A call for help.

[Fastidious Emanations]

The highly polarized entity is far more likely to switch polarities, and does so with a much greater ease, this is due to the sensitivity gained by such potential difference I think. Therefore, maybe note that it would be very 'normal' for a positive adept to be constantly harassed by negative attention. But also realize that when remaining steadfast and pious in one's faith (and like Icaro said, harmonize as a group) that these friends of ours actually become depolarized by unsuccessful attempts and have to either flee and recuperate, or change tactics. You of all should be able to see right through the 'darkness', and realize the light within all beings. 'They' just want to be separate, no big deal, if that is not what you want, then join. Join, join join and enjoy and be joyous!
Also, they are not attacking you. They are attacking your cause, it is the intent to help un-distort the planetary consciousness to a more balanced state that attracts the 'separatist's' attention. This can be a very clever game, especially for the 6D Wanderer, as the 3D consciousness is susceptible to aggrandizement by the 'godly' indigo-ray. For example, apparently much work was done to block the instrument's indigo-ray activity specifically during contact, and force the heart to be far too brilliant resulting in an off balance between love and wisdom/faith.
In an infinite universe, why should one ever needs worry? Yay, more friends!

[Melissa]

Adonai, I've been trying to avoid asking how you and vervex are doing because I didn't want to seem nosey, lol.
But.. how are you two doing? Are you all settled in yet?

[reeay]

We each work from our own assessment/identification of what we think *is* the problem (i.e., external attack). We use appropriate solution based on assessment of problem (i.e., using protection/magic to counter external threat). When attempted solution does not work & problems persist or exacerbates, we could step back and re-assess problem. Then perhaps adjust course by framing problem in new ways and using new ways to resolve problem... Or we may continue using solution even if it doesn't seem to improve situation, if that's our personal choice.

There is a discrepancy between how others view your issue (that it is internal & pertaining to lower rays) and your assessment of the problem (that it is external & pertaining to higher rays). Perhaps both may be aspects of the problem. Each of our assessment of the problem may be aspect of the larger terraine here.

I think either side of the spectrum - totally accepting and totally rejecting something may be an imbalance. Why reject something so adamantly? Why accept one explanation so adamantly?

[Adonai One]

I have analyzed all of my chakras. All of them except my orange chakra are at near positive totality. My orange chakra is only at 1/3 capacity or under in regards to radiation. The causes of this are simply a semi-concious desire to overcome and control emotions and desires at an early age. This leads to a huge bottleneck going into yellow-ray.

This alone will not cause the issues I am experiencing. I have talked out most of my personal issues with my fiancee. They do not go beyond basic control of my self-expression. This will not lead to the physical symptoms I am experiencing. I am not actively rejecting catalyst in my life beyond my lack of ability to accept my own emotions at an unconcious level. I happily accept what comes in my life and have maintained a sufficiently high polarity because of it.

I am actively protesting suggestions made in this thread because there is a strong implication I lack intelligence and self-awareness. It is implied that I am incapable of handling the catalyst of daily life and that I am incompetent and immature in this regard. This is not the case. I have simply neglected my self-expression and reduced it to a machine-like, nihilistic state. Despite this, I have retained an open heart. I am not truly stressed but rather emotionless in my internal self-resistance which can lead to instability when emotion is expressed.

I feel I have been judged with smug self-assurance and finality, partially and in full. This is reasonable given the unlikely probability of my situation.

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Adonai, I've been trying to avoid asking how you and vervex are doing because I didn't want to seem nosey, lol.
But.. how are you two doing? Are you all settled in yet?

We are laughing at how probably a good portion of you guys think our relationship is strained because of the angsty stuff I post on here. We're more than settled-in. Our relationship grows daily.

[xise]

I have analyzed all of my chakras. All of them except my orange chakra are at near positive totality. My orange chakra is only at 1/3 capacity or under in regards to radiation. The causes of this are simply a semi-concious desire to overcome and control emotions and desires at an early age. This leads to a huge bottleneck going into yellow-ray.

I just want to share my experience which may or may not be applicable to you.

I find that the energy flowing through one's chakra's are not a mechanical, fixed quantity (perhaps as we approach infinite crystallization the energy flowing remains constant). In any given moment, my chakras are always in a constant state of flux. Less flux since I am becoming more and more crystalized, but in a state of flux regardless. Thus as a random example, my chakras are in a significantly different state temporarily when I do something horribly embarrassing in front of my friends, than when I am peacefully meditating at home. Neither situation is a "truer" representation of the state of my chakras. They are both important for balance.

To put forward another analogy, some people are great at playing an instrument when not under pressure. When under the pressure of playing in public, can do very poor due to the stress and pressure. Neither situation separately gives an accurate ability of the person's ability to play a musical instrument - it is both those situations taken together that is important in determining musical ability in my opinion.

Thus, I think I'm very cautious about general statements about my chakras. Most of the time I'm fine, but I still find the temporary fluctuations in my chakras are often related to the issues I have in the moment. I only know this because I can literally feel the energy second to second change when situations and thoughts arise. Perhaps my situation can be applied to others. Perhaps not. But in my personal experience, it is very important to see what chakra issues arise when you are under stress, and not in the best conditions, in order to decide what issues can be better balanced and addressed. Bottom line, if my experience is applicable to you, you need to pay special attention to the state of your chakras when under attack, or when you are otherwise suffering intense catalyst, and use that as the guidepost in balancing.

Much love Manny; you're clearly engaging at all levels with your catalyst. I'm sure you'll eventually find the answer you are looking for.

[Parsons]

IMO, it doesn't matter if the source is external or internal. The solution is exactly the same: treat it like an internal problem and even if the source is external, the 'problem' will resolve itself.

I recently went through a period of time where I had some fairly similar issues. I wasn't sure if the problem was external or internal, but I ended up just taking responsibility for it and treated it as an internal problem. I actually experienced solar plexus symptoms exactly as you describe (it was definitely a negative feeling). I traced the problem back to the source and worked on acceptance of a perceived distortion.

Today, I still have some issues but the problem has cleared itself up roughly 90%.

Sorry I am being so vague about my issue but it isn't in any way related to yours (besides being somewhat related to yellow ray).

I understand from the way you have described it that your problem may be a bit more extreme than mine and I acknowledge that. Understanding that, I still think that treating it like an internal problem and fully owning it is an efficient path to relief from the negative symptoms you are experience.

I will also fully disclose that I also threw up some basic protections/shielding while deeply examining/working on my issue(s), but they were only as a precaution.

[Sacred Fool]

I'm sorry to read of your continuing distress, AO. It's unlikely that anything I can type here could help you directly, but I feel moved to offer what I can. I've been in very disconcerting spiritual positions myself and I can share some general conclusions I've come to along the way.

The most important is this: when ending various levels of developement, I've often felt the loneliness of the seeming absence of my spiritual helpers. Consistently, I've found that the reason for this is that I have been looking laterally (in the familiar ways), but I then needed to look upwards because they were basically beckoning to me to step up to the next level of communion. Therefore, the first possibility is that you simply need to allow yourself to be guided along rather than trying to do it all yourself.

Alternatively, there have been times when I have unconsciously found my way into higher levels and picked up toys (tools) with which I was not not ready to play. At the time I was working with a skilled psychic who guided me to relinquish these symbols of power (the analogy was a child fooling with a loaded pistol) in exchange for blessings more appropriate to my then stage of developement. Therefore, you might consider offering back that which is inappropriate for you. it's humbling, but that's not always such bad thing.

Lastly, I cannot help but wonder if your experience is somehow trying to help you understand the quality of your polarity. Your chakras may be this way or that, but your level of commitment to that beyond yourself may not be in alignment with your inner activities, conscious or unconscious. This could be a factor in your vulnerability to repeated negative presentations.

I wish you well in your travels.
~P~

[Parsons]

I have analyzed all of my chakras. All of them except my orange chakra are at near positive totality. My orange chakra is only at 1/3 capacity or under in regards to radiation. The causes of this are simply a semi-concious desire to overcome and control emotions and desires at an early age. This leads to a huge bottleneck going into yellow-ray.

This alone will not cause the issues I am experiencing. I have talked out most of my personal issues with my fiancee. They do not go beyond basic control of my self-expression. This will not lead to the physical symptoms I am experiencing. I am not actively rejecting catalyst in my life beyond my lack of ability to accept my own emotions at an unconcious level. I happily accept what comes in my life and have maintained a sufficiently high polarity because of it.

I am actively protesting suggestions made in this thread because there is a strong implication I lack intelligence and self-awareness. It is implied that I am incapable of handling the catalyst of daily life and that I am incompetent and immature in this regard. This is not the case. I have simply neglected my self-expression and reduced it to a machine-like, nihilistic state. Despite this, I have retained an open heart. I am not truly stressed but rather emotionless in my internal self-resistance which can lead to instability when emotion is expressed.

I feel I have been judged with smug self-assurance and finality, partially and in full. This is reasonable given the unlikely probability of my situation.

I understand exactly where you are coming from. I personally have felt exactly the same way about this community in the past.

That is actually a large chunk of the reason why I decided that it made more sense to just ignore determining whether or not a problem was internal or external in origin. I kept getting hung up on that and realized it didn't matter if I could treat the problem the same way irregardless if it was internal or external.

For the record, even the most 'spiritually advanced' individuals will have to balance the lower chakras from time to time. My personal view of the matter is that ALL of us are working through various distortions / catalyst. As soon as you work through some catalyst and genuinely 'fix' a distortion that is causing 'negative' catalyst, your higher self will start focusing on another issue and start throwing repeating, ever intensifying catalyst at you for the new issue.

I know you are probably intellectually aware of many of these concepts (including the statement I am about to make), so I apologize if I am repeating information you already know. But you can know and understand a concept intellectually and not integrate it into your being. I have been burned by this several times since awakening, including recently. I have even had concepts that I thought I had fully/properly integrated come back to haunt me because I started unconsciously moving back towards familiar behavior patterns.

This may all sound like a nice way of saying "you're projecting internal problems on external entities", but I assure I am not. I am saying I have no idea if your problems or my problems are external or internal, but both have the same remedy.

[AnthroHeart]

I never felt like I was attacked by negative entities, but I was fooled by one at one time which I regret at times. I've felt like my mind was expanding out of control, which was scary. Hard to explain how that feels.

[Plenum]

don't forget that the limit of the viewpoint is always at play.

one cannot see one's own limitations.

that is why interacting with others is so valuable.

is there harmony is one's interactions? or discord? that should be a reflection in itself on what you are outputting.

as xise said, one can have clarity in solitude, but as soon as one is exposed to unfamiliar or areas outside one's comfort zone, underlying emotional distresses will be exposed.

things like self-doubt, paranoia, other-people-don't-like-me, I am being persecuted, etc etc all these are reactions to other people's non-acceptance of you.

the biggest acceptance of all is to accept their non-acceptance.

[vervex]

Reading the latest answers to Adonai's post, I've caught myself smiling widely. I am very pleased, even thrilled, by the quality of the advice and help which has been shared. It's so beautiful and grand I find myself compelled to write about a catalyst I am personally facing, hoping that perhaps one of you dear friends will be able to see in this tale something I did not and maybe, just maybe, hint me in the right direction.

So here I go, exposing a bit of myself publicly, a rare occurrence! Since over 2 months, I started noticing a pressure on my back, precisely around the left shoulder blade area, roughly where the heart is. This pressure feels like an astoundingly clear physical touch and I found myself reaching for it several times (I actually still do sometimes), finding nothing physical to account for. It occurred for the first time while I was traveling and when I met Adonai face to face, ah! At first I shrugged it off but, when I realized it wasn't going away, I started worrying a bit. To this day, it still happens every day, several times a day. I remember, when I first started experiencing the sensation, feeling a strong intuition that something which did not belong there dwelled in that area of my body. I meditated on it several times, felt the tingly pressure spreading from the left side of my back to my right during such instances. But no matter how much I meditated, I could never pinpoint the exact cause of the problem. After initially trying to remove it and after experiencing states of emotional veiling (emotions have always been part of my guidance system, so not feeling them threw me a couple of times into momentary inner turmoil), I decided that even though I could seemingly not verify its origin or its function, whether it is truly external or internal, I would treat it with love and acceptance. Every time I feel it, I take the opportunity to send it love/light, whatever it is, and extend that light to all around me, seen and unseen. Since I have started that process, I haven't experienced the strange emotional veiling and I find myself more at peace as well.

This catalyst has been of service even if it brought me much angst initially. I am still curious about any insight you guys might have on this topic. I would like to understand more about this phenomenon in order to treat it more, ah, wisely, assuming such thing is possible and/or offered. In the mean time, I will keep sending love and light to it and wait to be guided towards a solution.

Thank you to all who will read this. I appreciate your support, expressed and silent.

[xise]

Reading the latest answers to Adonai's post, I've caught myself smiling widely. I am very pleased, even thrilled, by the quality of the advice and help which has been shared. It's so beautiful and grand I find myself compelled to write about a catalyst I am personally facing, hoping that perhaps one of you dear friends will be able to see in this tale something I did not and maybe, just maybe, hint me in the right direction.

So here I go, exposing a bit of myself publicly, a rare occurrence! Since over 2 months, I started noticing a pressure on my back, precisely around the left shoulder blade area, roughly where the heart is. This pressure feels like an astoundingly clear physical touch and I found myself reaching for it several times (I actually still do sometimes), finding nothing physical to account for. It occurred for the first time while I was traveling and when I met Adonai face to face, ah! At first I shrugged it off but, when I realized it wasn't going away, I started worrying a bit. To this day, it still happens every day, several times a day. I remember, when I first started experiencing the sensation, feeling a strong intuition that something which did not belong there dwelled in that area of my body. I meditated on it several times, felt the tingly pressure spreading from the left side of my back to my right during such instances. But no matter how much I meditated, I could never pinpoint the exact cause of the problem. After initially trying to remove it and after experiencing states of emotional veiling (emotions have always been part of my guidance system, so not feeling them threw me a couple of times into momentary inner turmoil), I decided that even though I could seemingly not verify its origin or its function, whether it is truly external or internal, I would treat it with love and acceptance. Every time I feel it, I take the opportunity to send it love/light, whatever it is, and extend that light to all around me, seen and unseen. Since I have started that process, I haven't experienced the strange emotional veiling and I find myself more at peace as well.

This catalyst has been of service even if it brought me much angst initially. I am still curious about any insight you guys might have on this topic. I would like to understand more about this phenomenon in order to treat it more, ah, wisely, assuming such thing is possible and/or offered. In the mean time, I will keep sending love and light to it and wait to be guided towards a solution.

Thank you to all who will read this. I appreciate your support, expressed and silent.

Several thoughts:

1) I've experienced energy in those areas generally, but perhaps not in the manner you describe. I personally have experienced sub-heart chakras in the left and right portions of my chest, each with a front and back.

2) I've experienced energy in other areas in the manner you describe, and sometimes thought that it may be an entity.

3) The only time I'm sure I energetically sensed a non-positive entity was in a jail cell (visiting a client); I smelled a strong odor that made me want to vomit; my interpreter nor my client smelled anything; my solar plexus was in overdrive as electricity pumped through it (it felt like it was repelling the entity). I suppose a second time was when Pickle did an energetic cleaning in his early days prior to him removing minor astrals and with the increased sensitivity from his balancing I felt nauseous. He informed me that this was likely a minor astral parasite and that he would remove it. So I guess nausea is usually how I perceive them.

4) I never fully figured out if the lingering sensation I used to feel and still occasionally feel is an entity. I've asked my guidance system and they haven't really pointed anything out. The few times they have pointed out entities through dreams, it was not related to these energy sensations.

5) I'm fairly sure my unfamiliar energetic sensations were probably energy centers opening and flowing more powerfully for the first time and/or getting universal energy from astrological configurations and/or getting energy from guides or other people sending it my way. The lingering energy sensation in the rear top of my head I found out later to be the bindu chakra; the lingering energy sensation at the back of my neck seems to be another chakra related to the throat.

6) I don't experience much overt negative contact, but I do notice what I would characterize as inserted thoughts. I have definitely noticed inserted paranoid thoughts about energy sensations I've felt. (As well as paranoid, fearful, un-accepting inserted thoughts about other things - this is the MO of negative contact I get mostly).

7) Acceptance of all things, but in this case the energetic phenomenon and showering any entities that may or may not be there with love has reduced these worried thoughts about lingering energy sensations (or any other negative contact). You seem to be already doing this.

8) If I had to put my money on things, I'd bet it's new sensations you're feeling in your green ray and sub-green ray centers from being around Manny. All in all, a good thing I'd say

[Unbound]

Have you tried creating a shield around your living space? A sphere of light can be effective, or visualizing your space and body as an empty vessel and allow divine love/light to pour in to it from above or fill from the earth as liquid light and fill up entirely until it is overflowing.

Geometry is a powerful tool, and your problem could perhaps even be alleviated by the use of a simple crystal grid. While these kinds of techniques may not be the ultimate resolution to such a situation they can assist one to remember and feel empowered by the reality being created around them.

Today I tried a technique where I basically asked that a complete form of my physical body be made out of the purest light/love possible and then integrated it with my physical form. This was very useful for dispelling infringements being offered and held in both my inner and outer aura.

Someone once told me that the key to adeptship on the positive path is choosing consistently, now and in every lifetime and self in which and as which you exist to walk in the light and choose the light. Polarization is the gradual process of all of our soul selves becoming aligned as one in being and intention until all aspects of the self dwell under one umbrella of mind, the branches and roots which stem out in to infinity protected by the sturdy unifying trunk.

This trunk is the choice. To choose the light is to look up and within. To choose is to be in a manner that is a way with which work may be done. Work is done when a cycle of infinity is completed which occurs in varying degrees in every moment of occurence that is the one moment. I could go on about this, but I think you get the point aha

My point is, we have to work together! I do not know the details of your discoveries or the intentions in your mind, Immanuel but I know that ultimately you are not so different from myself and yet you are completely unique. Wherever it takes you, I accept and support your free will and bless you as deeply as I am able, for those who seek to climb the most treacherous paths to see the heights of consciousness may make much use of extra light along the way.

I do not understand why each makes the choice the way they do, but I have faith in the Design of the One.

[Adonai One]

ORENRA = Our shield

We experience its effectiveness at varying capacities. Inner planes entities are the main thing holding it up. In my readings and channelings, I am told that its support is a battle of thought.

Vervex has been given much relevant information from her guidance that she remains skeptical of. This is an unusual and extraordinary situation.

She experiences dizziness, lethargy amoung other symptoms that match mine.

If I fight the effects with intense meditation targetted towards my protection, I soon experience great pain. It is very clear these arent minor astrals.

[Melissa]

I think it's wonderful how you both share your experiences here and to read that it has only strengthen your relationship. What a journey!

[AnthroHeart]

I've felt dizziness lately when I lay down my head. Room spinning dizziness that tickles my balls. Feels like I'm on a ride for a couple of seconds. No nausea thank goodness. Though I used to get nauseous. Thankfully I've not had to meet with very dark entities. Maybe I'm not that bright of a light to had to have faced such opposition. I feel like my experiences have been pretty gentle compared with some out there. Though they have been frightening at times, I've tried to respond with kindness. Even when I felt I was directly targeted by Lucifer. Ok, so I said I wasn't targeted by very dark entities. Well in that case it wasn't that bad of an attack. Just making me feel like I was going to get microwaved by the hot sun and him laughing at me over my fear. But in retrospect, I've survived, and it all hasn't been that bad. Even when I thought I was possessed. It was all over soon enough.

[Fang]

Fang, I have nothing to prove. My fiancee would have a more objective view on my mental health anyways. Her personal experiences with my troubles have led her to highly consider my perspective. It has come to the point to where we both are undeniably being targetted by something.

If I am delusional, then so is she. She is grounded online but she has experienced empirical evidence of persistent paranormal phenomenon.

You obviously do have something to prove, otherwise you would not be seeking so much validation for your "progress"/intelligence (the misuse of complex language, terrible logic displayed as superior thinking, displaying base level scientific knowledge as if you were an expert, saying you have progressed "metaphysically" to the point where we should take your word as pure truth). It's not like I haven't experienced weird things, I have actual experience in these things and to be honest what you are going through sounds like a cakewalk ("pain in forehead...my third eye is open and now the questions I ask myself are answered by interdimensional beings who have recognized my greatness!")however the way you are dealing with sounds like that you are trying to run when you can't even crawl. I have tried to help, I now see the/my flaws in trying to do so.

I'm not saying you are delusional but that's becoming a repeated rock for you to cling to for safety because it just elevates the level of communication to absurdity, and in that absurdity you cannot perceive to be insulted. It's childish.

I'm done here, I've had to resort to a childish level of communication just to get my point across to you, I'm a teenager I was expecting some maturity here.

[Patrick]

Fang, I have nothing to prove. My fiancee would have a more objective view on my mental health anyways. Her personal experiences with my troubles have led her to highly consider my perspective. It has come to the point to where we both are undeniably being targetted by something.

If I am delusional, then so is she. She is grounded online but she has experienced empirical evidence of persistent paranormal phenomenon.

I do not believe it is a question of if what you are both experiencing is real or not. It is real, simply because experience is real.

The question is what would be the goal of experiencing this. There is one. This is not an easy catalyst, but the end result will be worth it, I am sure.

But back to the basics my friends, protection is very simple if you wish it to be so.

75.2 ...We may note that the distortion towards love, as you call this spiritual/emotional complex which is felt by each for this entity, will be of aid whether this is expressed or unmanifest as there is no protection greater than love.

63.5 Questioner: I know that you have already answered this question, but I feel it my duty now to ask it each time in case there is some new development, and that is, is there anything that we can do that we aren’t doing to lessen the effectiveness of the psychic attack upon the instrument?

Ra: I am Ra. Continue in love and praise and thanksgiving to the Creator. Examine previous material. Love is the great protector.

64.21 Questioner: Is there anything that we could do to make the instrument more comfortable or improve the contact?

Ra: I am Ra. Continue to consider the alignments. You are conscientious and aware of the means of caring for the instrument in its present distortions having to do with the wrists and hands. As always, love is the greatest protection.

95.24 Questioner: From that statement I interpret the following meaning: That if the Experience of the Mind has sufficiently chosen the right-hand path, as total purity is approached in choosing of the right-hand path, then total imperviousness from the effect of the left-hand catalyst is also approached. Is this correct?

Ra: I am Ra. This is exquisitely perceptive. The seeker which has purely chosen the service-to-others path shall certainly not have a variant apparent incarnational experience. There is no outward shelter in your illusion from the gusts, flurries, and blizzards of quick and cruel catalyst.

However, to the pure, all that is encountered speaks of the love and the light of the One Infinite Creator. The cruelest blow is seen with an ambiance of challenges offered and opportunities to come. Thusly, the great pitch of light is held high above such an one so that all interpretation may be seen to be protected by light.

64.4 Questioner: Thank you. Could you explain the basic principles behind the ritual which we perform to initiate the contact and what I would call the basic white magical rituals— principles of protection and other principles? Could you please do this?

Ra: I am Ra. Due to your avenue of question we perceive the appropriateness of inclusion of the cause of this instrument’s transitory vital energy distortion. The cause is a bias towards the yearning for expression of devotion to the One Creator in group worship.

This entity was yearning for this protection both consciously in that it responds to the accoutrements of this expression, the ritual, the colors and their meanings as given by the distortion system of what you call the church, the song of praise, and the combined prayers of thanksgiving and, most of all, that which may be seen to be most centrally magical, the intake of that food which is not of this dimension but has been transmuted into metaphysical nourishment in what this distortion of expression calls the holy communion.

The subconscious reason, it being the stronger for this yearning was the awareness that such expression is, when appreciated by an entity as the transmutation into the presence of the One Creator, a great protection of the entity as it moves in the path of service to others.

The principle behind any ritual of the white magical nature is to so configure the stimuli which reach down into the trunk of mind that this arrangement causes the generation of disciplined and purified emotion or love which then may be both protection and the key to the gateway to intelligent infinity.

[Unbound]

Secondly, the means of protection against any negative or debilitating influence for those upon the positive path was demonstrated by this instrument to a very great degree. Consider, if you will, the potentials that this particular occurrence had for negative influences to enter the instrument. This instrument thought upon the Creator in its solitude and in actions with other-self, continually praised and gave thanksgiving to the Creator for the experiences it was having. This in turn allowed this particular entity to radiate to the other-self such energies as became a catalyst for an opening and strengthening of the other-self’s ability to function in a more positively polarized state. Thus we see protection being very simple. Give thanksgiving for each moment. See the self and the other-self as Creator. Open the heart. Always know the light and praise it. This is all the protection necessary.