Your Mystical Experiences Thread

[tamaryn]

Most of my magical work revolves around inner exploration and alchemy, the diffusion and fusion together of the many facets of my consciousness, discovering how it all works together. This is an on-going process. This is done through balancing of opposites on all levels and a constant movement upwards towards what I perceive as the Light in the Void.

You could also say this movement is perhaps more inwards than upwards, but in my mind they are both applicable if applied to a single point. I seek to know this Light to understand the Void and I do this through Love. I understand all magical power to be based in Love, which is the Logos or focus of Intelligent Infinity which appears as Intelligent Energy. To use terms from the Ra Material, of course, as there are many systems of magic and thus magical terms. This I use in seeking myself.

The second part of my work concerns others. I repeat the work upon myself with all others. In particular I am tied to the highs and lows, pains and pleasures of others due to an acute empathy. Much of my work revolves around perspective, substituting my own for others, and seeing from 'higher' states as well as answering calls for aid wherever I am able, although all of this together requires a careful conscientiousness of my energy levels. Everything in the illusion takes energy and/or gives energy for it is energy. I seek to 'fill' people as much as possible, and I often do repair on energy fields of others (only after getting the intuitional 'okay' that I am allowed/abled to do so).

My third work I am less inclined to speak about and concerns the efforts towards polarization of the planet towards Light.

Same brother on that alchemy. And I feel a lot of people on this forum are mad alchemists

[Billy]

I have been feeling like my personality or mind (not sure what to call it) is almost disintegrating and that I have no real past anymore, nor is there any real me.  I have been having reoccurring headaches lately as well, although all of this may be attributable to recently getting off of anti-depression medication.  It is quite scary at times.  All of this may be purely physiological and have no metaphysical aspect to it.  I am not sure what goes where.

[tamaryn]

Oh yes, sounds really rough. I have a close friend in the hospital now coming off SSRIs and methadone and I can only imagine what she is going through.

There is certainly a magical aspect at play you are already completely unaware of. But its really hard not having that stability to depend on, knowing your positive personality in many ways was dependent on the medication for a while. I am currently on a mood stabilizer but I can say it does nothing for the magical things I am privy to. You will learn and slowly grow your positive personality back. I have hope in you!

[Blunt Force]

I find it strange that I did get into white band aids, get dressed into white band aids, get remember how to band aid