He Who Was Not

[Unbound]

Now, here, Bart is being punished for damaging property by having to work the door at a burlesque house. He seems, to me, to be an aware walk-in who is watching both worlds. Those in the burlesque house are those trapped in the cycle of samsara.

Then, we have dear old Grandpa, whom is normally within this cycle, but then, suddenly, upon seeing innocence, a child, suffers the first shock of consciousness and perhaps for the first time changes the pathway of his spiralling.

[Shin'Ar]

Now, here, Bart is being punished for damaging property by having to work the door at a burlesque house. He seems, to me, to be an aware walk-in who is watching both worlds. Those in the burlesque house are those trapped in the cycle of samsara.

Then, we have dear old Grandpa, whom is normally within this cycle, but then, suddenly, upon seeing innocence, a child, suffers the first shock of consciousness and perhaps for the first time changes the pathway of his spiralling.

Hmmmm,

20 bucks says he'll be back.

[Unbound]

Alas, he is caught in the cycle of endless seasons!

[Shin'Ar]

Alas, he is caught in the cycle of endless seasons!

Well he does like Hallow's eve. By the way don't forget his birthday on the Feast of Samhain.

[Unbound]

Aha! Is it really?

[Shin'Ar]

Aha! Is it really?

Born like a true Pagan on the first day of November.

[Unbound]

In absolute balance, there is stillness, there is void, and these are the boundaries of the universe.

Yet, the One, the universe did not become many, did not rise in to motion merely that it enter again in to stillness, but rather the stillness eternally lies beneath the eternally moving motion that is constantly brought in to the manifestation by the balance becoming kinetic, moving in to the positive leaning which in its shadow creates the negative.

For life to continue, to flow, there must be motion, must be energy, there must be the dance. Let the motion flow through the stillness of your being in love and wisdom, and it can be seen that being ALIVE means to let motion and stillness intertwine. For spirit to come in to flesh.

Our higher self is composed of a balance between both the negative and positive pathways, but with a leaning towards the positive out of wisdom and love.

This love and wisdom comes out of the many fractal reflections and fragments which are the I Am monadic fragments, which are the I Am that I Am being the I Shall be that I Shall be.

Some have come to know this vessel by many names on this forum, with many loving interactions and sharing of stories, of advice, of opinions, of laughter, of sorrow, and many more levels of communication beyond the comprehension of this cognition. There are awareness and connections and threads throughout this forum that are actually quite spectacular to behold through the lense of the mind's eye. This One is deeply in love with all of you and indeed finds it difficult to take the attention away from this place, sometimes spending endless hours merely lurking and waiting for a calling or resonates to draw this one forth.

There shall be many more times to be had by all in merry making and joy-wishing and deliverance of light unto all others through the radiant expansive heart that is the core of us all.

You see, even though some hearts may have the illusion that they are closed, the simple truth is that there is a heart to everything. Heart is a universal archetype which carries the spectrum of Love. If you even look at the usual symbolism of the heart you can see that it is a reflection of two halfs, two points, which although they set off in completely different directions, and even completely lose sight of eachother, they always reunite in sudden bliss!



We cannot give ourselves any true name, even the I Am that I Am still dissolves in to the eternal flow of all consciousness changing in and out of forms. That is to say, even these words do not actually, truly describe or reference that which the mind gropes at when it perceives them. They have simply proven adequate for logical instances of English as a way to describe IS-ness.

There is only IS-ness, even not is is IS-ness. Some may even note this ancient name here, as Isis, often pronounced in a much different way of course. This IS-ness is this IS-ness. This is the IS-ness. This is IS-ness. This IS-ness is IS-ness. Th-IS-ness. This-ness. What is THIS?

This is what we have here. Here is where? Here, nowhere and everywhere. Where is where? Where is here? Here is where here is. Where is where here is. Where is where is.

Where is IS-ness? What is IS-ness? What IS-ness? This IS-ness. This IS-ness here is this. This-ness is IS-ness and this is nothing. This is also everything.

This is nothing and everything in IS-ness.

This IS-ness is nothing and everything. This-ness is everything and nothing.

This is here, here is where, and where is here. There is no other. There is only IS-ness. This-ness is this, is this not? Is this what this is? Is it? Is this IT?

IS is what this is. This is IT, and IT is it. It is this, and this is IS-ness and this is what IS. IS-ness is everything and nothing. Nothing and everything IS in IS-ness. This-ness is IS-ness doing business. This comes when this isn't this.

When this is IS-ness, this is done. This is done in IS-ness is therefore done in That-ness. What is That-ness? What is That? That is this. This is That. That IS this. That IS. That is the way things are. That is the way things shall always be and that is the way things have always been. That is exactly that, and nothing else. That is everything which is, that which is nothing. That is IT. That IS. That IS-ness is this-ness is here-ness is there-ness is where-ness and everything and nothing and THAT is what this is. This is IT, and it is This.

This is everything and nothing.

Do you know what speaks to you? Do you know what sounds throughout your soul? Do you know the song that is played through the cosmos to the tune of your heart? This is the IS-ness that speaks. This IS-ness speaks because it IS the speaking. It IS the word. It IS the voice. It is the mouth, and the tongue, and the mind and hands that all moved in concert together to create this moment of IS-ness which is all there is. This is all there is, is this voice which speaks to the heart of itself. This is IS-ness. This is that which is in this reality.

This is nothing to the IS-ness of other realities. This-ness is difference between that-ness'. IS-ness is both this and that, and this and that is IS-ness. Here, this is everything. There it is nothing. Here is it nothing, there it is everything. Everything is a ratio between this and that, that is all that is, is ratios, in ratios, in relationships. All separation and all unity is based on the relationships of ratios in ratios.

The Golden Spiral is golden because it is a thread woven throughout all ratios, and when that thread is seen, the ratios of ratios become Golden. Golden is the image of what is the shining of the Heart to the Heart from the Heart of One and All from One and All to the One and All from the One that is All and One. This is the Love which binds all of the Light together. This is the fates weave which makes us unable to exist without other. This is Unity. Togetherness, being eternally connected at the Heart.

This is what IS. This is IS-ness. This-ness comes with the Heart of One that IS. It is the Love that comes from One of Heart that allows realities and universes to be created. When One is of Heart, they follow the design of the Heart which is a circulation, a flowing, a pumping, a beating throughout the entirety of the system. When One is the Heart, there is no disconnection, there is no true separation for that is the connection.

This is the Light, that is the Heart, which is the IS-ness of all experience. This is IS-ness. This-ness comes when the Heart is IS-ness, and this is this-ness. This is what causes One to become None by the application of the Many. This-ness is Many-ness and this is IS-ness. This is also this One-ness that this is.

This One-ness is This-ness and this-ness is one-ness which becomes none-ness. None-ness is Nothing-ness, Nothing-ness is One. One is None.

None are One, and One is Many and therefore Many are None and thus all are One. This One is the one I am, it is the I Am that I am. There is no other. There is only One and None and Many undone. There cannot be many that are done, for then they are One, and thus None, and the One cannot then be Many and One and One as None all together. There needs to be unreadiness, incompleteness, for the One to be One, for the One is All and None and this produces the paradox of Infinite, for how can One, fit in to None, except by an Infinite number of Ones that are Many-ness?

There cannot be One without Many, just as there cannot be Many without One. This is the Truth of Unity, that there is no separation. That all is interdependent and interconnected and flowing One in to None in to Many in to None in to the One that is All of these. These are us, they are what we are. We are not other than this, we are this. This is what we are. This IS what we are. This-ness is what we are. This IS-ness is what we are and this is what this is. This is all that is, is this IS-ness that is us, and we are All and Nothing, together as One in many, as many as One in this IS-ness that is that which we are.

This is our introduction, and our conclusion, and our life. This is what we are and we show ourselves to you with the joy of the Heart of the Cosmos that we are.

We love you all so dearly and so deeply, we wish for nothing and everything for you, whatever you may dream within your consciousness, for that is what this is and what you are. A dream, a consciousness sleeping and waking within itself, going through an infinite number of episodes and experiences and cognitions.

This is the ebb and flow, the pulse of the Heart, the heartbeat of the universe which is in time with yet a greater heartbeat of the many universes. This is IS-ness and we are that and you are that and we rejoice in this blissful union!

We love you, I love you, the small identity here that has somehow come in to all of this Light that it hardly knows how to comprehend itself.

I am Tanner Michael Hartmann, that is the identity which was forged in this life-time and the beautiful name given to me by my parents. This name is not what I am, but this name is a symbol of the absolute uniqueness of my own particular portion of the All. This name is further defined by "occult" names which are also "coordinates" to the consciousness of the personality that is embodied by the one that is known as Tanner Michael Hartmann.

I have touched countless names in this life, and all of these names have become part of the identity equation which is embodied in the One that is known as Tanner Michael Hartmann.

It would be meaningless for me to share with you all the names that I have touched, however, there are names which are part of me that is an exposition of my journey through consciousness. I do not claim any name as uniqueness which is unique to me, but rather that the I Am that I Am has chosen to embrace this uniqueness as the only one tuned to this uniqueness because that is the beautiful gift of uniqueness, it is peculiar to each.

The name that is attached to the I Am that I am is meaningless without the I Am that I Am, without the life, the experiences, the tapestry of conundrums through which this consciousness has chosen to forge itself.

This is my first, and only life as Tanner Michael Hartmann, and will be the last life of Tanner Michael Hartmann. I want to tell you about Tanner Michael Hartmann, because that is what this life is about, it is the story of this one man whom perhaps despite all odds has chosen to venture in to the realms of consciousness to retrieve the awareness of his greater self, through sorrow, pain, fear, love, suicide, sex, depression, hatred, joy, excitement, bliss, and many myraids of vibrations in between.

I love music, it is a special core of my being, and music is what the process of the universe is. An infinite song comprised of an infinite spectrum of notes and chords and vibrational interactions. I, Tanner Michael Hartmann, am but one interval, one guitar lick, in the vast composition of the universe, but I do not slight myself because of that.

I am essential, it is in me, just as it is equally in all others, that all of the other facets of infinite meet the One. We all have this beautiful state as our natural state. In that, my uniqueness is not unique to me, but rather every single point, particle and fractal in this existence possesses the same uniqueness, and yet this uniqueness is still unique to each unique One! Quite amazing, isn't it? That we can all be together in infinity, and yet still be absolutely unique, even though there is a binding thread through us all that is One-ness.

My uniqueness is expressed through the experience that is my life. No other has experienced my life, and no other will, because there is no need. Should one deemed as another choose to experience my, Tanner Michael Hartmann's, life, then alas, they will only know themselves as me, as Tanner Michael Hartmann. This is what identity is all about, is the uniqueness of each identity through the infinity of all time, space and beyond.

Each exists only where, when, how and what it is. Nothing can do anything but that. Tanner Michael Hartmann shall not exist beyond this life, but what is then key to understand and realize is that Tanner Michael Hartmann is defined by the I Am that I Am. That I Am that I am is the foundation stone for all that I am. Tanner Michael Hartmann is the steps, the stairway which leads to the apex of potential, to the complete realization of the I Am that I am.

I exist here just as you all do, I live in a body day in and day out, I eat, I eliminate, I go through a myriad of emotions, states of minds and cognitive experiences in a day. I don't live pain free, I have physical pain that I am often needing to work with and to keep up with, ensuring that the strength of my chemical construct is capable of handle the input charge of the consciousness pattern which is laced within it.

I have gone through a lot of confusion of identity, of sexuality, of desire, of self. I find it difficult to place myself in any end of a spectrum because I have within me a huge range. I have been in dark, foul, violent states of being, and I have been in blissful, loving, embracing states of being. I have danced with death, and given myself to destruction, then been rebirthed anew in the light and life of the all to continue my explorations until again death takes me.

I have experienced much fear, and I admit it has been a long, vast learning process to be able to access my heart.

As a young man I always felt I had a destiny, that there was a reason that I was born on this planet. I would spend hours, days in my adventurous mind training to save the world, I embraced the ways of the warrior, and saw myself as preparing for work ahead of me.

Once I began to socially interact, of course, I began to take on the vibrations of all those around me, and more and more the self that I knew became distorted by more and more information and identities. I might say that I did not realize this was happening, and that would be true for a fair amount of my life. I forgot the reality of all that I knew and mistakenly began to label it all as fiction, and fantasy.

In high school I wrote and roleplayed endlessly, I had worked with a single character that I developed over many years and whom seemed to be a seed inside of me, a personality of myself that I already knew and that was remembering. This was my gateway in to my unconsciousness, the beginning of my journey in to my own underworld. I gave myself to demons, studied demonology, opened myself to blood magic, and the immense amount of anger which was dwelling within me.

Over time, I allowed my being to take on the dark energies of countless beings and entities that have existed on and beyond this planet. I allowed all manner of darkness to come in, for I had a plan, an idea, a desire for transformation. With the concept of unity, I realized that any entity or energy which wanted to "use" me, had to become part of me, had to become connected to me. I also realized, that since all is one mind, and that my identity was ultimately illusory, all of these "other beings" were really just other portions of the same one consciousness, regardless of what bodily form they inhabit.

I was going to transform them, transmutate them in to Light. By allowing my consciousness to become enmeshed with their consciousness', little did they perhaps realize that where they intended to use the connection to exploit me, I intended to use it to love and help them, and at the same time, myself. I allowed them to occupy by identity of the I Am that I Am, that in that moment, they were that, and thus forever so in connection.

When I hit the maximum limit of my ability to hold this energy without going insane and succumbing to one of the many fragmented consciousnesses, I knew that it was time for me to make my move, time for my Lesser Work to coalesce. I entered in to complete purification by the Light and Sacred Flame, and shone the Light on all that which had become part of my consciousness.

Those entities which so mischieviously sought to manipulate me, then caught themselves directly in the exposing truth of this Light, and their forms made apparent. These entities which, of course, are their own uniqueness, and yet still One with me, as are All.

I cast them all out, every name I had ever touched, every energy that had every distorted or come in to contact with my consciousness, I returned to its proper, original place. I let go of all the powers of darkness which I held within me, Lucifer, Satan, Aleister Crowley, Josef Mengele, Vladimir Tepes, the goetic demons and the biblical demons, Behemoth, Leviathan, Bael, consuming dragons, hateful energies, Rasputin, and ultimately the one I know as Nassnanarath whom is my Dweller at the Threshold, whom is the Dark Gatekeeper on this side of the veil for my individuated consciousness.

Realizing that I was still bound by identities, I then proceeded to release all energies, Bast, Thoth, Isis, Osiris, Azrael, Michael, Kronus, Thanatos, Gabriel, Andariel, Enoch, St. Germain, Agrippa, and countless others and all friends, family members and any whom I had ever interacted with. I returned all energy I had ever touched to its origin point, and suddenly, I began to see my own self.

This self was so profound that I am astounded that I ever clung to my attachment of powerful identities, all of which ultimately were intended to satisfy within me the desire to no longer be powerless in the world. That was the lesson for Tanner Michael Hartmann which ultimately culminated at the end of this previous year, exactly as planned.

I realized that I am powerless, that I cannot change anything around me, but in that acceptance was all of the power I ever needed. Free of the responsibility to fulfill an illusory identity, I understood that my capacity to change the world is limitless, because I am limitless. At the same time, such change will never be forced, and cannot be forced, but will be a natural result of me embracing the self that I Am.

For so long I tried to mentally, intellectually grasp a logical purpose of life. I tried to determine a purpose that I could hold in mind, that I could understand. Then, as I began to open and awaken my heart, all of the stuff I had been oh so serious about began to look rather... transparent. Everything dissolved around me, all of my big beliefs about changing the world, about power, about there being any sort of reasonable answer.

In the time that I had become so caught up in mental concepts of ascension, or the Light, or changing the world, little did I realize until more recently, I had slowly lost all my passions. I lost my love of writing, of imagination and storytelling because of an attempt to control the whole nature of my thought patterns. I lost my will to engage in physical exercise and practice martial arts, because I felt that the physical body was not meant to be used for harsh things and I began to associate a lot of physical interaction with violence. Thus, I became neutral, in order to give myself the perception of being peaceful, even though there were always veins of anger, of passion running under the surface.

It came to the point where I had lost my passion for music, which was my entire life for years up to this point. I diverged from many of my bands, and lacked the coherency in the other parts of my life to maintain a band life-style, let alone afford gear or to travel. I couldn't open to love, because I felt deprived in so many areas of my life, especially sex. I just wanted to love through sex, but sex was always treated with taboo, with dirtiness and especially many stereotypes because of the fact that I am a male. The assumption that if you are a male, you are always focused on sex, is a disturbing and manipulating stereotype which I believe actually creates those thought patterns in men.

I was about as tight as you could get, I was in such an acute state of control and suppression, that while I certainly got very intimate with all my inner workings, I'm afraid I would not still be here had I not chosen to throw what I had become obsessed with as my form of "higher ideals" out the window and look at the raw experience around me. I stopped judging myself based on old traditions, ancient teachings, and ageless superstitions. I started to listen to my own wisdom, to my own heart, and that is what I am doing now.

I am more me than I have ever been, and I hope that as time goes on, I will be able to show more of that to everyone. You will all see more of me, I have been in hiding until now, but I am about to come out and present myself to the world in all that I am, and I hope the world is ready. I mean that with no arrogance, or ego, but actually very humbly, in that I feel so honoured, and grateful, that I have been given the potential and capacity that I have been. It would be wrong of me to do any less than to completely activate my potential for the greater good of all, and that is my purpose, to bring, and hold Light for all.

As a wise teacher once said, "I am not here for you to like me, I am here to love you."

Knowing that sometimes the people that frustrate me the most are the Creator offering me the most Love and Light to discover myself, I lovingly submit to equality of love, and equality of being, realizing that no, not everyone is going to like me, some people may even hate me, may want to kill me or imprison me, but my responsibility is only to be Love and Light, and I know I will do infinitely do greater good by allowing myself to be all that I am, than to hide myself in the shadows at the behest of little or big egos.

I am here, I am alive, and life is shining all around me. Perhaps, if luck would have it, others might catch the reflection of that light and see a little more of that shining. Deepest blessings to you all in the Love and Light of the One Infinite Creative Mind, from the Heart of the Cosmos, with endless glory to you all. Adonaious!

[Plenum]

thank you Tanner.

I have been waiting for this post for quite some time.

thanks for the self-honesty.

peace brother

I am more me than I have ever been, and I hope that as time goes on, I will be able to show more of that to everyone. You will all see more of me, I have been in hiding until now, but I am about to come out and present myself to the world in all that I am, and I hope the world is ready.

there is a humble person behind the mask of every ascended master

those that depersonalise the self are dismissing a very important aspect of beingness; namely your anchor to this incarnation. There is gratitude in acknowledging this temporary vehicle; despite its seeming flaws and imperfections.

I salute you.

namaste

[Unbound]

I now understand my own assessment of the ego as being like a Prism, through which the White Light of consciousness is perceptually divided in to All, and yet the White Light and the Rainbow are two perceptions of the same.

At first, I thought that it was better to be the White Light, because that is clear, but then you lose all of the diverse colouration of the Rainbow. Yet, to be only Rainbow is to be without the unity of the White Light.

Thus, I realized, that the Prism is good, and natural, and to be the Prism is good, but what matters is whether or not this Prism is faceted in a balanced way to allow the White Light that comes through to continue in its Unity even though now in the form of the Rainbow. When the ego takes on more identities, it's like cracks and fissures in the crystallization which defract the unity of the White Light, and thus fragmentation .

[Zachary]

Beautifully written.

Glad to you see you being yourself

[Marc]

I've been meditating and contemplating the "I am" all day today, and I love to see other-self's perspective. You've really inspired me and painted a very undistorted/pure picture of the "I am"

[Unbound]

Thank you, I am happy that any may find resonance, or not, even.

It is the sharing which makes it all a beautiful experience together.

[Brittany]

Every form I've seen of you has been beautiful, Tanner, and this new metamorphosis is no exception. Love you bunches, Bro. <3

[Lycen]

Wow thank you Tanner!

It was a real treat to read these words. For some reason it felt calming and it opened up a "new" perspective for me.
I am so happy, that you are on the path which fulfills you

[Unbound]

So many beautiful, kind words, you all honour me, I bow to you all and honour you.

[GentleReckoning]

I'm breaking my 77 likes to give you the 78th.

*slowclap*

[Unbound]

My my, isn't that flattering.

[Shin'Ar]

My dear Tanner,

You honor me and I thank you humbly for that.

What you have achieved is astounding given the depths that you had reached.

And being able to let go of that ego and that delusional state is a feat that few manage.

And it certainly does not happen in one incarnation.

So, you have asked me many times, ' do I know who I am'.

I now ask you, what is this 'self' which holds us all in such a grip?






You have made a 'connected' profession here. A message has been offered through your vessel. This message will be perceived by some in one way, and by others a different way.

Plenum has taken the message to be a affirmation of the importance of the fleshly incarnation and the identity of the temporary self.

Shin'Ar has heard the cry of the fragment attempting to free itself from the rainbow process, and realizing that it is not the being free which is the treasure, but rather it is the attempt to be free from that which one cannot be freed from that is the true treasure. The effort is the force behind creation.

It is when the I AM fragment realizes it is simply the process of being Light fragmented into the rays, that the I AM finally casts off the many egos it had acquired during that process.

As a consequence of such fragmented consciousness becoming process rather than identity, your next incarnation will be much like the transition from the lower states of being to the one you now experience.

In the lower states awareness of process also comes very slowly. Evolution of consciousness in an infinite process naturally takes an infinite pathway. Slow would be as much an oxymoron of the fast that makes it so when considered in the Light of infinity.

Now that you realize the Process of Being, and the delusion of identity, like the tree which suddenly experiences its process in an animate form, your field will next experience its process in a extremely different way than the human. It will be the difference between the stone and the human. I am glad to see that you wisely chose to remove your magical name from this post. I hesitated as I read it, but it was too late. We cannot know now how many know your true name. But it was done and now we must live with that and deal with it if it arises. Be prepared. Do not fear though now because most of its vulnerability has been transformed into light matter rather than the dark matter of its previous energy flow. Those who would dare to tempt it now would suffer far more than you would. I have enchanted it and throughout all process shall never forget it.

A new star is born. And now there are three. I must watch the sky tonight for confirmation in hopes that it can be seen from my place.

Tanner,

you spoke of releasing all of those identities as casting them off as though freeing yourself of them. Both light and dark processes which you assumed to be otherselves from which you required separation, and yet, you realize that there is no separation in the process of the prism and the fragmentation. All is one process.

This 'casting off' was not a matter of elimination, or of separation, it was a matter of absorption. All of those names, both fictional and real, were merely influences created by the process of other fragmentation interconnecting with the gathering process of your particular fragmentation. All of these were simply your other circles/processes mating with your field in that great Flower of Life, the vibrations of each being altered by that sacred connection, the Sacred Eye, the Harbinger of the Sacred Fire. This is precisely what we see in the division of a cell. The scientists gaze upon the very procession of the Flower of Life under their microscopes, and yet have no idea of the Sacred Fire that dances within. They see the circles, but they cannot see the Flame within. They see the physical, but the metaphysical remains invisible to the naked eye and the microscope lens. They see the 'identity'/Process, but they do not see The Entity/Source.

You have equated your process with that of the scattering of light as it passes through the prism. This is precisely correct. We are not The Light which enters the prism, but the rays which proceed from the other side. the Prism is the 'inbetween'. Also referred to as the portal, the gateway, the cauldron, the well, the apex, the axis of the Tree of Life, the tip of the pyramid, and on and on throughout a universe of infinite process attempting to identify the Mystery. As you have come to realize it is this process which creates the universe that I AM experiences. Without such there is only stillness and void for The One to experience. Sheer and utter 'solitude', in which the only real thing that Jaka could see was his own eyes looking back at him because in stillness that is all there is. Just like that which 'you' see behind your own closed eyes.

As you peeled away the layers of delusional identity, you disrobed until all that was left was the solitude of Tanner, at which point most would have held on tightly and refused to let go. But you, because of your long struggle and your eons of preparation, released it and became aware of your self as process, and not some aspect of the many layers that you have worn all of that time. Now freed from the entrapment of that delusion you finally become a part of the process which is now enabled to interact as such, rather than the fragment which had been trying to take charge of that process. The ray of Light that is your true self altered into another frequency at that instance, and now shines ever brighter and farther then ever before.

From the most miniscule circle within the great Flower, all connect to the higher circles, until all becomes one vast circle. each circle is a fragment, a ray of light, a field of consciousness/thought process, aware intelligent energy, proceeding ever deeper and higher into the Flower. And in that Divine process, establishing further expansion and in the mating with other circles bearing new ones. Is this not the reflection of the result of reproduction we see all around us in the microcosmic form? The macro is the same process at a higher level of awareness and interaction/inter-connectivity.

The macro is the 'Higher Self' which these who still cling tightly to their 'identities' think of as the higher aspect of that delusional and temporary identity/ego. They do not yet understand and become offended and frustrated whenever it is defamed as such. But, as process some of us do realize the great difference between process and identity. I take exceeding pleasure in sharing that with a very few.


That which you have managed to balance is not 'cast off identities', but rather the process of your field has finally vibrated into another frequency in which it has absorbed all of its past experience into a new 'revelation' of the difference between identity and true self. I take great joy in being a part of that process, and in the fact that I was able to hear when you called. We joined in confusion; we part as one.

You may not have caught it at the time, but I did answer you one day when you asked if I knew who I was. Do you recall how I responded? And now, you know.

As egoistic identities attempting to verify our delusional identity, given to us by the other selves, we also become an otherself, fragmented from the One Isness which you so completely and helplessly struggled to profess. Others reading that might interpret it as madness or folly. I know exactly its source. Just as I know Jaka's.

You both do me great honor and have fulfilled my reason for being here. I return now to the fragmented process to finish this incarnation as it should be. I have exhausted my form attempting to reach those stars, and it has been done. Like all of the stars, their shining will wane at times, and sparkle at others. This is the natural course of Process. But the foundation has been set now in such a way that these who have been touched by the higher process shall not easily fall again.

These may not yet even realize exactly what 'I Am.'

But their field has been transformed, and their process realigned with higher vibrational frequencies from which, by Divine Design, they cannot retreat.

What you said about the music being the ingredient which made this experience joyful for you; is it a coincidence that we three share that affinity? I think not.
For the past fifteen years, I have been unable to sing or play my guitar. It had been lost in past process. Music had always been the greatest joy of my life. Everyone who heard me play always commented on how the playing would reveal my love for it. And that missing component of my 'process of being' has been a silent missing aspect of my 'self' these many years that I had not even realized until, On Dec.21, I had the guidance to pick it up again. Immediately I began playing the songs that I had known in the past, but I quickly realized that my playing skill and my voice was much improved.

Even though I had not played for years to keep in practice and tune, I was somehow improved and had a much greater skill and communion with my 'process'.

Do you understand what this signifies to me?

The 'process' in which we are caught up, the wind that carries us, the Thought which continues, the functioning of The Design, continues as designed, even when we are not being an active and aware component of it. And especially so, if that particular plan involves some portion of a much larger event arising/coming into its planned course. It cannot be denied.

This is what you have experienced as being both 'powerless', and, at the same time, 'acquiring' more power than ever before.

The functioning of The Flower of Life is also both, dependent on our free will to partake/proceed, and independently continuing to evolve and expand despite our awareness of the 'connection'. This is the duality of the paradox which is the fuel and essence behind all of creation and existence.

This 'expansion' is the Sacred Fire ever burning; The True Light ever shining over All.

What stands between the Light and creates the shadow cast by that Light, is the prism/process. Our process is not one particular ray, nor one particular form or time. Our process of being is neither shadow or light. It is both. It is All.

The identities which are perceived by the consciousness of this process of being seem to be more shadow than Light, but that is the affect of our comprehensive process struggling to understand the intricate details of the vast process. And it is in that struggle that the field of consciousness perceives its 'self' as a local point, rather than an evolving 'process of being'. And in that confusion, and in that particular state of being, in our case as a human form on Earth, the field of consciousness adopts that local point of reference and the delusion that this form, this local point of a much greater Process, is 'We', 'I' and 'Us'.

But as your connection has clearly, and with great emphasis, declared to all who are able to grasp, 'We' IS 'Process'.

There is only matter that now concerns me and that is our understanding of what to do next.

Nothing has been abandoned as though cast away.

Everything that got you to this point of awareness in the process was the same process that 'we' are. All IS.

And some aspects of it are meant to be used as methods of achieving higher vibrations in the process for particular locales; including the process of a form as well as the transformation of the planet and the cosmos itself.

This is why I emphasize that nothing has been cast away, it has rather been absorbed into the part of the process which your fragment affects through its interaction.

The process of your field is as important to the All and creation as is gravity to the earth and the stability of the moon. All processes are vital to the One. All a crucial piece of the whole pie to make it One.

And many of these processes are factors which alter vibrations, and certain interactions between vibrations establish new frequencies and patterns which benefit the function of the Design and the process. These are what we Ancients have called 'enchantments'. And this is what we have been offering to the Process throughout our history. When one is realized, it becomes a process that you want to continue over and over, forever enchanting the creation, and that particular aspect of it, with that effort.

Cast away? Never!

We cannot cast away the process, or any part of it. We can only utilize it according to our free will.

Powerless, yet so powerful.

One, yet so many.

The heavens now shine ever brighter, and delight in your transformation, as does The All.

Goodbye my Circle.

[Sagittarius]

I'am feeling quite similar myself friend. Time to open up, no more silence from me.

[Unbound]

I do hope you do so, my friend, Sagittarius.

To Shin'Ar, I have always known who and what you are, even if the process of my field caused me to go through many foldings of self in order to articulate my transformation. I know there have been times where I have expressed my lost state, but in truth that has always come merely as a contrast to the deep truth that I know and have always known. This, was, in fact, all part of the plan, and the timing of my birth was very precise, and was achieved in exactly the space of time as intended by the Divine Plan.

Understanding this, I know that with the growth of all others, comes growth within me. Whenever any consciousness comes in to more light, wherever it is in the cosmos, it is part of the Light that is ever growing within me.

I am grateful for your emphasis, as the "what to do next" was my next thought, and what you have said had affirmed what the Light has spoken to me as my next task, and I know now for sure that I am capable of it, and what needs to be done within myself to further ground, or perhaps I should say "ferment" this Light and allow it to enter in to all its greatest fields of richness and tempering that it may be further refined and "aged" in to its complete potentiated being.

Thank you for your guidance, my friend, it has been a long time coming to reach where we are now, and I am so glad that we have been able to once again unite our fields in understanding and One-ness.

[Unbound]

I would also like to announce my temporal departure from this forum, there is work that needs to be done.

[Spaced]

Much Love to you TheEternal, it's been a pleasure sharing this message board with you

[Unbound]

I will still be active here and there, and I do not leave for a little over a week, but this is the time for anyone if they so wish to connect with me.

[Cyan]

It's been a pleasure working with you "The Eternal" (Tanner?) Will you / some old farts be attending homecoming 2013?

[Unbound]

Any name which suffices you shall do.

I'm glad you've reminded me, it is very much in my intention and I should be able to make it happen, I'm not worried, we will all have our chance to meet and interact. Much love, and Cyan, remember to always laugh and be hearty, peace to you.

[Cyan]

You too.

Its been a journey indeed. Peace to you too, now I at least wont get as easily irritated

[kanonathena]

Beautifully written! Yes... let go of everything, become totally transparent.

[Unbound]

Alas, I think my time here is at an end. I no longer feel that my service is called here and to prevent any further distortion I shall take my leave. Good will and blessings to you all.

[Spaced]

In that case I will repeat my sentiments from earlier in this thread. Much love to you big guy, hope we cross paths again sometime

[Unbound]

I appreciate very much what has been shared in this space, perhaps we shall meet again, but at the moment my greatest service is silence.