Hi, I'm new here...I learned I was a wanderer over a year ago. My name is Hugh, which means mind, body and spirit. Which no coincidence because I am wanderer. All my life I've felt alienated from others and saw the world differently. But yet people loved me, I didn't understand it. I had to find out why. I couldn't accept things the way they were, I felt things were different but I didn't know why. So I took the spiritual path to find answers...and I was shocked to find what I experienced. I discovered I was a wanderer. That was due to accidentally raising my Kundalini through meditation. My life has been turned upside down since then.
I'd like to say I'm so glad I found this forum...because I these past few days I was going to commit suicide. I was at the end of my rope...I didn't know what to do. I spend so much of my time and energy towards the service of others, that I spread myself so thin. So my financial, social and personal life were the last thing on my mind...but it began to take its toll...as it was a struggle to take care of things in my life. I felt couldn't handle it anymore...I wanted to escape this world...as much as I loved the people around me...the chaos in this world right now seems overwhelming. The deep feeling of alienation and the ignorance of many around me seemed like I wasn't making a difference...I wanted to give up and honestly take my life.
Until I found this forum, I already knew the Law of One in my heart however it was such a difficult task to keep up everything I was doing. Lately I was feeling the extreme polarization of me with the people around me, including my family. I couldn't handle it anymore. A couple days ago I was planning on taking my life. I ran some google searches on suicide at work as a last attempt to save my life...and if I couldn't find anything...I was going to go home after work and end my life...
And then I found a post on this forum....and I read a post by Bring4th_Monica. She said it was easier to love others, which is true...and that she learned how little she loved herself. I after read this, I couldn't believe it...I forgot how to love myself. It was true, I neglected to love who I am, to love myself. Then instantaneously I had a incredible shift in consciousness...this huge wave of energy came over me. It was like a switch was turned on...I was energized, happy and at peace. Instantly I noticed a difference, especially around others. They became different also, energized and happy. At that point I didn't truly know how much of a difference I made. It was a very humbling experience for me. Thank you so much. This has made such a difference in my life and others around me. Thank you again friends.
I'd like to say I'm so glad I found this forum...because I these past few days I was going to commit suicide. I was at the end of my rope...I didn't know what to do. I spend so much of my time and energy towards the service of others, that I spread myself so thin. So my financial, social and personal life were the last thing on my mind...but it began to take its toll...as it was a struggle to take care of things in my life. I felt couldn't handle it anymore...I wanted to escape this world...as much as I loved the people around me...the chaos in this world right now seems overwhelming. The deep feeling of alienation and the ignorance of many around me seemed like I wasn't making a difference...I wanted to give up and honestly take my life.
Until I found this forum, I already knew the Law of One in my heart however it was such a difficult task to keep up everything I was doing. Lately I was feeling the extreme polarization of me with the people around me, including my family. I couldn't handle it anymore. A couple days ago I was planning on taking my life. I ran some google searches on suicide at work as a last attempt to save my life...and if I couldn't find anything...I was going to go home after work and end my life...
And then I found a post on this forum....and I read a post by Bring4th_Monica. She said it was easier to love others, which is true...and that she learned how little she loved herself. I after read this, I couldn't believe it...I forgot how to love myself. It was true, I neglected to love who I am, to love myself. Then instantaneously I had a incredible shift in consciousness...this huge wave of energy came over me. It was like a switch was turned on...I was energized, happy and at peace. Instantly I noticed a difference, especially around others. They became different also, energized and happy. At that point I didn't truly know how much of a difference I made. It was a very humbling experience for me. Thank you so much. This has made such a difference in my life and others around me. Thank you again friends.
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