The gods of ancient pantheons

[AnthroHeart]

Whatever it was, it was strange experience. Each time I watched the movie, it appeared to be a different film. Same characters, different story.

I think I was told "they're not really there" to see if I'd become defiant towards them. Defiance has been in a lot of my experiences. I have a certain spiritual pride about me.

I loved the characters in the movie. They were like my friends. When their clubhouse burned up, I almost threw up because I thought that I was moving creation to a higher density and would burn them up. These friends of mine I had made were like my own creation in my head. When the clubhouse burned up, I thought it was my fault.

It's a kids film, but made me feel like I was in 4D and took on the storyteller role.

Ooh, you mean your parents. So, maybe it was meaning that your parents aren't in the same state of perception as you. As in not in the same level of vibration?

[Unbound]

It's true it could have been an entity attempting to "trip you up", however it actually isn't that unusual to me that you would experience your own subjective version of the movie. I have had similar experiences at times, and it happens to me with music a lot.

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Can I ask you, what do you think grounding is?

[AnthroHeart]

Grounding for me has been to close down my upper two chakras, and not to hear voices suggesting that I do bad things.

When I thought the ascension was going to happen, I thought that I had created a new big bang and was comparing it to ascension, and how it was even better. Grounding wouldn't have that kind of thinking.

[Unbound]

Hmm, it appears to me you are putting the cart before the horse. Instead of closing down the upper centers, I would suggest rather strengthening your two lowest centers. Grounding to me is about being "rooted" in your current incarnative identity, it is very much about context. A practice I use is chanting my own given name to myself to tune in to my incarnative vibration.

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By given name, I mean the one I was given at birth aha

[AnthroHeart]

In my experience, the Spirit of the Forest movie was like a training video for how I would affect the reality around me. It gave immediate response based on my emotional feedback. It was rather neat. I sort of drove the story, at a slightly subconscious manner. I thought I was a newcomer to 4D, and this was the first thing presented to me to "prove" that I was in 4D. Though it was probably a simulation like what I've gone through many times before and since. I was learning how to shift the reality around me by steering the characters. Not fully consciously, but their reactions were based on what was in my subconscious. But I could ask it to show me the archetypes through these characters, and it played out like that.

When wisdom was too much (and yes this kids film had points where wisdom was great), I could ask it to turn down the wisdom so I could understand it. The part where the trees were talking had lots of wisdom, though I don't recall at this point what was said. I have the DVD but it doesn't play all the way through, and plus I've misplaced it. Sorry if I'm off topic, but it was exciting, and one of my best spiritual experiences.

[Unbound]

Aha That sounds quite amazing for sure! I have had experiences watching certain animated movies where I will have a ton of epiphanies all throughout it and sort of slip in and out of dream.

That is what I feel like you experienced, what I call the "in-between", which is basically a state between being awake and dreaming, so its like a dream overlay of your reality as you are experiencing it. I believe this is like time/space being in ratios with space/time. Rather than being fully in balance betwren space/time and time/space you were more shifted towards time/space, but not enough to enter in to another body, just slighty to modify the experience you are having. I believe the australian aborigines use it and know it as dreamtime.

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Also, on topic, I believe this state is one way in which we can interact with other parts of our own inner planes. If the gods and goddess exist as inner planes entities as well then that could be one potential form of communication. This is meant to be done with much caution, care and dedication, though, as one can easily get carried away.

[AnthroHeart]

I've had a lot of testing to see how I would handle "god-like" powers. In one instance I was in charge of balancing a star and it's planet. It was our sun, and I felt it get hotter and cooler as it got closer and further, and my tugging and pushing on the sun was to bring it into balance. I sometimes felt the ground move under me. This is probably another dreamtime experience. This was when Ra said to me "You're doing so good. You can skip the next Octave" and I said "no, I don't want to miss anything." as it would be quite foolish to skip an Octave as if you could.

Once when I was climbing the densities, I saw my dad crouched over as he walked with his bad back. He had a lot of back pain. I thought at that time that he wasn't compatible with the higher density that I was going through, and this was another test in defiance. I had defiant thoughts that "he can't survive in higher density" instead of feeling compassion. So working through defiance has been some major work. I let these "god-like" powers go to my head.

Funny, in all the times Ra spoke to me, they never said "I am Ra" before. It could be another individualized portion of Ra, or a different being altogether.

I bring all this up because in a higher density potentially everyone is a god. It's how I use my powers. I never abused them to try to get what I want at the expense of others. It just was defiant thoughts that I had. I did not defy anyone for real, even when I thought I had "god-like" powers.

[Unbound]

What do you mean by defy?

[AnthroHeart]

What do you mean by defy?

Thoughts of violence towards another because I think they're not at the same level spiritually as I think that I am.

[Unbound]

No offense intended, but it seems to me that is not so much about defiance in itself, but rather a feeling of lack of self worth? I can also see it as an expression of anger or frustration because of the pain of the differences, as some differences can be very "sharp" to experience.

I understand what you mean though, I have always held on to being a fighter, when really I have no desire to fight. I think it is a defense mechanism we weave in to our personality shells of sorts aha

[AnthroHeart]

By differences, you mean like how I compare someone else's apparent spirituality with my own?

My spiritual lessons have been tough. I've explored the limits of my emotional body. I remember stomping my feet as I walked in order to amplify the effect of my emotional expression.

[Unbound]

You could say something like that aha differences are necessary and natural so that everything can be absolutely unique in and of themselves. Rather, it is our attitudes towards those differences which reflect how we feel about ourselves, our place in the world and about those around us.

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At least, that is how I look at it for myself aha

[xise]

It has been beautiful to observe your journey. This applies to everyone on the forum, but in particular to you Gemini Wolf. You have been so open, so honest with your thoughts, issues, struggles, and insight. You surely are on the path.