3 Types of Angels with You

[AnthroHeart]

http://www.angeltherapy.com/blog/3-types-angels-are-you

I always like Doreen Virtue's work.

[Reaper]

While the psychics I talk to have told me a vast variety of interesting, sometimes-conflicting things, all of them pick up on the fact that I have tons and tons of entities around me. One of them described it as angels lining up out the door because there were too many to fit into the room, and said she'd never seen such a thing before. I've consciously worked with angelic presences only to a minimal degree in my life, and wonder what exactly happened to give me such enormous attention and protection.

[Lighthead]

While the psychics I talk to have told me a vast variety of interesting, sometimes-conflicting things, all of them pick up on the fact that I have tons and tons of entities around me. One of them described it as angels lining up out the door because there were too many to fit into the room, and said she'd never seen such a thing before. I've consciously worked with angelic presences only to a minimal degree in my life, and wonder what exactly happened to give me such enormous attention and protection.

It could either be something bad or something good. Or both. 

[AnthroHeart]

I've never been told that I have any entities at all around me, except for what I have read.
It makes me feel so alone.

[Splash]

While the psychics I talk to have told me a vast variety of interesting, sometimes-conflicting things, all of them pick up on the fact that I have tons and tons of entities around me. One of them described it as angels lining up out the door because there were too many to fit into the room, and said she'd never seen such a thing before. I've consciously worked with angelic presences only to a minimal degree in my life, and wonder what exactly happened to give me such enormous attention and protection.

lol Yera

Of course you have this!

It's how you're still able to be here  

(That and how brave you are.) ^j^

[Splash]

I've never been told that I have any entities at all around me, except for what I have read.
It makes me feel so alone.

Being told isn't as important as sensing them yourself.

If you don't sense any angelic entities around you, you can ask them to show you their presence.

(They require our 'permission'...)

No belief is required.

Just ask.

Then they are there. ^j^



(ps: I had a lot of anger and resistance to having to ask them to come and actively show me their supportive presence... until I realised they require us to ask.. it's to do with freewill...)

ps: You aren't alone. ^j^

[Splash]

ps: I have 11 of Doreen Virtue's decks and enjoy using them, and have a few of her books on Angels/Archangels/Ascended Masters...

but I prefer to use her work as a starting point to my own energetic relationship with Angels/Beings Of Light... as, much as I appreciate a lot of her ideas, she's quite 'fluffy' and also very specific, without acknowledging her information/experiences aren't the complete picture... (which is a massive 'picture' and beyond the scope of her work) - (any 'humans' work)

...she can't be faulted for her good intentions and positive energy however

[VanAlioSaldo]

Its really as easy as asking?

Ive said some really mean things to them and the whole thing. (Creation)

Even after apology and love, is it really still easy for me you think? I am really asking. I often feel like I'm not alone in a negative way, but i see that is just my perspective.

I wish one of them would literally materialize but i understood that is Their Free Will and not just mine.

[Splash]

Its really as easy as asking?

Ive said some really mean things to them and the whole thing. (Creation)

Even after apology and love, is it really still easy for me you think?  I am really asking.  I often feel like I'm not alone in a negative way, but i see that is just my perspective.

I wish one of them would literally materialize but i understood that is Their Free Will and not just mine.

yes

if your request is genuine, respectful and openhearted
(which is the right energy for our mind/body/spirit complex to be in to make the request)

basically: if we really want them with us (actively) we just need to request that.


Their love is completely unconditional

They are massive and complete reservoirs of LOVE/LIGHT

we can't 'hurt' Them

They understand, love, and are devoted to us in a way that automatically sees through any superficial human personality behaviours

we are so Loved it is beyond imagining or understanding

Their compassion for what we endure here in earthly life is massive

Their love for us is absolute and unconditional


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*re: "materialize" - as Their "vibratory rate" is so 'fast'... they can only slow it down to a certain (maximum) extent (to be perceived by 3D)... so we contribute by speeding up our vibratory rate - which then meets with their slowing theirs down.... and this is how they are seen/felt/heard or 'sensed'.

so it's not that they can 'actually' "materialize" in 3D....  but that we develop our perceptual capacities to perceive them...

as in - they are already perceivable.. the 'issue' is where our development of our extra -sensory-perception is at...*

(*nb: this is from my experience.. this may not be everyone's Truth.)


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(I got a 'message' that you wish to become more transparent to yourself, and that you yearn for the manifesting of beauty and intense Grace in this world.

This is something you can "materialize" if you commit to loving yourself and believing in your own power, beauty and capacity to spread Light.)

^j^

[Minyatur]

Its really as easy as asking?

Ive said some really mean things to them and the whole thing. (Creation)

Even after apology and love, is it really still easy for me you think?  I am really asking.  I often feel like I'm not alone in a negative way, but i see that is just my perspective.

I wish one of them would literally materialize but i understood that is Their Free Will and not just mine.

Go look at the list Tanner made of positive entities and seek one that resonate a lot. I would say the entity you find is probably already your guide.

At that point what I did, is to tell my guide that he is free to interact with me when he thinks it is worth and that I acknowledge his presence. 

Since then, a lot of questions I ask myself do get very quick answers in my mind. My guide has mostly tried to uplift me to this point.

[VanAlioSaldo]

Its really as easy as asking?

Ive said some really mean things to them and the whole thing. (Creation)

Even after apology and love, is it really still easy for me you think?  I am really asking.  I often feel like I'm not alone in a negative way, but i see that is just my perspective.

I wish one of them would literally materialize but i understood that is Their Free Will and not just mine.

Go look at the list Tanner made of positive entities and seek one that resonate a lot. I would say the entity you find is probably already your guide.

At that point what I did, is to tell my guide that he is free to interact with me when he thinks it is worth and that I acknowledge his presence. 

Since then, a lot of questions I ask myself do get very quick answers in my mind. My guide has mostly tried to uplift me to this point.

This.  Just. Explained...  So much for me.  I did that, the giving complete permission to my guides.  I may need to renew that in light of that hell experience.  I was pretty fierce at everything at that time, said very mean things that I'll judge myself for.  Even if i feel its all already forgiven...

I just seriously thought I could take it, then it happened in my mind and yeah.  Nooooo.

Its really as easy as asking?

Ive said some really mean things to them and the whole thing. (Creation)

Even after apology and love, is it really still easy for me you think?  I am really asking.  I often feel like I'm not alone in a negative way, but i see that is just my perspective.

I wish one of them would literally materialize but i understood that is Their Free Will and not just mine.

yes

if your request is genuine, respectful and openhearted
(which is the right energy for our mind/body/spirit complex to be in to make the request)

basically: if we really want them with us (actively) we just need to request that.


Their love is completely unconditional

They are massive and complete reservoirs of LOVE/LIGHT

we can't 'hurt' Them

They understand, love, and are devoted to us in a way that automatically sees through any superficial human personality behaviours

we are so Loved it is beyond imagining or understanding

Their compassion for what we endure here in earthly life is massive

Their love for us is absolute and unconditional


~~~~~~~~~~


*re: "materialize" - as Their "vibratory rate" is so 'fast'... they can only slow it down to a certain (maximum) extent (to be perceived by 3D)... so we contribute by speeding up our vibratory rate - which then meets with their slowing theirs down.... and this is how they are seen/felt/heard or 'sensed'.

so it's not that they can 'actually' "materialize" in 3D....  but that we develop our perceptual capacities to perceive them...

as in - they are already perceivable.. the 'issue' is where our development of our extra -sensory-perception is at...*

(*nb: this is from my experience.. this may not be everyone's Truth.)


~~~~~~~~~


(I got a 'message' that you wish to become more transparent to yourself, and that you yearn for the manifesting of beauty and intense Grace in this world.

This is something you can "materialize" if you commit to loving yourself and believing in your own power, beauty and capacity to spread Light.)

^j^

That vibratory explanation was purrfect Splash, I saw exactly what you meant.

Its funny though.  I am beyond sure they forgave me.  Its me feeling bad i tried at all that gets me.  I dont want to say mean things to my guides, i more wish i could hug them.  So when i did...or after... Just really hurt myself realizing what i said.

Regarding the 'message', Why was the message in quotes?  It implies it wasn't exactly a message which makes my curiosity go -WHY- haha

You had me until intense Grace...Then had me again.  Can you specify what you think the message meant by intense grace?

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OP: --->

I've never been told that I have any entities at all around me, except for what I have read.
It makes me feel so alone.

Well I'm telling you now.  You absolutely 100% have at least 1 Spirit Guide.  But I think you have AT LEAST 3.  If  not because of the Ra Material then because you haven't gone mad permanently, committed suicide, outright given up on everyone.  Your pet is still with you.  You have blessings that are quite quiet, but behind the noise of sorrow so you might need to take up arms with the Archetypes and consider the Magician if you will.

You are not alone, but until you can tell yourself that, you wont feel it to strongly.  Try to see the small good little things.  Do you love a room or item in a room?  That a small blessing.  Do you love shows? Those are blessings.  But no one ever puts it together.  You love a room.  An item.  Others.  You love certain things others may not.

Focus on the Love.  Talk to your guides if not outloud then mentally.   Ask them to help you have faith.  BUT GIVE THEM PERMISSION. And if you revoke it, you need to reprovide it in my opinion, for personal belief reasons.

But There is NO WAY you or I are completely alone without Guides or Spiritual Friends.  It just can't be.  We would've ended it all without that unnoticed support across our lives.  Or i know i would've.

[AnthroHeart]

I don't want to be so negative, even when I feel it. The world doesn't need to hear my problems. I guess my guides do. They have kept me from going mad, I'm sure.

[VanAlioSaldo]

A good start is to think or wonder deeply what the 'Total Opposite' of your current negativity is.

If youre scared to look at the total opposite, then start small. Don't try to reconcile The World. Start a few gradients lower with Your Thoughts and Feelings, peer at your total self and wonder its opposite. Peer at others and do so. When you are comfortable with it, then look at the world.

If the problem is inside of you and IS the world. Perhaps your lessons are more advanced than youre aware of. Which simply means you're much stronger than you believe. You just need to finally see it, without others pushing you through the door to do so.

Do you have a lot of guilt and shame towards your self, Gemini?

[Minyatur]

Its really as easy as asking?

Ive said some really mean things to them and the whole thing. (Creation)

Even after apology and love, is it really still easy for me you think?  I am really asking.  I often feel like I'm not alone in a negative way, but i see that is just my perspective.

I wish one of them would literally materialize but i understood that is Their Free Will and not just mine.

Go look at the list Tanner made of positive entities and seek one that resonate a lot. I would say the entity you find is probably already your guide.

At that point what I did, is to tell my guide that he is free to interact with me when he thinks it is worth and that I acknowledge his presence. 

Since then, a lot of questions I ask myself do get very quick answers in my mind. My guide has mostly tried to uplift me to this point.

This.  Just. Explained...  So much for me.  I did that, the giving complete permission to my guides.  I may need to renew that in light of that hell experience.  I was pretty fierce at everything at that time, said very mean things that I'll judge myself for.  Even if i feel its all already forgiven...

I just seriously thought I could take it, then it happened in my mind and yeah.  Nooooo. 

I did that so many time while having someone work my energy field while on psychedelic drugs.

Go for it.... NONONONONOO.....Ok go for it....NOOOOOO...(repeat)

What I told you about guides is something I did yesterday. Unlike you though, I did this with only one non-incarnated guide.

[Minyatur]

Seriously STO beings are so silly with their permission thing.

You actually have to figure out that you need to give them permission...

[Splash]

("Regarding the 'message', Why was the message in quotes? It implies it wasn't exactly a message which makes my curiosity go -WHY- haha

You had me until intense Grace...Then had me again. Can you specify what you think the message meant by intense grace?")



It was what I 'got' (felt/heard/sensed) in my mind during replying to you... see if you can sit with the energy within the words/sentence and you may get the overall meaning transmitted to you that way...

I am just the messenger for these words... sit with them awhile... they're words for you

[Minyatur]

("Regarding the 'message', Why was the message in quotes?  It implies it wasn't exactly a message which makes my curiosity go -WHY- haha

You had me until intense Grace...Then had me again.  Can you specify what you think the message meant by intense grace?")



It was what I 'got' (felt/heard/sensed) in my mind during replying to you... see if you can sit with the energy within the words/sentence and you may get the overall meaning transmitted to you that way...

I am just the messenger for these words... sit with them awhile... they're words for you

It's hard to be a messenger, people expect the messenger to have it all when he only get clues for the receiver to work with.

[AnthroHeart]

A good start is to think or wonder deeply what the 'Total Opposite' of your current negativity is.

If youre scared to look at the total opposite, then start small.  Don't try to reconcile The World.  Start a few gradients lower with Your Thoughts and Feelings, peer at your total self and wonder its opposite.  Peer at others and do so.  When you are comfortable with it, then look at the world.

If the problem is inside of you and IS the world.   Perhaps your lessons are more advanced than youre aware of.  Which simply means you're much stronger than you believe.  You just need to finally see it, without others pushing you through the door to do so.

Do you have a lot of guilt and shame towards your self, Gemini?

I don't have guilt and shame towards myself. It feels like a chemical imbalance in me, making me all anxious and stuff.

[Minyatur]

A good start is to think or wonder deeply what the 'Total Opposite' of your current negativity is.

If youre scared to look at the total opposite, then start small.  Don't try to reconcile The World.  Start a few gradients lower with Your Thoughts and Feelings, peer at your total self and wonder its opposite.  Peer at others and do so.  When you are comfortable with it, then look at the world.

If the problem is inside of you and IS the world.   Perhaps your lessons are more advanced than youre aware of.  Which simply means you're much stronger than you believe.  You just need to finally see it, without others pushing you through the door to do so.

Do you have a lot of guilt and shame towards your self, Gemini?

I don't have guilt and shame towards myself. It feels like a chemical imbalance in me, making me all anxious and stuff.

You need to find the root of it, but to find the root you need to stop using your mind.

What I would think is that your current look at your environement is dissonant with your true self.

One exercice I'd suggest you is to ponder why you (a STO entity) would wish to incarnate next to someone as negative as your mother. I do think I figured out why, but I do think when you'll find the answer yourself to this question you will find yourself and things will become much clearer and easier for you.

If you want a tip, I can give you a very meaningful one to change your perspective, but it is probably more meaningful for you to find it yourself.

[AnthroHeart]

I feel the way I can change things can't be said in words.

[Minyatur]

I feel the way I can change things can't be said in words.

Want my tip? I do want to give it to you haha.

It is yours to do what you want with it afterwards. The tip is to help you know yourself, it's not about telling you to do something.

Edit : The word I was looking for was "hint" not "tip".

If you don't want it now, you can PM anytime to know what I wanted to tell you.

[VanAlioSaldo]

I feel the way I can change things can't be said in words.

A schizophrenic, an autistic, and a crazy person walk into a Bar. The Bartender quit.
A poet, a writer, and a philosopher saw everything.

Where there is a Will there is a Way. If you know not the words, speak with your actions.

Thoughts can only do so much here. Sometimes its okay to stop listening to your thoughts and instead live in action.
Painting. Drawing. Walking. Jogging. A hobby. Something that isn't on a tv screen or makes you disassociate your focus (like me watching Archer). Every one will lose it man, if they don't stop listening to the thoughts in their head's when the thoughts stop listening to you. If you cant meditate. Skygaze. Star gaze. Read. Draw. Write sweet-nothings. But do something for yourself to help aid your brain.

(This applies to anyone, the Alpha Brain Wave state is a very healing and regenerative frequency. Theta is possible when gazing at <insert anything but a really bright freakin light here> )

Gemini, is it hard putting into words how you feel sometimes? Its odd saying there's no words for how you can change things.