I sensed an urge to share with you

[shadowstan]

Hello everybody,

I would like to share my story, or better put main part of the story.

At first I would like to express my gratitude to all of you for being around, helping and sharing.

I am 43, have a wonderful family, my wife is really a caring friend and my two sons 10 and 5 years are wonderful beings.

I was always interested in the big picture of how the things are, why are the way they are and what is my purpose within it. At my early ears I was a kind of doing opposite of what most of the people wa telling me, just for the fun of it to experience that I can do it differently. I was reading a lot of science fiction, paranormal etc.

In my 20-s and early 30-s I was interested in rock climbing and high mountains and climbed peaks in the Alps, Caucasus and Himalayas. Then came paragliding. I feel strong attraction to pure natural environment and I feel well and energised when I am in such environment.

At age of 30 I joined a local machinery engineering company which was set to go international. I started there pushing hard in the business development and sales, giving all my energy and attention to this endeavour. This was my top priority for about ten years, I was successful and company grew and became a leader in it's filed in the world. I travelled to more 35 counties on all continents, met different people and have done business. It was easy for me to meet new people, to understand what there problems are, to see the similarities and to focus on cooperation rather than of differences. However as the company expanded we installed a new organisation and business model. Our personal relations inside the company seems to fade away in aim to reach 'highest professional standards'. I was at managerial position and had hard time to manage people and processes the right was as it was different than the way my innermost being wanted the things to be. I was kind of obsessed with the work with questions like am I performing right, could I do better which led to I am not good enough etc. Gradually I felt worse and worse and resigned from the management still working well with major accounts of the company. The situation around me was getting more and more formal and the human relationships were not a priority. I blamed strongly myself for not being able to cope with the reality around me. I visited shrinks few times but quickly realised that they can not help me because they themselves do not know how to. So after many inner struggles I quit after almost 12 years without having an idea what will do and how will support my family.

I had a lots of free time to focus on thinks I was attracted to like researching spiritual, esoteric, psychology, new technology areas. Several months after I quit the company I was diagnosed a scary disease confirmed by three specialists. The traditional approach would not give guarantees that can handle this however the therapy suggested was harsh and not holistic in any way. I decided that will not go this way although this is the traditional way. I realised with the help of many books, movies and interviews that I am responsible for my condition, and actually for all the circumstances in my life. I took the alternative way with the support of my wife, changed my diet and way of life dramatically, used reflexotherapy, acupuncture, supplements etc. A year later I feel well and healthy, no expansion of the symptoms.

Thinking about all this today I am thankful to the people and circumstances that gave me so much hard time. I am even thankful to the 'disease that happen to me' as I believe it came as catalyst to foster my personal growth and evolution.

I still have hard time to support my family but have found a huge inner expansion of my being. I have faith that whatever happens is good for my evolution, which is the purpose of the whole exercise/ game. I came across Ra materials just few months ago but I was completely ready for it and it resonated with me so deep.

The whol story is know to my wife only, I did not share the details even with friends because I thought they will not benefit anything from it.

I sensed an urge to share it with you and just did it.

Thank you once again and hope to be around with you in this most interesting and challenging times we live in.

Namaste.

[Ashim]

What a beautiful story shadowstan, thanks for sharing.
I could do some cutting and pasting and use much of what you wrote for my own story! I think many of us here vibrate at the same rate due to our life experiences and insights. Are you a healer ? You certainly managed to heal yourself.

Love & Light

[transiten]

Hello shadowstan

Thankyou for sharing your experience and I can truly identify with your perspective, being grateful for the pple giving me "a hard time" and also for the following disease propelling me into the search for a deeper understanding. I can tell you the play of opposites and the overall theme of my life is repeating itself at the moment and i really make an effort to see the catalyst as an opportunity to turn the challenge around in every step i take.

transiten

[shadowstan]

What a beautiful story shadowstan, thanks for sharing.
I could do some cutting and pasting and use much of what you wrote for my own story! I think many of us here vibrate at the same rate due to our life experiences and insights. Are you a healer ? You certainly managed to heal yourself.

Love & Light

Hi Ashim, thank you for your kind reply. My healing experience is limited to myself for the time being. Whether I am successful the future will tell. My understanding is that one should allow the healing to happen as it is the most natural state of the human beings. I found a lot of truth and help for me in the materials of Deepak Chopra, Louise Hay, Bruce Lipton, Candace Pert, medical books and Ra of course. It was an opportunity for me to go beyond intellectual understandings and acceptance into physical, emotional and psychological experience. As I am writing it just came to my mind - when I made the first blood test with tumour markers it was Friday 13th, I saw it printed on the lab report that I personally received. I was calm and kind of knowing that all will be okay, the test results were negative (good news) and I thanked many times to the force or creator or god or the big one for the 'sign' Friday 13th.

Be well,

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Hello shadowstan

Thankyou for sharing your experience and I can truly identify with your perspective, being grateful for the pple giving me "a hard time" and also for the following disease propelling me into the search for a deeper understanding. I can tell you the play of opposites and the overall theme of my life is repeating itself at the moment and i really make an effort to see the catalyst as an opportunity to turn the challenge around in every step i take.

transiten

Hello transiten, thank you for your reply. Yes, it is not easy to see beyond the difficulties, bad news, injustice, but hey, the stakes are high in this game, right!

What I find very helpful in dealing with the issues of the day is this from Q'uo:

"Faith, on the other hand, has no content. It contains no knowledge. It is an attitude. It is the attitude that knows beyond doubt, regardless of the circumstances, that all is well. And the entity who is living a life in faith cannot be daunted by circumstance. Faith is an attitude which assumes that the infinite Creator, the higher self, and that self which planned this incarnation before taking flesh have provided ample opportunities for learning and for service.

Sometimes involved in learning is suffering. Sometimes there is sorrow and pain. Yet one living a life in faith knows that that which is happening is perfect. It is precisely what is needed to advance spiritually and to be of service. Consequently, such an entity cooperates and harmonizes with circumstance and allows creativity and imagination to play a part in the flowing forward of events."

Wish you well,

[haqiqu]

Hello shadowstan! Thanks for sharing your story with us and thanks for being here. I believe the more we know each other the stronger our energy sharing will be. ;->

[Questioner]

Thank you for coming to share your story with us, Stan. I'm so glad you did!

I would like to learn more about the concepts and habits that helped turn around your health.

Your business situation resonates very much with me!

What made you a success at business development? It looks to me that in this role, you found people around the world who could benefit from the company's engineering works. You created relationships with these people. These were relationships based a solid foundation of respectful equality and service. With you, they truly had a friend for the business.

You helped your customers to select and use the right products and services for them. Perhaps you also provided the company's product developers with insights into which features would be most helpful to include in their next designs.

You were a bridge between the engineering skills inside the company, and the results obtained by the customers outside the company. You might have spent as many days each year outside the company as within it. You enjoyed the similarities of human nature amid the diversity of the world's cultures.

Sounds like you loved it, and were great at it.

What did the company eventually desire from internal operational management? The purpose of this role was to focus inside the company on building or supporting what other people defined & sold. To find people who could perform a predefined process. To enforce the rules of process on them. To focus inside the company and let other people handle the connection with the external world.

And probably, though not allowed to be said, there was a hidden agenda as well: to have relationships downward based on hierarchical control regardless of employees' unique talents or personalities. And to have relationships upward based on making bosses look good no matter what. To pretend that nothing but the self-centered "corporate culture" existed or had any value.

People below got put into a box, people above got put on pedestals. Neither box nor pedestal has much to do with the loving heart of service that made customers appreciate you so much.

Somewhere at the top of the company, the priorities had changed. Instead of finding new mountains to scale, they wanted to turn base camp into a walled city. They stopped respecting the importance of their mountain guide who helped them find new paths to the summit.

They tried to turn their mountain guide into a local cop. Why should it have surprised anyone that the same person might not be brilliant in both roles?

Today as you take care of your health, you might not be able to work full time for one company, or to travel very much. But there is still hope for your career. The same skills and love you used in your business development role are very important to many other companies.

The good news about all of this is that you could probably be a business development consultant to other companies, on a part-time basis.

For other companies that are run with a positive, service-oriented attitude, you could help them to define their market position, to train their account reps, or to develop the product roadmap. These are all ways you could serve through short-term projects. If you can find companies who are just learning how to climb the next hill, your mountain guide experience could be so valuable to them.

To use your previous knowledge, this could be engineering companies, or could be companies involved in outdoor adventures (such as paraglider manufacturers). Or it could be any company that already knows their specialty, but that needs your transferable skills of empathy and insight. If you had a modest fee plus a commission on the company's growth from your work, you might even end up getting better paid than ever before. Perhaps you could work with angel investors and be their designated board member on the companies they fund, helping to set their strategic direction. If you could travel some, perhaps you could go with clients to trade shows and help them develop business relationships with many other companies in a short time.

In my own life, I have some excellent skills that were well received when I got to work in an environment of innovation and harmony. Those skills eventually got me into other jobs where the real agendas were to build empires, pass blame, and pretend that this was the only way to deal with technology. Guess what, I didn't fit in very well there!

Because of some major health issues, I'm now studying how to make just the kind of transition I described to you. I'm not there yet, but I have found some very promising ways to think about all this and I'm confident I will get there! If there is anything I can do to pass along what I'm learning, or to inspire and cheer you on, I'd be honored to do so!

[Brittany]

It's awesome that you had the courage to pursue a new lifestyle, even when you had no idea where it would lead you. I, too, gave up on the shrinks. They think there is a pill for every unhappiness, not realizing that the pills started a lot of the unhappiness to begin with. Your story inspires me, as I often have trouble just letting go and believing that "all will be well." Thanks for plowing ahead into uncharted territory!

[shadowstan]

Thank you for coming to share your story with us, Stan. I'm so glad you did!

I would like to learn more about the concepts and habits that helped turn around your health.

Your business situation resonates very much with me!

What made you a success at business development? It looks to me that in this role, you found people around the world who could benefit from the company's engineering works. You created relationships with these people. These were relationships based a solid foundation of respectful equality and service. With you, they truly had a friend for the business.

You helped your customers to select and use the right products and services for them. Perhaps you also provided the company's product developers with insights into which features would be most helpful to include in their next designs.

You were a bridge between the engineering skills inside the company, and the results obtained by the customers outside the company. You might have spent as many days each year outside the company as within it. You enjoyed the similarities of human nature amid the diversity of the world's cultures.

Sounds like you loved it, and were great at it.

What did the company eventually desire from internal operational management? The purpose of this role was to focus inside the company on building or supporting what other people defined & sold. To find people who could perform a predefined process. To enforce the rules of process on them. To focus inside the company and let other people handle the connection with the external world.

And probably, though not allowed to be said, there was a hidden agenda as well: to have relationships downward based on hierarchical control regardless of employees' unique talents or personalities. And to have relationships upward based on making bosses look good no matter what. To pretend that nothing but the self-centered "corporate culture" existed or had any value.

People below got put into a box, people above got put on pedestals. Neither box nor pedestal has much to do with the loving heart of service that made customers appreciate you so much.

Somewhere at the top of the company, the priorities had changed. Instead of finding new mountains to scale, they wanted to turn base camp into a walled city. They stopped respecting the importance of their mountain guide who helped them find new paths to the summit.

They tried to turn their mountain guide into a local cop. Why should it have surprised anyone that the same person might not be brilliant in both roles?

Today as you take care of your health, you might not be able to work full time for one company, or to travel very much. But there is still hope for your career. The same skills and love you used in your business development role are very important to many other companies.

The good news about all of this is that you could probably be a business development consultant to other companies, on a part-time basis.

For other companies that are run with a positive, service-oriented attitude, you could help them to define their market position, to train their account reps, or to develop the product roadmap. These are all ways you could serve through short-term projects. If you can find companies who are just learning how to climb the next hill, your mountain guide experience could be so valuable to them.

To use your previous knowledge, this could be engineering companies, or could be companies involved in outdoor adventures (such as paraglider manufacturers). Or it could be any company that already knows their specialty, but that needs your transferable skills of empathy and insight. If you had a modest fee plus a commission on the company's growth from your work, you might even end up getting better paid than ever before. Perhaps you could work with angel investors and be their designated board member on the companies they fund, helping to set their strategic direction. If you could travel some, perhaps you could go with clients to trade shows and help them develop business relationships with many other companies in a short time.

In my own life, I have some excellent skills that were well received when I got to work in an environment of innovation and harmony. Those skills eventually got me into other jobs where the real agendas were to build empires, pass blame, and pretend that this was the only way to deal with technology. Guess what, I didn't fit in very well there!

Because of some major health issues, I'm now studying how to make just the kind of transition I described to you. I'm not there yet, but I have found some very promising ways to think about all this and I'm confident I will get there! If there is anything I can do to pass along what I'm learning, or to inspire and cheer you on, I'd be honored to do so!

Hi Questioner, thank you for sharing your thoughts. It seems you are walking similar path to the one I described. Please let me know what specificaly you want to know about my healing experience.
Concerning business situation I appreciate your ideas and I had similar ones. What is different in my situation is that I am based in Eastern Europe and the consultancy here is not well developed yet, or is generally associated with 'someone who tells you the things you already know and you have to pay him for this'. Anyway, I know I will find my way. I am confident you will do also.
Thank you again and will keep you posted for any significant developments.

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It's awesome that you had the courage to pursue a new lifestyle, even when you had no idea where it would lead you. I, too, gave up on the shrinks. They think there is a pill for every unhappiness, not realizing that the pills started a lot of the unhappiness to begin with. Your story inspires me, as I often have trouble just letting go and believing that "all will be well." Thanks for plowing ahead into uncharted territory!

Hi, anktu. Thank you for your reply. You know I also have difficulties to walk the talk that all is well. But we are here because we still have to learn and improve on some things. I think this is the right way and do not expect to be very easy. What I find of help is sharing and discussing issues like this. Actually this is something new to me and I thank you for being around.

[Questioner]

Please let me know what specificaly you want to know about my healing experience.

Well, pretty much everything!

I guess I'll start with this: What changes did you make with nutrition? Did you have to use trial and error until you found what worked for you?

What I find of help is sharing and discussing issues like this. Actually this is something new to me and I thank you for being around.

This forum is a wonderful blessing.

I'll also have some more business ideas for you soon, now that I know a bit more about your situation.

[shadowstan]

Please let me know what specificaly you want to know about my healing experience.

Well, pretty much everything!

I guess I'll start with this: What changes did you make with nutrition? Did you have to use trial and error until you found what worked for you?

Changes I made immediately (seems I had high motivation to survive):
Stop feeding toxins - alchohol, nicotine, packed/ canned/ prefabricated stuff, acid foods - sweets, meat, white flour etc.
Put into the body life supporting stuff - water, various teas, fresh food - vegetables, fruits, grains, nuts etc. Supplements - mainly Cat's claw, Flax oil, Spirulina. For about two months I lost about 10% of my body weight, I am now 70 kgs and feel fit and light. Walks and exercises. I think mental attitude is of paramaount importance, but that is another topic.

What I find of help is sharing and discussing issues like this. Actually this is something new to me and I thank you for being around.

This forum is a wonderful blessing.

I'll also have some more business ideas for you soon, now that I know a bit more about your situation.

I look forward with interest, thank you.

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I am messing up Quotes and replys, sorry, still learning.

[Questioner]

Thanks Stan! We are already on the same page for nutrition, except that I don't know what "cat's claw" is. I just put a nutrition topic into the Science forum here to find out what helps others without taking over your thread here too much.

What made the difference for you about mental attitude?

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About quotes:

I started with online discussions back in the days of dial-up BBS's. All of this is pretty much automatic for me now.

If I have a long post I'll usually click Reply, select all and copy from the online editor to a separate text editor program on my computer. Then I cut and paste whatever parts I want. I save as I go so I don't lose anything if there's an Internet outage or I accidentally close the browser.

If it's difficult concepts for me to understand or to express, I may let them sit around in that text file for a while while I try out different approaches. I have a couple of drafts that are weeks old because I haven't yet found a good way to put ideas into words. Fortunately this forum mostly discusses eternity so there is no rush to publish.

If I know just what I want to say here, then once I click Reply and the system gives me the quote, I'll go to the top of the text edit window. I'll put several blank lines and an unusual character such as a backslash. \

Then I'll type my response, and cut & paste whatever quotes I want into the top. When I'm done, I take out the backslash and the rest of the original quote.

Just like driving, after a while you don't have to think about the technique all the time.

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Business notes should be ready for you within a day or two, I don't know if I'll be able to get them prepared today.

[thefool]

Hello everybody,

I would like to share my story, or better put main part of the story.

At first I would like to express my gratitude to all of you for being around, helping and sharing.

I am 43, have a wonderful family, my wife is really a caring friend and my two sons 10 and 5 years are wonderful beings.

I was always interested in the big picture of how the things are, why are the way they are and what is my purpose within it. At my early ears I was a kind of doing opposite of what most of the people wa telling me, just for the fun of it to experience that I can do it differently. I was reading a lot of science fiction, paranormal etc.

In my 20-s and early 30-s I was interested in rock climbing and high mountains and climbed peaks in the Alps, Caucasus and Himalayas. Then came paragliding. I feel strong attraction to pure natural environment and I feel well and energised when I am in such environment.

At age of 30 I joined a local machinery engineering company which was set to go international. I started there pushing hard in the business development and sales, giving all my energy and attention to this endeavour. This was my top priority for about ten years, I was successful and company grew and became a leader in it's filed in the world. I travelled to more 35 counties on all continents, met different people and have done business. It was easy for me to meet new people, to understand what there problems are, to see the similarities and to focus on cooperation rather than of differences. However as the company expanded we installed a new organisation and business model. Our personal relations inside the company seems to fade away in aim to reach 'highest professional standards'. I was at managerial position and had hard time to manage people and processes the right was as it was different than the way my innermost being wanted the things to be. I was kind of obsessed with the work with questions like am I performing right, could I do better which led to I am not good enough etc. Gradually I felt worse and worse and resigned from the management still working well with major accounts of the company. The situation around me was getting more and more formal and the human relationships were not a priority. I blamed strongly myself for not being able to cope with the reality around me. I visited shrinks few times but quickly realised that they can not help me because they themselves do not know how to. So after many inner struggles I quit after almost 12 years without having an idea what will do and how will support my family.

I had a lots of free time to focus on thinks I was attracted to like researching spiritual, esoteric, psychology, new technology areas. Several months after I quit the company I was diagnosed a scary disease confirmed by three specialists. The traditional approach would not give guarantees that can handle this however the therapy suggested was harsh and not holistic in any way. I decided that will not go this way although this is the traditional way. I realised with the help of many books, movies and interviews that I am responsible for my condition, and actually for all the circumstances in my life. I took the alternative way with the support of my wife, changed my diet and way of life dramatically, used reflexotherapy, acupuncture, supplements etc. A year later I feel well and healthy, no expansion of the symptoms.

Thinking about all this today I am thankful to the people and circumstances that gave me so much hard time. I am even thankful to the 'disease that happen to me' as I believe it came as catalyst to foster my personal growth and evolution.

I still have hard time to support my family but have found a huge inner expansion of my being. I have faith that whatever happens is good for my evolution, which is the purpose of the whole exercise/ game. I came across Ra materials just few months ago but I was completely ready for it and it resonated with me so deep.

The whol story is know to my wife only, I did not share the details even with friends because I thought they will not benefit anything from it.

I sensed an urge to share it with you and just did it.

Thank you once again and hope to be around with you in this most interesting and challenging times we live in.

Namaste.

Warm welcome to you shadowstan...Thanks for sharing your story of courage and dedication to the truth in you...

[Lavazza]

Terrific story! And welcome!

[Questioner]

Stan, I'm learning some things about business that I think will help you too. Sorry this post runs a bit long.

First idea: Most small business owners actually don't know much about business, and aren't very good at it. They have some particular task they like to do. They found a way to have several customers or clients rather than one boss. But in terms of business skills, they just know enough to get by.

Just enough accounting to get their taxes filed.
Just enough finance to get a bank loan.
Just enough sales skill to take orders from people who already want to buy.
Just enough marketing to run the same ads used by everyone in their field.

And any growth depends on the owners being more and more busy, as just one person in charge of everything.

Michael Gerber discusses this in detail in his "E Myth" series of books. The E myth is the idea that being a superb technician is enough to be an excellent entrepreneur. The entrepreneur builds a business that can run without them. Recently, Gerber has become more focused on the spiritual meaning of a business for its owner. Business systems embody the owner's ideals so that more people can be served.

After Roy Kroc licensed the hamburger system from the McDonald brothers, he didn't personally cook more hamburgers to get rich. Gerber suggests that every small business should be well developed enough to franchise. This is not to say that every business should be franchised. But for any business, complete systems make it possible for the owner to hire staff and take a vacation, or to sell the business.

Usually, this involves learning things about business that are new ideas. Or, they seem obvious but the business owner is too busy running around with day to day fire-fighting. They can't apply a bigger picture. Brad Sugars is another excellent teacher of these concepts.

Second idea: A limited economy makes it more important to have excellent business skills, not just excellent technical skills. You might think that the U.S. and U.K. are full of sophisticated businesses, where the best proven techniques and the latest innovations are regularly applied. While this is true of many large and successful businesses, it's not true at all of most "Mom and Pop" businesses on "Main Street." With so many buyers who have so much money, a rising tide lifts all boats.

An offer that is mediocre but convenient can get a lot of buyers in boom times. Domino's Pizza has had success for decades in the U.S. with prompt delivery of mediocre pizza.

When the news is full of unemployment and credit crisis, even people with money get scared and stop spending. Suddenly, "the economy" is the cause of many business failures... but actually, mediocrity is the cause of their undoing. At these times, some businesses offer the best quality, or the best service, or the best prices, or the best investment in marketing and expansion. They can win over the remaining buyers who can no longer put mediocrity into their budgets.

Domino's is now advertising their investment in better pizza recipes.

This turnaround in difficult times makes the business a strong leader when the economy turns back up.

Third idea: There are many ways to do any aspect of business, but in any particular industry, people follow the herd. For example, in one town, dentists might always use yellow page ads, car dealers use billboards, and auto shops use postcards... not because they evaluated the cost-effectiveness of each type of advertisement, but because this is the way things are always done.

In this town, the first dentist to send postcards and the first auto shop with a billboard could get a flood of new customers. ("I never got a postcard from my dentist before, I might as well put this on my fridge and make an appointment.") All while the competition laughs at their unorthodox techniques. This is true not just in promotion but in every aspect of business. Jay Abraham and Jay Levinson are the gurus of this area.

So, with these three ideas there is ample reason to think that someone with your expertise could help many, many businesses. Things that are basic and obvious for you could be just what is needed by businesses all around you.

If you can help a few businesses increase their sales by 50% in a year or two, and you get a 10% commission on that increased business, you'll be pretty well off in any local currency.

Now local business owners need this kind of help, but they are used to consultants charging them to say what they already knew. Wouldn't it be a breath of fresh air for you to help them learn how to better love their customers?

The question of how to establish and promote your business is a different one. The purpose of this post is just to inspire you with some possibilities. Your expertise might be more valuable than you had realized.

[wanderer4d]

Welcome to our community! Thank you for joining in!
L&L
J

[shadowstan]

So, with these three ideas there is ample reason to think that someone with your expertise could help many, many businesses. Things that are basic and obvious for you could be just what is needed by businesses all around you.

Hi Questioner, thank you for the ideas you generated and put forward. Right now I am on the 'metaphysical path' to business/ doing for living. I visualise on daily basis the activity I want to do and the way I want to feel and the contribution I want to make for the people around me. Of course I support the process with actions like researching information, contacting people, connecting the dots in the bigger picture etc. Will keep you posted for the development.

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Welcome to our community! Thank you for joining in!
L&L
J

Hi wanderer4d, thank you for your welcome note and nice to meet you (again?) in the jungles of space/ time.

[Questioner]

Right now I am on the 'metaphysical path' to business/ doing for living. I visualise on daily basis the activity I want to do and the way I want to feel and the contribution I want to make for the people around me.

Oh! I didn't know that from your post. It looked to me like you simply didn't have any ideas. I'm glad to learn that's not the case. Good for you!

May I ask what you envision as your business role? Some people say it's more powerful to share your goals with others. Some people say you should keep your ideas inside your own heart and mind until they are manifest. What do you think?

The ideas I mentioned are simmering in my own mind. I await inspiration about just how to apply them. Because my health is unreliable, I think my next step is to assemble a team to implement the types of services I described. There are a few more twists to it, but that's the overall idea. Over the long term I'd like to use the consulting income to fund development of some unique high-tech product ideas, both hardware and software I think could be very useful to many people.

I'll be interested to learn about your developments. And I'd be honored to learn of your vision, if you feel good about sharing it.

[shadowstan]

Hi guys,

This follows my story posted earlier http://www.bring4th.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=952

Last year I was without any income for months. In order to support my family I did worked small stuff and borrowed money from family and friends. I did not feel good, so I looked inside and realized what I want and desire. Shuffled through many thoughts concepts, wants, not-wants, looked into each of them, felt every option in order to see which one feels good and with no resistance deep inside me.
So I realized that my desire here and now is
to be in perfect health
to support my family w/o lack or limitation.
to evolve and share.

So I took action, small baby steps toward my desire.

I wrote these lines in a simple cards and keep them within my sight, on the desk, in my wallet.
Through the day I returned mentally to my desire and felt it, it always felt good and peaceful and easy.
I paid attention to my life style, diet and exercises. Nothing big, no struggle to keep strict diet or push on exercising, just probing inside of me if I should eat or not this or drink this or that.
And I looked around for ways to have some income. I had an agreement since month or two ago to start work for a local well established company, 15 min. walk from my home, in the business that I am experienced and knowledgeable about, good salary agreed. However the time agreement was not kept from their side and I was anxious about this. I anticipated the call, getting nervous from time to time, I called them, and there was not any real info when I will start the job if at all. So I realized that this is not the way, so I stopped pushing it so hard. Perhaps the universe had other plan for me, it is not limited and my mind is. I released the pressure and just switched to visualizing anf feeling how good it will be to get this job. I imagined how I go to the office, the exact rout that I will take in the morning and back in the evening, the office, how I will arranged, the meetings with colleagues, the thrill to be in a new place with new challenges. And few times I walked the rout to the office pretending that I am going at work. I sat in the near park imagining and pretending that I am at lunch brake and enjoying the ambience. I collected articles for the company from internet, pictures of the key people in the company and of their products. I established a virtual connection with the company, but without the need anything t0 happen, just enjoying the process.
And I called friends that I need to earn some money in order to support my family necessities and was ready to work any job with any people that feels good to me. And an old fiend invited me for a short term assignment where I could practice my other skills and could earn some money. I went at it and I worked with no reservation and I liked it. I was takin g action towards my desire and that was all that counted at that day, no worries about tomorrow, no complains. Of course I continued w/ my visualizations of the job I wanted, and I added a scene that I will receive the call during my work for the short assignment project.
Meanwhile I have sent my CV to several agencies and companies and I started receiving calls, e-mails, got few interviews.
So one they it happened. I receive the call asking me if I am still available to join the company I wanted to work for.
No I am with the company, in the field that I like to work, I manage my time and effort without any stress, the results are good.
I am thankful everyday for what happened and for every step/ event even tough some of them were not pleasant nor ‘desirable ‘at first sight. I know that my intention made the wheels turning.

Again, I sensed and urge to share with you and I did it.

Be well, keep thinking what you really value in life, and keep moving in this direction. All is well.

[Ali Quadir]

Congratulations I seem to have missed the first message. But I'm very happy things worked out for you. The power of intent accompanied by faith and action huh?