entities emerge in space/time then I would assume that they have polarity. Is this statement correct? The polarities being Service to others and service to self, service to others results in service to self since unity is all that there is. So there isn't really anything to fear. RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - wanderer4d - 02-26-2010 Thank you Biu_Tze for sharing these things. Many items are pertinent to me also, some from my past and some presently. I know it can be challenging and scary to share these types of things about ourselves. It would seem you have already begun to face your fears by exposing them to the light. Light has it's own cleansing quality's. Know that you are loved. Welcome to Bring4th. Thank you Cyclops for your in depth and insightful reply. Your post I hope will be helpful to Biu_Tze. I know it has been for me. Love&Light, J RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Brittany - 02-26-2010 I think trying to "stomp out" the sexual impulses is only going to make them stronger. In my opinion, you need to find out what their root cause is and then decide how you want to deal with that cause. You have to accept the thoughts as part of you. In spite of any experiences you may have had, other selves, be they aliens, family members, etc., cannot solve your problems for you, and focusing on them instead of yourself is diverting attention from the core problem. You can't control all the stuff that happens in the world out there. You can't (always) control the type of catalyst you receive. However, you CAN control how you decide to respond to these catalyst. Usually when you get a strong repeating event or emotion it means your higher mind is trying to tell you something, and you aren't listening. What kind of message, what kind of lesson could be hidden in these thoughts and strange occurences? Where is the AHA moment where you realize *this* is the trigger...*this* is where I need to take action in my life? Sometimes it can be very deeply hidden, but the answer is not in any outside sources. It is within you. As always, this is my mere opinion. If any of it sounds off to you, please ignore it. RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Monica - 02-26-2010 Hi Biu Tze! Welcome to Bring4th! I commend you for sharing such personal details! I'm certain that many of our members will offer words of wisdom and encouragement for you. Cyclops has already offered some quotes regarding sexuality. I would invite you to explore what the Law of One says about sexuality as it pertains to polarity. Suggestion: Perhaps, rather than trying to avoid or suppress your sexuality, you might try raising it to the heart level. Are you a Wing Tsun practitioner? RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Biu_Tze - 02-26-2010 I am going to have to take all of this in for a while before I can respond in a way which I would like, I'd like to thank you for your kind, loving and inspirational words, I'd also really really like to applaud your very non-evasive intentions, oh how refreshing this is to experience. Might I have a link to quo's info? I feel very drawn to this fella for some reason ![]() hey there monica, you just posted right before me, didn't get to see your post until after I was done, yes, I am a wing tzun practitioner, and in fact I am going to seminar with Micheal Casey this saterday and sunday! I can't wait! ahahaha -is filled with happiness at this thought- Much Love! RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Cyclops - 02-26-2010 http://www.llresearch.org/transcripts/transcripts_toc_year.aspx This is the year to year order of different sessions excluding the Ra channelings. At first you will find Hatonn and Latwii speaking, they later merge into a principle with the least distorted social memory complex Ra which compose the Q'uo principle, Ra never speaks in these sessions. You will find also many other entities and social memory complexes in the library as well. All of these being generally entities of discarnate nature or extra terrestrial, some exceptions to this being the discarnate sixth density entity Aaron which is an inner guide and whose native planet was earth. I haven't mentioned other countless ones. http://www.llresearch.org/search/search_google.aspx (Search "Q'uo") Quote:I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. As you may be aware we of the principle of Q’uo are a principle because we are of more than one source or origin. Those of Latwii, who are of the density of light, have joined with those of Hatonn, of the density of love, and also have joined with those of Ra, of the density of unity. Those of Ra, as you are aware, experienced their third density upon the planet which you call Venus and were honored to have a most efficient experience within the third density of Venus. The many entities which formed the eventual social memory complex of Venus had a most harmonious third density upon that planetary sphere and moved quickly, shall we say, through that experience with a significant portion achieving graduation within the first cycle of 25,000 years, a larger portion achieving graduation during the second cycle, and the third cycle saw the joining of the social memory complex by all of the population of that sphere. Those of Hatonn and those of Latwii had somewhat similar third-density experiences upon planets which are distant from this solar system and which are as yet undiscovered by your astronomers. Thus the name or place of such is meaningless, yet each social memory complex has found the third-density experience to be that which has produced the tempering of seeking, and the fire of the testing was intense and true. And we have been privileged to become that which you call Q’uo for the purpose of these transmissions at this time. Is there another question, my brother? RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Biu_Tze - 02-26-2010 Thanks again cyclops, much appreciated ![]() I feel like I know most of what I need to do, I just don't know HOW to do half of it. I was wondering what your folks opinions on focusing on the greys, just thinking about them non stop living in fear as much as possible to better understand them/myself/us. I want to be able to transform fear into love, that is my biggest goal right now, for myself anyways. I feel void of emotion in most of my day to day life, I still get into things, and enjoy myself, but I just don't really feel much, when I have insights I feel love and happiness, and appreciation. I feel like my new finding of information, and all the emotional blockages released, attracted the attention of the greys. I read a little bit of the LOO stuff, and I said in my head, the name Ra, and my whole body started to vibrate like a mother... I smoked some pot, and the thought popped into my head, anything that wants to come into me is welcome, after this I tried to amend it, by saying only if it has a positive intention, and only if this and that, but I think it may have been too late.. Feeling/Being insane sure is entertaining eh? This is kind of becoming a journal, hopefully that's not a breach of this forum! ![]() I'm kind of obsessed with the greys right now.. I want to know what I should do, and HOW to get to the point where I am able to do it! Thanks for listening, Love and light! I feel despair when the realization that my emotional state is so void of anything hits me! Just want to keep this update with insights.. thoughts/feelings. RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Cyclops - 02-26-2010 Baby steps. It used to be that each night when I would choose to read up on more and more information I would get scared of the dark and of things trying to harm me because I was seeking. As I sought more and more, more and more realizations came to me when I was soaking all of the material in. Connecting it all and such. What I felt was that when you really begin to seek the spiritual and hidden teachings and begin to awaken, there's a kind of resistance band in the beginning. You feel the pull to various different feelings, some of fear. There are gradations to awakening. Would you believe for years I had studies the negative aspects and various ways that the earth's elite were working to enslave others? extremely into those aspects of separation and fear of hopelessness. What I really suggest is continue seeking/soak up more and more information and piecing concepts together. With each passing day I pierce deeper, un-distort further, Fear less. It's a hunger I can't describe. RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Biu_Tze - 02-27-2010 Chuckles, I myself started all of this when I was 13 years old at abovetopsecret.com, wanting to know the truth about the elite, the aliens, everything.. I was very intrigued by the dark side of things, and felt a tremendous ability in being evil, I still feel like it would the easiest option for me to do, except all this bloody compassion! Luckily my deeds of evil were always quite minimal, luckily so I feel, I doubt luck has much to do with anything. Thanks, I feel like that has been the most helpful thing said me to me in a while! seek seek and seek some more! I just remembered, I seem to have a death wish. I read a book my a fellow named Lujan Matus, he claims to share the benefactor Don Juan, from carlos castanedas books, anyways, he talks about a negative type of entity, and anger and some kind of crazy ego-confidence wells up in me, and I would challenge them, do your worst, bring your best, ect ect, I was just reading the LOO stuff, about the orions, saw that they had 6th density beings in their group, and thought to myself, BRING IT ON 6TH-IES, I seem to revel in the idea of a horrible challenge against what I percieve as "evil" I can't wait to read this in a year and laugh knowingly, and than read it 5 years later, and realize how little I knew, and than 10 years later, realize how much I knew... WHO KNOWS HOW THE STORY SHALL CONTINUE! Reading more info about the orion group via LOO, it seems as if it's necessary for someone to actually ask to be taken? or that they be seeking negative information.. is this essentially correct? RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Cyclops - 02-27-2010 In the last question I would see the answer to this be yes. Those seeking negative information are often calling and answered by the Orion empire group which offers it's own philosophy concerning the Law of One. Here is perhaps the most clear cut answer to your question in your last post which I think can be located. Quote:Questioner: Then we have crusaders from Orion coming to this planet for mind control purposes. How do they do this?Again seeing the mechanism of their movements about this planet. Quote:Questioner: What’s the objective with respect to the conquest of the Orion group? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ You do not have to be seeking negative information to be greeted by Orion entities. They often do greet those upon the service to others path in order to pollute or steer them away. Quote:Ra: I am Ra. It is entirely possible for the untuned channel, as you call that service, to receive both positive and negative communications. If the entity at the base of its confusion is oriented toward service to others, the entity will begin to receive messages of doom. If the entity at the base of the complex of beingness is oriented towards service to self, the crusaders, who in this case, do not find it necessary to lie, will simply begin to give the philosophy they are here to give. Here is an interesting quote on the quarantine, From what I understand this planet is mixed in it's seeking, thus in order to guard the beings oriented towards positive there was a quarantine placed over the planet. Of course this is balanced and allows negative influences to attempt to snuff out the light one creates by seeking at any given opportunity. Quote:Questioner: Is there any effort on the part of the Confederation to stop the Orion chariots from arriving here? I had posted also a quote from the Ariel channeling in my first response to this thread which talks about the quarantine as well. Much of your questions are already answered in the sessions but you have just not reached them yet, for me I often see a concept I do not understand and the following session would provide the clearing or connection which illuminates a particular concept. RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Biu_Tze - 02-27-2010 Thanks much, I just went through all the orion stuff myself, but I truly appreciate your desire to help, and the time you so freely give in, Thanks much! ![]() Wow, I just took a chakra test, and.. it's interesting.. Root: open (13%) Sacral: under-active (0%) Navel: under-active (6%) Heart: open (31%) Throat: open (31%) Third Eye: under-active (-19%) Crown: open (13%) Anyone have some suggestions as to what a good starting point would be? Taken from this site: http://www.eclecticenergies.com/chakras/chakradotest.php RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Aaron - 02-27-2010 (02-27-2010, 02:47 AM)Biu_Tze Wrote: Thanks much, I just went through all the orion stuff myself, but I truly appreciate your desire to help, and the time you so freely give in, Thanks much! A good starting point: Trust yourself. This means to trust in your own presence here. A startling number of people don't even fully accept the fact that they are HERE. NOW. doing whatever they are doing, thinking whatever they are thinking. They always want to be somewhere else. Have faith in the fact that your consciousness is so deeply entwined with this earth and you are so solidly and steadily HERE, much more than you are consciously aware of. You must allow your deeper consciousness, or higher self, to lead you to your next lesson. A mantra that I thought of yesterday. "I am only a small part of I. So let go... let go... let go..." I am only a small part of I meaning whoever I think I am right now is only a minuscule part of the I that is ALL that I am conscious of. This is the big I, the I that is me in the past and the far flung future and the present. Look for what you haven't seen before in your interactions with other people, and you'll find those lessons, whatever chakra(s) they may pertain to! I'll bet you may even find yourself in a lesson by the end of the day if you have faith! ![]() RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Biu_Tze - 02-27-2010 Oh my yes, good intentions, a desire to learn, and the will to keep aware of what might be presented has definitely yielded good results before, thanks for your response! I think 80% of my lessons have been in front of me this whole time to be honest, to stop replying in anger, when those who claim to love me constantly want to control my actions in a way they like yet I do not. My "Ex gf" whom still lives with me, constantly seeks physical affection which is not what in my mind a relationship between friends quite entails. The whole thing at first.. meant to me I needed to stand up for myself first, and stop letting random people sway me this way and that, I've never once gone on a date that originated from my asking, always on they're request was this done, and I always did it for the most part because I just wanted to do something, as opposed to feeling a connection first and than going about things.. I have thus been in a lot of crazy relationships.. Now that I've created my boundaries, as I require them, the attempts to have them breached has not yet stopped, and perhaps this is for the best. I've told it her's unhealthy for both of us for her to remain here, still being in love with me, where I can only be friends right now, and possibly forever. But she really wants to stay, I feel like it's only helping her hurt herself, but I am under the impression the longer things play out, the more likely a grand realization is going to come for both us of. I love her deeply, and enjoy her company, when she isn't trying to dictate my physical actions anyways. I don't feel like a whole lot is missing from my interactions at present, that's a hell of a statement, I'll have to try and figure out just what the hell that could be ![]() Much Love~ As a Side note, I'm about the only thing I trust fully, I know I'm here, and I know I am here now, not so sure about being fully entwined and what not, but I'll give it some thought, without some kind of spiritual breakthrough I'm not so sure I'll be able to realize such a truth. I like your mantra. humble things attract my love ![]() RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - fairyfarmgirl - 02-27-2010 Love is all there is. The rest is little truths that are the truth until they are no longer the truth. fairyfarmgirl RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Peregrinus - 02-27-2010 (02-27-2010, 02:47 AM)Biu_Tze Wrote: Anyone have some suggestions as to what a good starting point would be? There is a post here somewhere Chakras Only which goes into details for improvement. RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Questioner - 02-27-2010 Hi Biu Tze, how do you pronounce that & what does it mean? Thank you for joining us, Daniel. I hope that you find this site to be a safe place for you to explore your concerns and find loving support and wisdom. Almost everything you brought up has actually been discussed here! As with everything you read here, please take what is helpful to you, and set aside anything that does not resonate with your own heart and mind. You mention you have the Hidden Hand material. Have you read the L/L Research material that's the focus of this site? The About Us link at the top of the page gives a good overview. For your situation, I imagine that Carla's "Wanderer's Handbook" (available from the Library link) may be very helpful. What would you say is your level of understanding of the Law of One principles? One thing I have learned here is a new way to think about service. If someone asks for help, and we are able to provide the help they ask for, that is service. If they haven't asked for help, we can offer it. But we need to respect their freedom of choice if they say "no, thanks." In this life, it is a good enough step of spiritual evolution to give and share what we can in half of our opportunities. Remember the airline instruction to put on your own oxygen mask first, so you don't pass out while trying to help others. If someone else can only find happiness and inspiration by taking away your happiness and inspiration, then there are two people with big problems! Even your own death would still leave them unhappy and uninspired. You can sometimes help another person have a better circumstance outside of them. But their own interpretations and feelings inside of them are their own responsibility. If they have emptiness, you cannot fill it; just as when you have emptiness, no addictive behavior can fill it. Trying to fill up other people's emptiness can itself become an addiction. This has been a difficult life lesson for me to learn, but the wisdom of the LLR books and this forum have been very helpful for me. From the way you put things, I suspect that you may have a similar challenge and I can definitely recommend that you use the loving wisdom available here. Talking things over can help uncover the roots of your own attitudes and assumptions about what it truly means to serve. Perhaps, as in my case, some of those attitudes came from indoctrination by people who were ignorant, or manipulative, and did not teach you what is truly best for your own growth. As for the topic of spiritual attack, there is much excellent information here from FairyFarmGirl and several others. This is also something discussed at great length in the LLR books and channeling sessions. Until you are free of spiritual and psychological parasites, wouldn't it be safer to focus on this world and on meditation, rather than trying to explore spiritual realms through astral projection and so forth? One advantage of this world is that there is usually some time between cause and effect, giving you an opportunity to reconsider your thoughts before they become manifest. If your thoughts are scattered or influenced by negative forces outside your control, that delay could be protective for you and for others. At least, until you can guard and shepherd your thoughts according to your own choice of values. There are also some insightful discussions here about struggles with excess attention to sexuality and how that might actually be an issue of power and control. I hope that this forum helps you discover answers that help you on your journey to true service. RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Biu_Tze - 02-28-2010 Biu Tze means thrusting fingers, it's prononced like buick, the "bui" part, the other tze is pronounced gee, it's the 3rd empty handed form of wing chun or as my lineage spells it wing tzun. Thanks a lot for your post, mucho amor parati! RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Biu_Tze - 03-02-2010 I've realized a little bit about what the red chakra means to me, and how it relates to fear. and how I can transform that fear into love. When I feel fear, it's because I'm worried my physical existence will end, and all the things I want to accomplish will not be met, I don't believe any non human/animal lifeform can kill me, or end my physical existence. I'm just worried about my goals, and hopes and dreams, and to me, this is very inspiring, it makes me appreciate what I have, for I don't want to lose it, I've worked my butt off to get where I am, and I plan on working even harder to get where I am going. If something that wishes to harm me comes a knocking I feel I can protect myself, and will do my damnedest, and that's all I really need to know, I am doing everything I can, and will continue to increase my efforts, and in doing so, I appreciate life. This lesson gives me appreciation, and I hope inspires all who come across this. Much love! RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Lavazza - 03-02-2010 Whoa! How did I miss this thread? Blu-Tze, I've been meaning to start a thread on the topic of pornographic addiction, as I also had fallen under it's sway for quite a while. In the last year or so I think I've made significant progress on this, but have yet to seriously compare notes with another seeker who is working on the same thing. And, I'm not out of the weeds yet, at they say. Please stay tunned- I'll add my comments as time allows. I'm just starting my work day right now and I'm busy so it may be later today or possibly a few days from now. Or, how would you feel about us starting a new thread for it altogether, so that future seekers will be able to find it easily? Cyclops, those are amazing quotes. I may poach them for the new thread if you don't mind ![]() RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Biu_Tze - 03-02-2010 That sounds like a great idea, I think it's an issue quite a few are reluctant to talk about, and I consider it an honor to be able to bring it to light for all to see! Comparing notes would be awesome, I think just keeping open, sharing, and maintaining an iron will is keeping things good for me, but I've only been "sober" for like 2 weeks? so, I'm sure things will intensify eventually. Anyways, I'll try to go into as much detail as possible and start a new thread, clearly titled "Sexual Addiction" Hope to see you and other fine contributors there soon ![]() (could be about an hour before I have time to do this, going to try and scrap together some breakfast and practice a little form work first!) Much Love! RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - Plenum - 12-22-2011 this quote is from: (02-25-2010, 10:58 PM)Cyclops Wrote: who quoted Q'uo: http://www.llresearch.org/transcripts/issues/2008/2008_0322.aspx I am ... at a loss for words ![]() ![]() RE: Some stuff, don't know where to begin! - AnthroHeart - 12-22-2011 It goes both ways for Creator. "The concept of the Christ was this: that intelligent infinity, as experienced by the Logos and with the bias of the Logos, would enter a third-density experience, not erasing the one known as Jesus’ personality or being, but coming into the closest possible harmony with that being. There needed to be one who wished to sacrifice an incarnation to the ever-increasing pleasure and agony of the Creator, experiencing what this instrument would call the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, for it is the nature of the Christ and the nature of third density that the two, perceiving each other, should react-the third density with a lack of understanding and the Christ with wonder, joy and sacrifice. Such is the sorrow of your illusion and the joy of sensation and communion." http://www.llresearch.org/newsletters/issues/1987_4.aspx |