Color Readings

[Cyan]

Cyan, seeing how your handle is a color, it's hard for me not to see you in shades of blue. Upon looking at your picture, I get a very strong violet color. I often picture a person's violet ray as a purple lotus flower on the top of their head, and that is the image I get for you, with a cylinder of white light streaming out of the middle of the flower with intense force.

To be honest, your energy has always baffled to me. I get a very strange, somewhat unexplainable feeling from it that goes beyond my general comprehension skills. The phrase that comes to my mind is "a foot in both worlds." This may sound odd, but it perplexes me as to how you are holding a three dimensional form. The deeper I go into your energy the more it expands. I start seeing fractals and mandalas and...some sort of graph thing. A grid system? It goes on and on, like an acid trip. There is also a flash of a very gentle pink color. You strike me as not having a particularly strong grasp of the human emotional system, yet I would suppose the concentrated nature of the pink would mean that there is one particular area or areas that you feel an intense emotional response to, that emotion most likely revolving around affection, kindness, empathy, devotion, etc. I don't see pink that often, and to tell the truth I was convinced you were a woman for a long, long time. You've certainly got your masculine and feminine in balance.

---

(I didn't mean the woman part in an offensive sense, By the way. I've always respected men who could actually use their feminine energy.)

---

Thank you for your reading. For the most part i feel it is accurate, and in general a good description, with the caveat that I am quite skilled at hiding what i perceive as my dark side so it should not, in general, show up on random readings.

To be honest, your energy has always baffled to me.

Me too, that’s why I’m holding form and not jumping anywhere. The reason I am able to “hold shape” has “peaked my curiosity”. Because it implies that I am onto something with my earlier thinkings, or just smashing my head against the bulkhead so hard that I don’t even realize it anymore.

The phrase that comes to my mind is "a foot in both worlds."

I work as a channel and regularly see dead people / thought people / alternative timeline people /spirits /angels / Christ-consciousness-people.

Strangest thing yet is this kind of state of love where people look at me and their faces start to meld away and their eyes and mouth drift further and further apart and sort of wave in the air and get this feeling of being loved in a profound way. Its strange to be in that situation because the people who are near me literally meld into this one bubble that’s just far enough that I can’t touch it but just close enough that I can see it.

*sighs* the things we channelers end up doing.

This may sound odd, but it perplexes me as to how you are holding a three dimensional form.

A massive amount of love from my support group, planet, soul group, and people that love me in ways that I am unable to convey.

The deeper I go into your energy the more it expands. I start seeing fractals and mandalas and...some sort of graph thing.

Thank you.

Fractals I see a lot of, I believe my soul is, as can be best described, a fractal 8th dimensional ball of reality that is placed into emptiness and depending on the shape of the ball it generates other selves or the appearance of other selves when in reality they are both within and not within my sphere.

(soul collector orbs from B5 are a good example of what I mean, archon in a ball would also be a good example)

A grid system?

Much of my thinking and value basement systems and emotional whatnots are based on various grid systems, yes.

Some of them I have seen externalized a few times and while I am aware of their structure visibly, I do not desire a direct line of sight to them, so your view of it is well (good that you see it).

It goes on and on, like an acid trip.

I’ll take a risk and wager on the side of humor and say.
“Oh you have no idea!”

There is also a flash of a very gentle pink color.

My preference is for a universe that has as its basic color a very distinct shade of pink that is a kind of subdued or mellow pink. Not the kind of YAY PARTY SUGAR ALCOHOL! pink. But more of a…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LYh0kc8KyGc This has some of the idea
http://youtu.be/X7Eso1JcXp0 this but some amount stronger in definition of color
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k2Yllzghw...re=related This is also somewhat in the right range but too orange.

This should give you some idea of what kind of pink energy I refer to. I in general don’t talk about such things, social stigma and its effects are quite strong in masculine cultures. Those 3 videos are probably as deep as I’ll go into it.

Will also clarify that when "done" i should show a "glittering blackness" as my main color. http://www.freeimageslive.co.uk/files/im..._black.jpg something along these lines.

You strike me as not having a particularly strong grasp of the human emotional system, yet I would suppose the concentrated nature of the pink would mean that there is one particular area or areas that you feel an intense emotional response to, that emotion most likely revolving around affection, kindness, empathy, devotion, etc.

I used to have a supremely good empathic abilities. Dropped most of them around maybe 3-6 months before I came here. I was here before on another alias but left years ago (like so many apparently do).

I had a grasp of the emotional system so far beyond what is healthy that I ended up using it to manipulate people to no end in an effort to gain power. Then I got handed “all power” by a few high level STO’s (for roughly maybe the 4th time) and that really sent me for a tailspin (this time) and now I’m reluctant to engage any kind of empathic abilities again as they have a massive risk of me ending up manipulating people. I prefer to have an intellectual grasp on what I am doing to avoid inadvertent manipulations and prefer to take the risk it causes to myself of “damnation” in some form in exchange for the increased probability of other selves being less damaged. As based on “why am I still maintaining form” is that I have a theory about self-other self interactions that would be very difficult to test under any other conditions than these so I feel like my present self/incarnation/body is an incredibly rare opportunity to test my “theory” and in some level I feel like “the whole universe” is holding its breath seeing if I produce something that is truly “novel” or simply a personal growing experience. Both are just as good and in fact the same, but I feel like most of what I do right now is subconscious or under automatic control, but that I understand what I am doing and why it is on automatic control.

Sometimes I literally have to hold myself down so I don’t blow up and go to another density.

I don't see pink that often, and to tell the truth I was convinced you were a woman for a long, long time. You've certainly got your masculine and feminine in balance.

Thank you, there was some debate on if I should be a girl before I incarnated but parents settled upon a male child. Brother referred before we had our falling off that “you should try this game (pc game) as a girl, I think it was designed that way” and later the game that he was referring to morphed to something that told me my story through a different method and indeed, I found myself laughing because the game did indeed work better as a woman. I think I’ll probably incarnate as one “fairly soon”.

I feel like I could probably, with sufficient meditation, simply metamorph this body into a female body, though I can’t guarantee, mostly because I won’t try due to it not being my goal, but anyway, might be interesting.

Also, no offence taken, it is intriguing that some see me as a woman.

Quite a few see me as a 15 year old boy.

I thank you for your kind service and its accurate description. I am surprised (though mildly) that it saw no really dark overtones.