Secret Hatreds

[Lighthead]

I would say when you say you hate someone, it seems sad.

Disliking something is sad but it's not like you can help it. It's too bad we have to dislike anything. I hate people that eat babies. & guess what...hate is just another word for dislike or loathe or detest or despise or abhor & etc.

Come on, Isis! Is she really as bad as a gd baby eater? I don't really know her, but I can't say she's as bad as all that.

[Aion]

I really only hate myself.

[Minyatur]

I really only hate myself.

Love you Tanner, I think I may have followed you on this shitty planet I care not about althought I wouldn't have went in your group project.

[Aion]

A leader with no direction is a misleader.

[isis]

[i f*** up.]

[Minyatur]

A leader with no direction is a misleader.

I dislike being pulled in directions by others.

[Aion]

You always choose your own way.

[Plenum]

thanks for letting me know. considering the timing, though, i can't help but think you shared that to be rude.

no, that was my bad communication there.  I had some more stuff I typed as part of that reply, saying how you had helped me during your time here, but I deleted it before posting.  It would have made what I wrote less seemingly rude

you just seemed so intent on leaving, and that you can't share the same space as Shawnna, that I wanted to update you on wanting to delete your account.

[Minyatur]

I really only hate myself.

If I were part of you would you be hating me?

Or would I be hating myself within you?

[Zachary]

Props for sharing this. I think repression/suppression is no good. Finding an appropriate way to express yourself and perhaps even let them know in your own appropriate way how you feel could be good. 

Im the kind of person that feels much better when things are on the table and open regardless of the feelings of disharmony that could follow. Thats how we work through things, by being open and honest with others and ourselves. At the very least finding people to vent with can be highly useful. This doesn't make you "less spiritual" in my eyes and is better than holding in the feelings. Obviously there is a need to balance sharing how you feel and being considerate of the feelings of others but not to the extent of suppressing ones emotions to an extreme. Get it out! Thats my view, anyway. I am open to other viewpoints. It seems like your pretty much over it so thats good...trust me though...many of us have been there/go there. Its only worse when its hidden and not talked about and/or we act like we are/should be immune to such feelings.  

[Minyatur]

In the good old times we would kill each others over such matters resolving issues quite fast, now these times are gone and the issues remain.

[Splash]

*yeah a bummer when you can't kill someone and "the issues remain"...*

*sarcasm btw

[Minyatur]

Indeed, they have to be worked out. Much more complicated.

Don't mind me, I'm just a sideless party saying thrash because I don't have anything better to do with my life.

[Splash]

killing is also complicated.. the issues persist - are repeated in other forms - and feuds can continue down the centuries... it's patriarchy... and it doesn't work either .. an illusion that it does...

disturbing that you think it's an uncomplicated solution....

[Minyatur]

I may be a disturbing man.

[Splash]

lol... I heard the classsic old time "duh duh darrrrr...." movie villain sound when I read this !

[Minyatur]

I'd have no wish to kill anybody, I'm a loving person but I doubt it'd weight on my consciousness if I somehow did so.

[Splash]

hazy fantazy ....me no can give more time to this line of thought.. wishing you well... ciao for now Minyatur

Splash

[mjlabadia]

I've been dealing with a catalyst I didn't even realise the severity of until the last few days.

Plenum, thank you so much for starting this thread, and keeping us aware of your discoveries in helping to process this difficult catalyst.

 I have struggled with this since awakening. Well,..... let's put it this way,.....I no longer have been able to justify it to my self since then,...and it causes me great suffering now.
 All of it,...including that horrible "smoldering burn",....which leaves us having these internal "telling someone off" sessions. Sometimes recurring for years over perceived "offenses".

I wish I had noticed this thread back in February. 

 This problem I feel is a significant "waypoint" for me on my path. The follow up post containing the 7 step exercise looks to be a potential beacon to help me through this constantly recurring catalyst.

The timing of your update was Jungian in it's appearance.

 Thank you Plenum.