01-29-2010, 02:05 PM
I find it difficult to be humble for I have to do it consciously. It's not something actively encouraged from external sources, that's for sure.
The ego plays it's game: You find yourself looking if someone quotes you and feel proud for it. If someone agrees with your words, even better. If someone disagrees, heaven's no - how can this be. If someone tells you "thank you", well, that was expected, for you are so wise.
When I find myself thinking in these naive patterns I remind myself that all of you people posting might as well have been me. Well, you are me. Each gratitude amined towards any of you is an equal gratitude towards myself. Each gratitude I am towards you is also towards myself.
I am so happy to read all that which you say, regardless of what it is. This is what I want to feel, even though I do not sometimes.
Forgiveness of self..
The ego plays it's game: You find yourself looking if someone quotes you and feel proud for it. If someone agrees with your words, even better. If someone disagrees, heaven's no - how can this be. If someone tells you "thank you", well, that was expected, for you are so wise.
When I find myself thinking in these naive patterns I remind myself that all of you people posting might as well have been me. Well, you are me. Each gratitude amined towards any of you is an equal gratitude towards myself. Each gratitude I am towards you is also towards myself.
I am so happy to read all that which you say, regardless of what it is. This is what I want to feel, even though I do not sometimes.
Forgiveness of self..